Feeling Like Shit!

[vitas_notm]

I know defiling my body would most defiantly anger Lord Enki, but I almost cant help it.

My back-story is fairly simple. I was living a lie of the filth I once worshiped. And what did it gain me?

My parents split. I know why, but my fucking father kept me from my mother. He lied, and even threatened to hide us if he were to be taken to jail. He also abused us. He'd threaten to kill us at times, and often beat us (When I say US, I mean my brother and I).

I have been raped, abused, beaten, made fun of...Its drove me to a life of Self-Injury through some really bad means. I've gone to lengths of hitting walls so hard that I break my knuckles.

I stated to follow Lord Enki in the seventh grade, though...It was misinformed to me. You see, I followed much of what the xian filth said about Satan. The whole "Satan is gods enemy, he lives in hell, Blah Blah" bullshit. It wasn't until the 10th grade I did some research and finally figured out BOY WAS I WRONG.

Things got a little better. I cannot practice as I wish, but at least I knew, In my mind and heart that Enki is with me. I fold my arms, and protect my heart chakra with all my strength! HAIL ENKI!

But I am still not at ease...My fiance ... I don't know what to think of her. I love her with all my heart but...Even so ... She isn't necessarily a follower of Lord Enki. Often she confuses me. Her power is strong, but her mind...Is not in the right spot.

Through my past and with her...She's being attacked. She ... She's being attacked and manipulated by the enemy. It has been her raising. Her power was born through her own blood. Seven Elementals bound their powers within her through a transmuatation circle born from her blood, and so began her power.

She thinks of me and my power as evil though. I have much power, though "Trapped" I suppose, it is. Its almost controlled by a ring I have. It helps to not over power me, and it grounds out extra energy. But for some reason, she fears my power. She wants to rid me of it! I can't have this, but the emense power surges have harmed her in the past, and seem to draw the filth xian angels towards her, as well as me...I cannot allow her to board away my powers, but without control of it, if the "boarding" does not hold, then it could be putting my children at harms risk.

The only coping skill I've ever had has been SI, and it is majorly addicting. I don't honestly expect those who have not done it to understand, so please just trust me...it is.

With all the stress that has been going on, I don't know how to handle it all. She is confused, I'm stressed out, she cant afford to be stressed out...What do I do oh mighty E-Group?

Please, I only wish help...

HAIL LORD ENKI! SATANAMAS Forever more!

 

[22]

<td val[/IMG]yeah ok whatever.........it is hard to take you seriously, so fake is this shit you send to amuse us
We do for ourselves, be knowledge.

I suggest you do for yourself, we do not care about your problem(s).
perhaps
your magic ring can help i bet,hehe

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!!

--- On Fri, 3/20/09, vitas_notm <vitas.noctm@... wrote:

From: vitas_notm <vitas.noctm@...
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Feeling Like Shit!
To: [email protected]
Date: Friday, March 20, 2009, 8:57 PM

I know defiling my body would most defiantly anger Lord Enki, but I almost cant help it.

My back-story is fairly simple. I was living a lie of the filth I once worshiped. And what did it gain me?

My parents split. I know why, but my fucking father kept me from my mother. He lied, and even threatened to hide us if he were to be taken to jail. He also abused us. He'd threaten to kill us at times, and often beat us (When I say US, I mean my brother and I).

I have been raped, abused, beaten, made fun of...Its drove me to a life of Self-Injury through some really bad means. I've gone to lengths of hitting walls so hard that I break my knuckles.

I stated to follow Lord Enki in the seventh grade, though...It was misinformed to me. You see, I followed much of what the xian filth said about Satan. The whole "Satan is gods enemy, he lives in hell, Blah Blah" bullshit. It wasn't until the 10th grade I did some research and finally figured out BOY WAS I WRONG.

Things got a little better. I cannot practice as I wish, but at least I knew, In my mind and heart that Enki is with me. I fold my arms, and protect my heart chakra with all my strength! HAIL ENKI!

But I am still not at ease...My fiance ... I don't know what to think of her. I love her with all my heart but...Even so ... She isn't necessarily a follower of Lord Enki. Often she confuses me. Her power is strong, but her mind...Is not in the right spot.

Through my past and with her...She's being attacked. She ... She's being attacked and manipulated by the enemy. It has been her raising. Her power was born through her own blood.. Seven Elementals bound their powers within her through a transmuatation circle born from her blood, and so began her power.

She thinks of me and my power as evil though. I have much power, though "Trapped" I suppose, it is. Its almost controlled by a ring I have. It helps to not over power me, and it grounds out extra energy. But for some reason, she fears my power. She wants to rid me of it! I can't have this, but the emense power surges have harmed her in the past, and seem to draw the filth xian angels towards her, as well as me...I cannot allow her to board away my powers, but without control of it, if the "boarding" does not hold, then it could be putting my children at harms risk.

The only coping skill I've ever had has been SI, and it is majorly addicting. I don't honestly expect those who have not done it to understand, so please just trust me...it is.

With all the stress that has been going on, I don't know how to handle it all. She is confused, I'm stressed out, she cant afford to be stressed out...What do I do oh mighty E-Group?

Please, I only wish help...

HAIL LORD ENKI! SATANAMAS Forever more!

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[shadowwhispr7]

Umm,all that I can immediately suggest is that you do quite a bit of reading on the JoS site if you would like more accurate info about establishing a more serious relationship with Satan.It sounds like you might be confused.............shadowwhispr --- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "vitas_notm" <vitas.noctm@... wrote:

I know defiling my body would most defiantly anger Lord Enki, but I almost cant help it.

My back-story is fairly simple. I was living a lie of the filth I once worshiped. And what did it gain me?

