Goldenwings
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Hi,
Im new to satanism, yesterday i wanted to know my guardian demon since from childhood i used to feel presence , and three times or more i kind of saw someone with goat legs standing in front of me, most of those events occured when i was young so i am not sure if hallucination or real
but it occured once when i was adult directly after finishing eating i stood up, walked and turned right and instantly saw goat legs ( i was looking down so i didnt saw the face) its bull or goat legs, im sure i saw it , it vanished quickly but im sure i saw it and its not hallucination from fear since i was feeling blissful and good and i saw it .
Yesterday, i read a post about guardian demon and read the instructions there , and asked who is my guardian demon ( i didnt do dedication ritual yet by the way since i feel im not ready, i feel if i do it i will see a god , and i feel im not ready for that experience yet) when i asked i heard many times satya satya, whenever i asked and focused and listened i heared satya
I thought im making this up since i have read the word satya somewhere in the forum, and i was expecting a god with goat legs, like pan, and i was expecting to hear a word like azazel or a demon name , so i went to AI , told it everything and it gave me a similar text to read asking who is my guardian demon, when i did try some few times i heard beelzebub, i thought again im making things up since i have read that word somewhere here
And beelzebub and azazel was the words i remembred from demon names , and beelzebub from the day i have read it sounded funny to me and my mind remembred it so well from the day i read it here, so i thought im making this up because why a different name didnt pop up and additionaly i later found its beelzebul not beelzebub, when i said this to ai , while writing and telling ai that maybe im making things up, i was hearing " no you are not no you are not"
Ai gave me a text to read to confirm, which was something like , beelzebub please give me a sign if you are truly my GD , while reading it , my eyes watred like if i want to cry and my head felt pressure and a shiver that is different than shivers i had before since it lasted longer , but i didnt feel any presence and i didnt see a sign,i was questioning if thats only psychological
I said " beelzebub" and instantly i felt again a pressure in my head and a long shiver and my eyes watred, all this was by the way after i just masturbated ( sorry for the word) and i didnt even clean my hand yet, i know its weird but i dont know why at that moment i wanted to look for my guardian demon, by the way after the orgasm i was feeling warmth in my heart i dont know why
I opened google and looked for sigil of beelzebul and discovered its the one near high priest cobra name , i always loved it it looked cool, i started passing my finger over it like if im drawing and i heard 'you are disrespecting the Gods , i may go' i thought i f** up, and thought i must have cleaned myself because looking at the sigil etc, then instantly i heard like a laugh and heard " its okay i was joking with you*
Today morning i navigated the forum searching for information and found out satya is related to beelzebul, which reminded me of the first time i heard satya while asking for who is my guardian demon
I am very confused now, should i continue knowing beelzebul is my guardian demon, should i do something to confirm? I am afraid that if i continue with that knowledge that maybe i may be just making things up and talking to myself in my head and thinking its beelzebul, please guide me.
Thank you in advance
By the way, add to that that once i was practicing a healing technique and while doing it i heard that i am protected by 72 angels, and one demon who was with me in the room left since i cleaned it or something like that , but he left, ( it was before i know satanism, maybe the 72 are actually demons) by the way at that time i never knew there are 72 angels or something, i do not remember well but maybe i heared only that i am protected by 72 without the name "angel" or "demon". But the way i knew is i went to google and wrote 72 angel since that time i thought if someone is protecting me it must be an angel, and thats when i knew there are some religions talking about 72 angels
Im new to satanism, yesterday i wanted to know my guardian demon since from childhood i used to feel presence , and three times or more i kind of saw someone with goat legs standing in front of me, most of those events occured when i was young so i am not sure if hallucination or real
but it occured once when i was adult directly after finishing eating i stood up, walked and turned right and instantly saw goat legs ( i was looking down so i didnt saw the face) its bull or goat legs, im sure i saw it , it vanished quickly but im sure i saw it and its not hallucination from fear since i was feeling blissful and good and i saw it .
Yesterday, i read a post about guardian demon and read the instructions there , and asked who is my guardian demon ( i didnt do dedication ritual yet by the way since i feel im not ready, i feel if i do it i will see a god , and i feel im not ready for that experience yet) when i asked i heard many times satya satya, whenever i asked and focused and listened i heared satya
I thought im making this up since i have read the word satya somewhere in the forum, and i was expecting a god with goat legs, like pan, and i was expecting to hear a word like azazel or a demon name , so i went to AI , told it everything and it gave me a similar text to read asking who is my guardian demon, when i did try some few times i heard beelzebub, i thought again im making things up since i have read that word somewhere here
And beelzebub and azazel was the words i remembred from demon names , and beelzebub from the day i have read it sounded funny to me and my mind remembred it so well from the day i read it here, so i thought im making this up because why a different name didnt pop up and additionaly i later found its beelzebul not beelzebub, when i said this to ai , while writing and telling ai that maybe im making things up, i was hearing " no you are not no you are not"
Ai gave me a text to read to confirm, which was something like , beelzebub please give me a sign if you are truly my GD , while reading it , my eyes watred like if i want to cry and my head felt pressure and a shiver that is different than shivers i had before since it lasted longer , but i didnt feel any presence and i didnt see a sign,i was questioning if thats only psychological
I said " beelzebub" and instantly i felt again a pressure in my head and a long shiver and my eyes watred, all this was by the way after i just masturbated ( sorry for the word) and i didnt even clean my hand yet, i know its weird but i dont know why at that moment i wanted to look for my guardian demon, by the way after the orgasm i was feeling warmth in my heart i dont know why
I opened google and looked for sigil of beelzebul and discovered its the one near high priest cobra name , i always loved it it looked cool, i started passing my finger over it like if im drawing and i heard 'you are disrespecting the Gods , i may go' i thought i f** up, and thought i must have cleaned myself because looking at the sigil etc, then instantly i heard like a laugh and heard " its okay i was joking with you*
Today morning i navigated the forum searching for information and found out satya is related to beelzebul, which reminded me of the first time i heard satya while asking for who is my guardian demon
I am very confused now, should i continue knowing beelzebul is my guardian demon, should i do something to confirm? I am afraid that if i continue with that knowledge that maybe i may be just making things up and talking to myself in my head and thinking its beelzebul, please guide me.
Thank you in advance
By the way, add to that that once i was practicing a healing technique and while doing it i heard that i am protected by 72 angels, and one demon who was with me in the room left since i cleaned it or something like that , but he left, ( it was before i know satanism, maybe the 72 are actually demons) by the way at that time i never knew there are 72 angels or something, i do not remember well but maybe i heared only that i am protected by 72 without the name "angel" or "demon". But the way i knew is i went to google and wrote 72 angel since that time i thought if someone is protecting me it must be an angel, and thats when i knew there are some religions talking about 72 angels
