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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "moonshadow46@..." <moonshadow46@... wrote:
Hi, Eclipse...I know what you mean about Satan not seeming to have as much to do with you after awhile. For me, he showed me many things anyone would label "supernatural" right at first, but I think at some point he thinks "you've got it" and thinks we can handle things on our own. Maybe that isn't your exact situation but it was mine, and I have noticed that if I ever get depressed or sad at his "lack of showing me things," it doesn't take long before he will show up again and reassure me....good luck to you.
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Eclipse" <eclipse_eye3@ wrote:
Yea and I just noticed my mistake of not ever using the protection exercises EVERY DAY. But I know father hasnt betrayed me and I never said that. I said we dont have the strong connection that we had because I had vivid dreams every night of father and I still remember the castle or palace he showed me and it was beautiful. I also remember hearing foot steps walk into my room when I did the dedication rite. Our connection was very strong even before I came to Satanism, he never gave up on me and I know he never will because he still show me in many ways everyday. But your help was much needed and I see my mistake which wont happen again.
Ave Satannas,
Eclipse
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "chalchiuhnenetzin" <jaguarcat2002@ wrote:
For one thing, this isn't xtianity, so there's nothing to 'forgive' ... you get out of Satanism what you put into it; it doesn't mean Satan has betrayed you. Go back to basics, to square one, so to speak, as if you were truly brand new. (Your dedication, however, last for a lifetime and need not be renewed.)
A xtian can pray all it wants and it'll have no effect on a Spiritual Satanist who is dedicated and is a strong meditator who ALSO does meditative protection exercises EACH AND EVERY DAY, even more than once a day if necessary.
If they are a huge problem, there's steps you can take which are outlined on the JoS site. Look it up and start doing it. Remember Satanism is all about individuality, independence, and eventually standing on our own two feet; we have the tools, but we have to USE them.
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Eclipse" <eclipse_eye3@ wrote:
Ive been a satanist for about five to six years now but feels like me and father dont have the connection we used to have and I am the one to blame. I started haveing doubts and Angels always attacked me in my dreams alot once I dedicated my soul to father, even spirits where trying to harm me but I prayed to Inpu my Gaurdian and he was always there to help. But after awhile I just stopped meditating and I got lazy and became weak and its as if the angels where winning and putting fear into me in my dreams. And I was scared and started doubting my path and now I feel Ive lost everything since then. I plan to start back meditating everyday again and hope father hasnt forsaken me for good because I feel alone now and weak. Ive prayed for forgiveness and for him to come back into my life. I cant do readings anymore and I havent had any spiritual experiences in the past two years. I was getting attacked so much because my xian family always prays for me alot and it made me weak. Please forgive me brothers and sisters, pray for me, help me to become close to Hell and the Gods of Hell and father again. The sun still shines on me no matter where I stand or sit which casts an eclipse of my soul
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Eclipse,
Ave Satannas