My parents split. I know why, but my fucking father kept me from my mother. He lied, and even threatened to hide us if he were to be taken to jail. He also abused us. He'd threaten to kill us at times, and often beat us (When I say US, I mean my brother and I).

I have been raped, abused, beaten, made fun of...Its drove me to a life of Self-Injury through some really bad means. I've gone to lengths of hitting walls so hard that I break my knuckles.

I stated to follow Lord Enki in the seventh grade, though...It was misinformed to me. You see, I followed much of what the xian filth said about Satan. The whole "Satan is gods enemy, he lives in hell, Blah Blah" bullshit. It wasn't until the 10th grade I did some research and finally figured out BOY WAS I WRONG.

Things got a little better. I cannot practice as I wish, but at least I knew, In my mind and heart that Enki is with me. I fold my arms, and protect my heart chakra with all my strength! HAIL ENKI!

But I am still not at ease...My fiance ... I don't know what to think of her. I love her with all my heart but...Even so ... She isn't necessarily a follower of Lord Enki. Often she confuses me. Her power is strong, but her mind...Is not in the right spot.

Through my past and with her...She's being attacked. She ... She's being attacked and manipulated by the enemy. It has been her raising. Her power was born through her own blood. Seven Elementals bound their powers within her through a transmuatation circle born from her blood, and so began her power.

She thinks of me and my power as evil though. I have much power, though "Trapped" I suppose, it is. Its almost controlled by a ring I have. It helps to not over power me, and it grounds out extra energy. But for some reason, she fears my power. She wants to rid me of it! I can't have this, but the emense power surges have harmed her in the past, and seem to draw the filth xian angels towards her, as well as me...I cannot allow her to board away my powers, but without control of it, if the "boarding" does not hold, then it could be putting my children at harms risk.

The only coping skill I've ever had has been SI, and it is majorly addicting. I don't honestly expect those who have not done it to understand, so please just trust me...it is.

With all the stress that has been going on, I don't know how to handle it all. She is confused, I'm stressed out, she cant afford to be stressed out...What do I do oh mighty E-Group?

Please, I only wish help...

HAIL LORD ENKI! SATANAMAS Forever more!

 

[Charles MacIain]

<td val[/IMG]Sorry, I have not really read this thread. Some threads I instinctivly do not read. However, something said.....   The path I follow, as is the way of most true paths, is a path for warriors and only warriors because of the things us warriors must confront along the path. The Path of Knowledge and Power that is. If you aint a warrior, the path most likly is not for you.   There are no victims in life. We create all of our own reality, or it is created for you by you giving up your power. You must choose to be a warrior or not.   Charles

--- On Sat, 3/21/09, 22 <chrebr88@... wrote:

From: 22 <chrebr88@...
Subject: Re:[HellsArmy666] Feeling Like Shit!
To: [email protected]
Date: Saturday, March 21, 2009, 7:21 PM

<td vAl[/IMG]yeah ok whatever.... .....it is hard to take you seriously, so fake is this shit you send to amuse us
We do for ourselves, be knowledge.

I suggest you do for yourself, we do not care about your problem(s).
perhaps
your magic ring can help i bet,hehe

HAIL SATAN FOREVER!!

--- On Fri, 3/20/09, vitas_notm <vitas.noctm@ gmail.com wrote:

From: vitas_notm <vitas.noctm@ gmail.com
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Feeling Like Shit!
To: HellsArmy666@ yahoogroups. com
Date: Friday, March 20, 2009, 8:57 PM

I know defiling my body would most defiantly anger Lord Enki, but I almost cant help it.

My back-story is fairly simple. I was living a lie of the filth I once worshiped. And what did it gain me?

My parents split. I know why, but my fucking father kept me from my mother. He lied, and even threatened to hide us if he were to be taken to jail. He also abused us. He'd threaten to kill us at times, and often beat us (When I say US, I mean my brother and I).

I have been raped, abused, beaten, made fun of...Its drove me to a life of Self-Injury through some really bad means. I've gone to lengths of hitting walls so hard that I break my knuckles.

I stated to follow Lord Enki in the seventh grade, though...It was misinformed to me. You see, I followed much of what the xian filth said about Satan. The whole "Satan is gods enemy, he lives in hell, Blah Blah" bullshit. It wasn't until the 10th grade I did some research and finally figured out BOY WAS I WRONG.

Things got a little better. I cannot practice as I wish, but at least I knew, In my mind and heart that Enki is with me. I fold my arms, and protect my heart chakra with all my strength! HAIL ENKI!

But I am still not at ease...My fiance ... I don't know what to think of her. I love her with all my heart but...Even so ... She isn't necessarily a follower of Lord Enki. Often she confuses me. Her power is strong, but her mind...Is not in the right spot.

Through my past and with her...She's being attacked. She ... She's being attacked and manipulated by the enemy. It has been her raising. Her power was born through her own blood.. Seven Elementals bound their powers within her through a transmuatation circle born from her blood, and so began her power.

She thinks of me and my power as evil though. I have much power, though "Trapped" I suppose, it is. Its almost controlled by a ring I have. It helps to not over power me, and it grounds out extra energy. But for some reason, she fears my power. She wants to rid me of it! I can't have this, but the emense power surges have harmed her in the past, and seem to draw the filth xian angels towards her, as well as me...I cannot allow her to board away my powers, but without control of it, if the "boarding" does not hold, then it could be putting my children at harms risk.

The only coping skill I've ever had has been SI, and it is majorly addicting. I don't honestly expect those who have not done it to understand, so please just trust me...it is.

With all the stress that has been going on, I don't know how to handle it all. She is confused, I'm stressed out, she cant afford to be stressed out...What do I do oh mighty E-Group?

Please, I only wish help...

HAIL LORD ENKI! SATANAMAS Forever more!

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