I am planning dedication in less than 30 days now for many reasons i cant do it earlier, im gonna do it for sure this month, by the way even if in the forum many talk about the Gods being beautiful
i dont know why i intuitively feel they have the demon face, and i also feel i may at any time see one physically even if i didnt even see a God in meditation yet, but i dont know why i have that feeling that i will see a God physically
and i feel that the face look "demon like" and i started thinking thats why in the nightmare i saw the entity refused to show me the face it had a mask and when i grabed her( she was shadow-like in the dark) and after i grabed her she turned into a physical body of a women and run from me and i didnt let her hand slip , and managed to see only the back of her and she was running in a way like if not wanting me to see the face , i dont know if its my subconscious representing the idea of me thinking the face of entity looks "demonic"
How should i deal with that feeling of presence? Since i cant help but look around me every time i feel it, and it makes me uneasy, since i dont know what to do, should i accept it , or feel love toward it or what exactly? Since not knowing what to do is whats making me want the feeling of presence to stop, it happens by the way in void meditation too
The difference is that during void meditation the feeling of presence intensifies to the point i open eyes since i start feeling 100% someone is here and i open eyes to make sure no one is here since i dont know how to react to the feeling of presence