nessa_vaness
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Hey Everyone,
This is something that's been on my mind for a long time, something I've gone through lots of emotional strife over, and I'm just looking for the opinions of my beloved brothers and sisters. (I do read your posts daily, even if I rarely post myself.) This might get long, so I apologize in advance, but this is really something I want to get off my chest.
I am in a rather precarious situation. I have been employed at the same place for about 9 months now. Everything about this place has seemed like it was meant to be - for example: I was laid off from my previous job (which I hated). I was ok to be taking a small break. I knew people would be bugging me about looking for work, so I did a quick job search, came across my current jobs posting, thought "this looks like one I can apply to" and sent in my resume. I closed the window, and forgot all about it. This was the sole job I applied to. Long story short, I got the job a few days later, and this is what my story is really all about - my boss.
The moment I walked into my office for the first time, I opened the door and saw him standing there - absolutely gorgeous and glowing. I know that sounds very silly, but it was almost like a fairytale. I swear I saw stars when I first laid eyes on him. As my interview progressed, I was already smitten with him. He was everything I always considered my perfect mate to be physically. It was at this time I learned he was married.
As time went on, and we worked closely together, I grew more and more attracted to him, aside from his gorgeous looks. Our personalities just seemed to "click" as the saying goes. I could spend hours with him and it felt like minutes. He could make me laugh and laugh until my stomach and my cheeks hurt. We could have intelligent conversations (something I can barely find with anyone.) There was no denying we had a connection. I could see it in his eyes, and feel the electricity between us.
Stupidly, I felt I couldn't handle "the game" as it's called, and came onto him via Jewbook - a big mistake. His wife found out and tried to separate us at all costs (I can't really blame her.) I was fully ready to lose my job - but I didn't. I am an excellent employee and have never even taken a day off sick, so I'm sure that helped my case. So, anyway, during this timeframe I found out that he had an extremely Xian upbringing, as did his wife. I also found out that he has been dating his wife since he was 16 years old (now he is 27), and they met in some Catholic high school. I was crushed - I couldn't believe such a wonderful, brilliant, witty, joyful man was under the curse of Xianity. I actually felt my stomach churn over this realization. I prayed to Father to help him see the truth, that someone as smart and able as him could not possibly be under that Jew spell.
A couple of weeks ago we went on a break together and he confided in me that he doesnt know who made the universe but he knows it was a higher power..and that he believes in Ancient Aliens and their role in mans evolution - I was stunned, because just a few weeks prior he had been offended when I made a statement about plants of all things that went against the Bible.
ANYWAY, I suppose my long babbling story is boiling down to this - I feel (as I have always felt, since the literal moment I laid eyes on him) a HUGE attraction and connection to him. I have tried to sever it, as have other people (namely, his wife). In previous crush situations, they would always dissipate when I wasn't in the constant presence of that person - this has been opposite. When we started to see eachother less, I started thinking about and wanting him more and more. I know that he likes me too, and he makes comments about how "real life sucks" and that he wishes dreams could become reality, etc etc.
Is this all a big set-up by the enemy? I'm thinking this might be a factor because of his upbringing and the fact he's surrounded by it. Are they trying to make me miserable? Or destroy me? As he is my boss, it could blow up big time if we did actually hook up. Or is this something else? Is there a reason why I literally feel drawn to him? Is this all just sexual hardwiring making me hot and bothered for him because nature wants me to have babies? Am I making sense at all here?
Too long;didn't read version:
I feel an uncanny attraction and connection to my married Xian boss, and have been thinking about him non-stop for the past 9 months. Could there be a deeper meaning for this, or is just my hormones?
This is something that's been on my mind for a long time, something I've gone through lots of emotional strife over, and I'm just looking for the opinions of my beloved brothers and sisters. (I do read your posts daily, even if I rarely post myself.) This might get long, so I apologize in advance, but this is really something I want to get off my chest.
I am in a rather precarious situation. I have been employed at the same place for about 9 months now. Everything about this place has seemed like it was meant to be - for example: I was laid off from my previous job (which I hated). I was ok to be taking a small break. I knew people would be bugging me about looking for work, so I did a quick job search, came across my current jobs posting, thought "this looks like one I can apply to" and sent in my resume. I closed the window, and forgot all about it. This was the sole job I applied to. Long story short, I got the job a few days later, and this is what my story is really all about - my boss.
The moment I walked into my office for the first time, I opened the door and saw him standing there - absolutely gorgeous and glowing. I know that sounds very silly, but it was almost like a fairytale. I swear I saw stars when I first laid eyes on him. As my interview progressed, I was already smitten with him. He was everything I always considered my perfect mate to be physically. It was at this time I learned he was married.
As time went on, and we worked closely together, I grew more and more attracted to him, aside from his gorgeous looks. Our personalities just seemed to "click" as the saying goes. I could spend hours with him and it felt like minutes. He could make me laugh and laugh until my stomach and my cheeks hurt. We could have intelligent conversations (something I can barely find with anyone.) There was no denying we had a connection. I could see it in his eyes, and feel the electricity between us.
Stupidly, I felt I couldn't handle "the game" as it's called, and came onto him via Jewbook - a big mistake. His wife found out and tried to separate us at all costs (I can't really blame her.) I was fully ready to lose my job - but I didn't. I am an excellent employee and have never even taken a day off sick, so I'm sure that helped my case. So, anyway, during this timeframe I found out that he had an extremely Xian upbringing, as did his wife. I also found out that he has been dating his wife since he was 16 years old (now he is 27), and they met in some Catholic high school. I was crushed - I couldn't believe such a wonderful, brilliant, witty, joyful man was under the curse of Xianity. I actually felt my stomach churn over this realization. I prayed to Father to help him see the truth, that someone as smart and able as him could not possibly be under that Jew spell.
A couple of weeks ago we went on a break together and he confided in me that he doesnt know who made the universe but he knows it was a higher power..and that he believes in Ancient Aliens and their role in mans evolution - I was stunned, because just a few weeks prior he had been offended when I made a statement about plants of all things that went against the Bible.
ANYWAY, I suppose my long babbling story is boiling down to this - I feel (as I have always felt, since the literal moment I laid eyes on him) a HUGE attraction and connection to him. I have tried to sever it, as have other people (namely, his wife). In previous crush situations, they would always dissipate when I wasn't in the constant presence of that person - this has been opposite. When we started to see eachother less, I started thinking about and wanting him more and more. I know that he likes me too, and he makes comments about how "real life sucks" and that he wishes dreams could become reality, etc etc.
Is this all a big set-up by the enemy? I'm thinking this might be a factor because of his upbringing and the fact he's surrounded by it. Are they trying to make me miserable? Or destroy me? As he is my boss, it could blow up big time if we did actually hook up. Or is this something else? Is there a reason why I literally feel drawn to him? Is this all just sexual hardwiring making me hot and bothered for him because nature wants me to have babies? Am I making sense at all here?
Too long;didn't read version:
I feel an uncanny attraction and connection to my married Xian boss, and have been thinking about him non-stop for the past 9 months. Could there be a deeper meaning for this, or is just my hormones?
