Help with my mentality

[DarkAries]

Greetings!
So, I have one big part of my mentality, which was a great fuel in the past but slowly turned against me, and I just dont know how to change it anymore.
I want to do everything. Endlessly evolve, endlessly train, every, single, fucking day. It was good way back to stick to routine and train every day but now... well, it just endlessly makes me unsatisfied. I have to meditate a lot every day, do tibetien rites every day, train my muscles, continue my magical works, do kundalini yoga, stretching, read my countless books to train my mind, be better every day, because if not I wont deserve to exist and just wasting my life away and so on... yep, its overwhelming now, and I know it would lead to ruin and self-hatred, but I just dont know how to change it. We MUST be better and evolve regardless, but I feel doing anything, that wont make me better is a shameful waste of time.

 

[Lightningsnake]

Sit down for a few minutes and ask yourself what would be best.

Think about what is feasible.

Think about what might work in general.

Think about what you need.

Think about where you want to go in life.

And think about how you can accomplish all of this.

 

[Ælberiigor]

It seems you are pride, want to become the best... surely because too much Fire, a kind of loneliness caused by the inability to share things you're very advanced in.
If you make progress, continue.

You can also integrate activities requiring patience, technicality, physical or moral endurance... to develop humility by discovering your limits and develop other skills.
I'm not sure you have to change your mentality, just modify your program.

 

[tandt]

Focus on spiritual advancement first l, the rest will fall on place. Don't try to do it all at once, do your things bit by bit, slowly but surely.
Meditation is the key, with proper advancements, even addictions and best habits, will fall out naturally

 

[tandt]

I mean Bad habits