Quick intro; I'm Dylan. I have considered myself to be an existential nihilist for the past few years but I've always found myself believing in unseen forces at work, supernatural forces if you will. I managed to bend my atheist pride and put in research into things of an arcane nature, like the occult, Wicca, and finally, Spiritual Satanism. So far, thanks to the JoS website, I have found myself very seriously considering making the switch to Satanism. To get to the point, I was wondering how far I could delve into and get a feel for Satanism before finally deciding to do the dedication process. I feel as though the beginner's meditation would be fine, but from there what can someone advise me to try to really know what it's like? Please put yourself in my shoes; I've been under the influence of the mainstream culture of fear-mongering about arcane arts, after being an atheist it's hard to return to a religion, and the commitment itself is a bit frightening at the moment, a leap of faith of sorts I'm not sure I'm ready to take just yet.
I'm very serious about this, don't just bash on me.
Thanks,
Dylan
I'm very serious about this, don't just bash on me.
Thanks,
Dylan