Help with my mentality

[DarkAries]

Greetings!
So, I have one big part of my mentality, which was a great fuel in the past but slowly turned against me, and I just dont know how to change it anymore.
I want to do everything. Endlessly evolve, endlessly train, every, single, fucking day. It was good way back to stick to routine and train every day but now... well, it just endlessly makes me unsatisfied. I have to meditate a lot every day, do tibetien rites every day, train my muscles, continue my magical works, do kundalini yoga, stretching, read my countless books to train my mind, be better every day, because if not I wont deserve to exist and just wasting my life away and so on... yep, its overwhelming now, and I know it would lead to ruin and self-hatred, but I just dont know how to change it. We MUST be better and evolve regardless, but I feel doing anything, that wont make me better is a shameful waste of time.

 

[Lightningsnake]

Sit down for a few minutes and ask yourself what would be best.

Think about what is feasible.

Think about what might work in general.

Think about what you need.

Think about where you want to go in life.

And think about how you can accomplish all of this.

 

[Ælberiigor]

It seems you are pride, want to become the best... surely because too much Fire, a kind of loneliness caused by the inability to share things you're very advanced in.
If you make progress, continue.

You can also integrate activities requiring patience, technicality, physical or moral endurance... to develop humility by discovering your limits and develop other skills.
I'm not sure you have to change your mentality, just modify your program.

 

[tandt]

Focus on spiritual advancement first l, the rest will fall on place. Don't try to do it all at once, do your things bit by bit, slowly but surely.
Meditation is the key, with proper advancements, even addictions and best habits, will fall out naturally

 

[tandt]

I mean Bad habits

 

[DarkAries]

Focus on spiritual advancement first l, the rest will fall on place. Don't try to do it all at once, do your things bit by bit, slowly but surely.
Meditation is the key, with proper advancements, even addictions and best habits, will fall out naturally

I just have in mind that I must hurry, and advance as fast as possible. Sure, Im in my 20s yet, and have around 50 more years, or 70 at best, but who knows if its enough time for me.

 

[AFODO]

After hatha yoga, affirm that your soul is now completely balanced. When empowering the chakras, don't only affirm that they are empowered, but also that they are healthy and function correctly in the most beneficial way for you.

Now okay, since you have mentioned the word evoltion, which is not really fitting to what you are doing, I'm going to give you the way you can evolve past this.
You have to have the greatest respect for these practices, this is what true God-fearing is. They are scary powerful. Open your mind up to this notion, know that when you vibrate a mantra, you are basically opening up the heavens and tremendous power flows to you. Once a chakra activates, it does crazy stuff. You stretch your hands upwards, Sun chakra activates instantly, sends energy to the 6th chakra and sends you to Elysium instantly. Try right now, it's serious. Can't over do it lest you transcend.

Any spiritual practice has infinitely more power if you open your mind up to it, basically that's the only factor. Know that you can barely do 5 Raum in Sun chakra because each vibration generates so much energy there you can barely handle it. Try it, only one vibration into the Sun chakra. You can instantly feel it strongly, it lights up, activates, only from one vibration. Crazy power, cannot do much of it, nor it is needed, it is now powerful for the whole week, you need to let it cool down to not overstimulate.

I do now meditation on one chakra a day, 10 vibration, so each chakra gets 10 vibration in one week for empowerment, that is plentiful, even too much if you are really open.
Deep cleaning on each saturday, aura cleaning every day. This is more than enough. But also do at least 21 day purification cycle on every witches sabbath, or more if you want and need.

Before this I did purification and full chakra meditation every day, I didn't felt much progress, that is not good at all, you need to separate them. This have opened my mind up a lot. I'm eternally thankful to SG Alexandros, I would be nowhere without him. Keep this principle always in mind: don't mix oppositional energies, let them manifest uninterrupted, separate them by enough time.

Besides this, I don't see much problem, you have a terminator mind, not that bad, just have respect and open up yourself. Doing 1000x closed minded = doing 1x open minded. This is true evolution.

 

[Ælberiigor]

Sure, Im in my 20s yet

I'm around 50 and guarantee you this kind of little crisis are part of your evolution.

In general, you become adult and mature around 40, but the ability to raise one's potential has been at its peak during the previous two decades.
So, keep training and learning, how to use what's you developed will be clearer later.