What you need, is to force the doubts from your mind. With the doubts you have, no matter what you do, you will not contact a demon. This is because these issues are within -you-.
Yes, you have been meditating for 4 months, but what has it brought you? Has it brought you courage, self belief, a steadfast resolution to keep going?
Your comments about doubting yourself and having trouble being "faithful", answers to me that your 4 months, has not been long enough.
It takes a person however long it takes a person, you are not on a time limit. You should have "faith" in yourself; belief in yourself.
If you doubt, everything falls away. Don't doubt for a minute, and as soon as you feel it creeping up on you, you beat it back again, and don't let it back up.
Meditation should not only teach you patience, concentration, self-awareness..should not only allow you to raise your energy and your abilities, but it should teach you that you have all the power you could ever wish for inside of you, and so you should not doubt.
I recommend sitting and meditating on -why- you are doubting yourself, what is there to doubt? Lucifer doesn't doubt you, he's sitting waiting for you to realize that you can do it. When you realize it, then you're ready.
Good luck.
-Sepa.
Hail.
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you simply need the sigil.. mabey some of the gods pataining things but yea
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Subject: [JoyofSatan666] doubts, losing faith
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im having trouble staying faithfull. doubts are sinking in. what do i need to summon a demon. ive been meditating for 4 months now so i think i can talk to one. when i ask what i need, i mean whats the bare minimum tools i must have?