DarkAries
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Greetings!
(Mostly best would be for myself to wait a few days to digest it a bit more, but you might know, Im really impatient).
So, I spent a lot of time reflecting myself, questioning what part of me is really me and what is just something external factor, or just something I tell myself to feel better. I had the twisted logic that I only need to succed and the way to it is just secondery. The all "goal justifies the method". Of course I havent done any horrible, but I had a very selfish personality for it. Also, I consumed a lot of very bad kind of porn, for a long time, which I quitted a month ago. And kindof felt like most of humans are worthless. I see I was wrong, there are in fact antropods, but not much of humanity deserve to be abandoned. I realised my mistakes, and want to fix them.
My point is, I will be kinder. Stronger, but also kinder. Ill do what I can to help the ToZ grow, guide others to the truth. Feel like its necessery to get a porpuse in life, or selflove, at least for me. Isolating myself to grow was maybe needed in the past, maybe not, but its over.
Of course, I wont become pacifistic. I still love martial arts and have more than enough physical and spiritual power to defend myself or hit back when needed.
So, I just wanted to share this. The whole selfreflextion goes in for a bit more than a year now, I feel like it goes to that way. That Ill be less arrogant, less selfish, since I grow just as much without it.
Also, here a little pyrography I made lately:
Hail Zeus!
(Mostly best would be for myself to wait a few days to digest it a bit more, but you might know, Im really impatient).
So, I spent a lot of time reflecting myself, questioning what part of me is really me and what is just something external factor, or just something I tell myself to feel better. I had the twisted logic that I only need to succed and the way to it is just secondery. The all "goal justifies the method". Of course I havent done any horrible, but I had a very selfish personality for it. Also, I consumed a lot of very bad kind of porn, for a long time, which I quitted a month ago. And kindof felt like most of humans are worthless. I see I was wrong, there are in fact antropods, but not much of humanity deserve to be abandoned. I realised my mistakes, and want to fix them.
My point is, I will be kinder. Stronger, but also kinder. Ill do what I can to help the ToZ grow, guide others to the truth. Feel like its necessery to get a porpuse in life, or selflove, at least for me. Isolating myself to grow was maybe needed in the past, maybe not, but its over.
Of course, I wont become pacifistic. I still love martial arts and have more than enough physical and spiritual power to defend myself or hit back when needed.
So, I just wanted to share this. The whole selfreflextion goes in for a bit more than a year now, I feel like it goes to that way. That Ill be less arrogant, less selfish, since I grow just as much without it.
Also, here a little pyrography I made lately:
Hail Zeus!
