Fear-please advise

[goodemon2012]

last night my lover asked me to sit and just Be with him for a while he was trying to help open up my astral sense of touch.After about a minuet my mind started to pull away from him and i saw a spark flar brightly in my mind and i pulled away and started pacing. He gave it a name-Fear. It has been blocking me for a long time-the more i read about power and satan and others experence the more unseen fear seems to build up inside of me. i had read about someones kundalini experence and where she is working thru "losing her personalinty-the false human one" and letting this other side-being come thru and hoow her body her mucsels and all are changing-it scares the crap out of me even though i want to get my kundalini to rise.-the woman isn't nuts or anything she is quite interesting.I have read a few posts about fear but i'm not sure how to get rid of it-besides the laughter thing from maxine that only works on surface fear for me.I know that this fear is what has been keeping me from fully trusting my lover,feeling his touch, and from having a full relationship with father satan-i also feel guilty by not doing the other things that fellow satanists have been doing to help win the war.

I need help-real help0anyone that has solid advise please tell all.
I just hate seeing the sad and worried look on my lover's face-he tries so hard to help me-i'm grateful to him.

hail Father Satan
I await his return.

 

[kosmos_9]

I just wanted to say that I think it is a beautiful thing to have someone in your life who has the same interest as a satanist by your side and also willing to help you achieve your godhead. I am waiting on that special one to be in my life as well.

HS

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "goodemon2012" <goodemon2012@... wrote:

last night my lover asked me to sit and just Be with him for a while he was trying to help open up my astral sense of touch.After about a minuet my mind started to pull away from him and i saw a spark flar brightly in my mind and i pulled away and started pacing. He gave it a name-Fear. It has been blocking me for a long time-the more i read about power and satan and others experence the more unseen fear seems to build up inside of me. i had read about someones kundalini experence and where she is working thru "losing her personalinty-the false human one" and letting this other side-being come thru and hoow her body her mucsels and all are changing-it scares the crap out of me even though i want to get my kundalini to rise.-the woman isn't nuts or anything she is quite interesting.I have read a few posts about fear but i'm not sure how to get rid of it-besides the laughter thing from maxine that only works on surface fear for me.I know that this fear is what has been keeping me from fully trusting my lover,feeling his touch, and from having a full relationship with father satan-i also feel guilty by not doing the other things that fellow satanists have been doing to help win the war.

I need help-real help0anyone that has solid advise please tell all.
I just hate seeing the sad and worried look on my lover's face-he tries so hard to help me-i'm grateful to him.

hail Father Satan
I await his return.

 

[Sean Fhtagn]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "goodemon2012" <goodemon2012@... wrote:

last night my lover asked me to sit and just Be with him for a while he was trying to help open up my astral sense of touch.After about a minuet my mind started to pull away from him and i saw a spark flar brightly in my mind and i pulled away and started pacing. He gave it a name-Fear. It has been blocking me for a long time-the more i read about power and satan and others experence the more unseen fear seems to build up inside of me. i had read about someones kundalini experence and where she is working thru "losing her personalinty-the false human one" and letting this other side-being come thru and hoow her body her mucsels and all are changing-it scares the crap out of me even though i want to get my kundalini to rise.-the woman isn't nuts or anything she is quite interesting.I have read a few posts about fear but i'm not sure how to get rid of it-besides the laughter thing from maxine that only works on surface fear for me.I know that this fear is what has been keeping me from fully trusting my lover,feeling his touch, and from having a full relationship with father satan-i also feel guilty by not doing the other things that fellow satanists have been doing to help win the war.

I need help-real help0anyone that has solid advise please tell all.
I just hate seeing the sad and worried look on my lover's face-he tries so hard to help me-i'm grateful to him.

hail Father Satan
I await his

fear had kept me from advancing before but i found the easiest way to get rid of fear is to understand what your doing and how its happening
so first of all learn about the elements and there actions in the universe via ITH and ask your lover or other wise god to help you with other oddities.

 

[Angelo Giancana]

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I've helped significant others before by lending them power and opening them up. This fear mind-set is a very real side effect. The best antidote is understanding and acceptence and the support of your S.O. . Aside from that, do power meditations, because if you don't, all that power he lent you will dry up; you need to establish your own base.

You need to be consistent with power meditations...because whenever you bring light energy into your body, it causes all your fears, beliefs and anything repressed to come up. Everyone has fear as we're all human... unless of course they've reached a certain level. This is called courage though.


Besides doing power meditations, if you really want to deal with your fear, then you are going to have to take a Jungian approach to it and find a way to transform your fears and beliefs into something more positive. These repressed feelings you are experiencing are a culmination of bad brainwashing of society and beliefs and a number of things...this is your shadow side you need to transform.

Usually time and experience living life is the best way with consistent power meditations, coupled with a Willingness to Change and not be stubborn about it. Let things happen and don't question things too much to the point of where you cannot smoothly have an experience.


On the side of the kundalini personality thing. There is no such thing as a false personality or an ego vs true self crap. There is only Ego (personality). When you lose the falseness, you are shedding societal programs. The true self is simply a personality that matches your entire being. Knowing this, if you had the fortitude..the Will and drive.. you could change and switch a number of personalities at such a deep level it completely changes you.

Sean Fhtagn <seanfhtagn@... wrote:

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "goodemon2012" <goodemon2012@... wrote:

last night my lover asked me to sit and just Be with him for a while he was trying to help open up my astral sense of touch.After about a minuet my mind started to pull away from him and i saw a spark flar brightly in my mind and i pulled away and started pacing. He gave it a name-Fear. It has been blocking me for a long time-the more i read about power and satan and others experence the more unseen fear seems to build up inside of me. i had read about someones kundalini experence and where she is working thru "losing her personalinty-the false human one" and letting this other side-being come thru and hoow her body her mucsels and all are changing-it scares the crap out of me even though i want to get my kundalini to rise.-the woman isn't nuts or anything she is quite interesting.I have read a few posts about fear but i'm not sure how to get rid of it-besides the laughter thing from maxine that only works on surface fear for me.I know that this fear is what has been keeping me from fully trusting my lover,feeling his touch, and from having a full relationship with father satan-i also feel guilty by not doing the other things that fellow satanists have been doing to help win the war.

I need help-real help0anyone that has solid advise please tell all.
I just hate seeing the sad and worried look on my lover's face-he tries so hard to help me-i'm grateful to him.

hail Father Satan
I await his

fear had kept me from advancing before but i found the easiest way to get rid of fear is to understand what your doing and how its happening
so first of all learn about the elements and there actions in the universe via ITH and ask your lover or other wise god to help you with other oddities.