An Apology from Me

[FancyMancy]

Sorry for how I've been lately. Both in the thread I just made about reacting to Clergy posts, and a reply to another thread including homosexuality. I'm more or less copying/pasting some of what I said in the reaction-to-Clergy-posts thread.

I could have done the posts that I made recently better. I was just trying to get to the point quickly. I've been impatient and frustrated with things for a while, with various things, and I've come to a point (how long for, I don't know) that everything angers me. Take probably anything in different contexts, and I'd probably have something to be angry about regarding it. Everything is fake and everything is shit, etc. and I let it out here, which I shouldn't have done.

The more I see, the more I notice how fake and shit everything is. They say ignorance is bliss. The more I notice things, the more I can't un-notice them, and it just builds up and overwhelms - and I've been told I'm a strong person before with crap piling up on top of me. That's not entirely true, but it's not entirely false, either.

No-one else has mentioned it but I can remember a post I made for members who have been given non-pre-moderation posting abilities - and I went against that. "Take your own advice", sort of thing. I'm not perfect, and I apologise. Sorry. Since more people replied in that reaction-to-Clergy-posts thread, I replied back to some or all of them. My point there was not about my development, though. My point was as an example conversation between "A" and myself.

There are so many things, and as one grows, they get growing pains, and as one regresses, pains also happen. That's surely why the jew takes thousands of years to damn people into cyborgs and the microchip in the opposite of growing, and why actual Spiritual advancement and development can take lifetimes, or at least years, in terms of growing. I am confident that I don't need to deprogramme from xianity any further, but what happened is that the pendulum swung in the opposite direction, so now I'm more in opposition (as was mentioned in that thread) than how I was when I used to be more accepting of what I get told.

I think that's all I need to say. Sorry.

 

[Anemos Aiteros]

It is all good, brother.

 

[Ælberiigor]

The more I see, the more I notice how fake and shit everything is. They say ignorance is bliss. The more I notice things, the more I can't un-notice them, and it just builds up and overwhelms - and I've been told I'm a strong person before with crap piling up on top of me. That's not entirely true, but it's not entirely false, either.

I'd say you are just of the "evolved" class of your time, so you immediately see what is wrong when everyone see normality. It's uncomfortable.
Human is more or less programmed, He memorizes more than he thinks. But the more you evolve the less you match any kind of program, you even destroy them.

All grand creators, leaders... was also in this position and lived regularly existential crisis and I remember HPHC himself talked about something like his difficulties to lead the Temple, the wickedness of some...

As image, the most evolved ones are those who have strayed further from the Plato Cavern and are on the way to the Sun.
As long as you assimilate yourself to the lamda people inside the Cave, you keep finding reasons to get angry about their stupidity.

I see the process like this :
- Guys inside the Cavern are often wick, jealous - basic levels of anger. They know something goes wrong but doesn't accept their inability to define what.
- Anger is a kind of energy permitting you to break free from your condition if the wisdom help.
- Wisdom is built on the basis of experience and questioning.
At end, you complain then think, and again... up to be able to progress one step, and so on.

Instead of complaining, it's better to take responsibilities, study or else by oneself to nourish others, because less and less people are able to nourish you in the process.
Later, you will recognize others who like you, go forward to the Sun. But there are gaps to cross alone on the way. Dare to cross them develops maturity, autonomy.