A way out?

[L W]

Recently I have been trying to find a way to seperate myself from all the poison in my life, as in my step-brother who is an extremely self-loathing vampire. Although I am not sure if he has any jew in him, I do know I must get away from him. I currently work in retail, and dont make enough to survive. Being in the environment I am in constantly causes me to relapse into my old problems, and in turn I never make any progress. I feel as though I am trapped, so I have been considering enlisting in the military. Not only to escape, but to build myself a solid foundation for self-discipline, and the chance at a decent life.I know most of you will tell me to persevere and just meditate and I have tried, and failed, so many times I have lost count. I have been a Satanist for 5 years, and have never made any headway spiritually. While I could go on and on about my past and why I am this way, it wouldnt help the fact that I am where I am.
My question is, do you all think this would be a viable escape plan from the life I lead. Could this lead me down a path Father would be proud of?
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[Taol]

Money workings.
Binding spells.
Detachment workings from your body and you most definetily must make a repelling aura for his energy and reinforce daily.
Remember to close your chakras.

Make a meditation plan/schedule that you can easily refresh.

You could use the Tyr rune (vibrate) to disband any chaotic energy that makes it hard for you to focus.

Make an affirmation that you use daily. I am disciplined at all times in a positive way for me. My future is mine to create and I am free from anything that tries to block my way.
(though maybe add in a positve and healthy way for me I dont think youd want people to die for you).

Make a list of things that you have to do.

Perhaps a freeing the soul working from this shit for 40 days multiple times.

Look into astrology. Perhaps its a saturn issue or youre having transits or something.

40 day working lydias healing from psychological mental emotional issues working. Which can be done through waxing and waning phase just not when the moon is void.

The thing is, just not giving up.
Youve stopped and started again and came back. You really want this.
But maybe you just need to do more effort to get there.
It will be worth it. So dont give up. I hope I gave you some ideas as how to combat the situation.

Though Ive wanted to leave this place years ago, hasnt worked out for me yet.
Also, pick the people that you want to be with. And if you cant. Bind them. Make sure they cant do harm to you.