First off, I have been raised by christians, and I cant seem to get all the hypocrisy out of my mind, everytime I think of creation I think of how "YHWH" created it. I know this is not true, Satanism is the only religion that is truely based on morals and truth, I know this. But all that shit my father told me has my mind in a jugernott. I know what I want to believe, but my mind is not letting me. Ill think "thank YHWH" and then I correct myself in my mind "Thank Satan", but I feel bad for even Saying the hypocratic name "YHWH".... I just need to talk to a person Who has been in this for a while. Please reply. Thanks.