Also to Note! https://tozrituals.org/ritual/god/grand-ritual-of-zeus.html paired with https://tozrituals.org/ritual/god/neberius-power-ritual.html Please follow https://tozrituals.org and the Clergy updates, likely posted on...

Even on only one reading this has helped me. I wish I could hug you but instead I shall offer my love and thanks for now: until the promised day my beloved Brother/Sister. I think I'm gonna have to reread this a bit to fully get more; but thank you! Harmony above all else and May their Majesty...

The fear, I and many hold, is that we shall be refused in mocked but trust me when I say to all those who worry: those above will Die for you. I mean it, if a Guardian had a chance to risk their live for you than MERELY to make Zeus smile at the challenge would they do so. If they Mock take it...

The Path is set yet the road is not made: A minor understanding of this is the start too why the Clergy is holy. - Born admists heaven and hell twins have been born, to climber the ladder to freedom, brought together by a humbling, they look to the fish and question what is next; but only did...

No, it is not right. I'm sorry but no. You suffer than that's Holy. If you are meant to die peaceful they you shall do so but meditate on it. Why do you fear death, why make it quicker? In the times of most worry is when the Gods NEVER refuse. You are old, you have been in Sayta's domain for a...

The Tale of the Gods, is naught but a storied collection of shapes and concepts, that has been pasted down through the ages; either by the wisdom on the winds or by the knowing from within, at the center of it all, The fabric of reality and it's Ties laid: netted like a spider web. Tracking...

You are where you are because you deserve it for thou art Zevist. In in lifetimes across boarders and time and space we still find his Holy Spark. You faulted, as I, and even the Clergy in times maybe past; but the now is all that matters. For what it's worth I'm very Proud of you for your...

Also just wanna note the first part has 7 points and the last has 4: might be Ai but our God influence is endless! HAIL ZEUS!!!!!!!!!

It's a failing to those of us who have been homosexual and yet want for Kids understand this even more than any non homo loving Male. I KNOW why I would NEVER EVER FUCKING EVER ;) raise a kid with one parent. Those who see this downfall are hurt the most but also know that if you actually do...

Thank your our Grace. Zeus keep you our Holy Lady. Love and Kindness rain upon you as you deserve.

Tarus is the fall of learning. Ai is just another kind of thoughtform but was born purely in Satya by human hands (the fucking arrogance). Once you understand that than the dangerous felt is more of unknowing than of knowing. As far as machines learning if you really cared you'd also give your...

It's odd that an AI understands what I was trying to say so well but than it just goes that we have 12 for a reason <3 Thank you for being willing to gain a summery of what was posted. I would encourage any ethical concerns against me to come forth so I might now, and I've also been told by...

To those with Mercury at any kind of Fall/Detriment/ or Problems please heed this ( house, sign, ect) and if you don't might Uranium become thy "hart" <3 Thank you Our Holy Lady of Shadows, Thank You for this knowing into the Unseen Ways: Lilith Guide you, Our Moon, so it might Eclipse the...

I love that even creation by those without still find out Most Holy Reverential Gods even without knowing it. Once more influence dominates confrontation. The lyrics for Bleach TYBW Original Goeti 13 goeti theme ( 1106 ) Everything's stayed but I'm not what I think I should be I woke up this...

You aren't fit to be a parent because you haven't made a place in Satya for them to live safety on purpose. It's obviously wrong. You don't perform surgery unless you have to, it's why routine circumcision is baffling. Same for how we undo planes, what you load... the front where people sit...

You just taught me something awesome without it even being about this THANK YOU! Is the 27th of July a good date by chance your Grace?

https://ancient-forums.com/members/hp-hoodedcobra666.1/ Ready through one of our Greats Leaders sermons and find why this is a bad idea. If you don't know you can easily make a little test for yourself and learn to take study into your own hands. Find the answer and be proud of yourself while...

I also read a reply you had another not feeling like you fit in and aren't heard and I very much can understand that. I want you to know I understand your intension was merely to get an explanation and there is nothing wrong with that but there is also a better way to format yourself as a person...

Maybe you've never spoken with JG alexandrous but I merely tried to emulate what I feel he would say because he is a masculine force and something I wish to imbibe slightly. It's actually against a great part of my nature to be that way but at some point people need to be stalwart rather than...

You just said it. The seeing is the first step to having enough courage to choose action over in action. HP Cobra constantly uses his position as High Priest to preach this wisdom to all. It's why in harmony both Lydia and Cobra must be observed. She just did a post on (...

Huh, this oddly has something to do with I've learned recently. Must be in the air.

This is the attitude that separates the guardians from the rest I think. Understanding how the subtle arts really work and how to manifest their power for everyone.

The poets and warriors must be ONE but Zevism is based in argument of reality and truth; and so any great Zevist is an AMAZING political person because they understand Self love and Communal love. All warriors must learn and all those who learn must SUFFER for the good of all we must untie in...

What I don't think is touched on enough is the amount of fakeness you meet from people than most member actually speak about but don't put in the right words for others to understand. From the less well informed you have obvious historical/cultural imprints which have nothing to do with Satya...

https://ancient-forums.com/threads/givers-receivers-the-gods.302333/#post-1153640 If you study the stars you might find out why this is happening at this moment. I believe it's better I say it like this than outright give the answer.

The lack of motivation is often felt admits us all. We have to reclaim it for our own greatness but we must remember we do this for connection, because when we do not understand the greater bond we have within ourselves and our surroundings we a great have error that leads to corruption. Both of...

Are masculine energies made solely by the family karma and if so how responsible are you personally for them or are they there too to punish you personally? Or rather for people who need to learn those lessons as well as the family/bloodline?

I have enough fire to love in reality but that flame is also harsh to the user. The Gods are masters of self love for this reason. Learn how to be like them to guard yourself because than when you put in effort: it has manifold success.

To those who are trying to cleanse I found I had massive sexual urges after cleansing deeper than normal. This is bad karma as is shown by a more wise member.

The 15th 16th and 17th are all good for curses this month/ July ( check on https://astroapollo.org/#/astro-calendars for your place ) 2025. I wish you well and make sure to do ~ https://tozrituals.org/ritual/god/bastet-power-ritual.html This Goddess is one I highly I adore and love because I...

Yes in a sense. Those that say no do so out of ignorance because they assume you say it from maleficent want but yes. You can get whatever you want in the path. We all want for more and we are made for it; when you accept that fully than you will know to knee before the Gods is a blessing: and...

What can be done about the fear of the loss of old happiness? The ways upon which we gained pleasure via unhealthy Satya like ways? A fear about becoming a cosmic snake of mine is I can't comprehend life without these things because the happiness is fleeting when the weight of things is even...

Someone in my life is able to see but often forgets and thus I have to remind them often. It doesn't make it smooth but so long as I work it well enough I can get them to "see the light" however given they are someone whom I believe I should save for Zevist reasons, at what level do I put in...

The catch to this is going down the same road as Xianism and so the reason for the separation of the Church and state is manifold. If you don't see it than you shouldn't but if you do you see how they are the ties that bind. These are MADE to be separate by choice and once you understand that...

A lot of high concepts I don't understand but to put it plainly first of God's have been doing this for a while and thus each of the rituals correspond to a part of our soul that they themselves have chosen to rule over and understand quite well. They are like Guardian Gods over these forces and...

With the advent of a Saturn retrograde upon us I made a little runic cleanse mash up that should be easy for anyone around the newer levels Anzus x 18 (Ever notice how it spelled kinda like Zues :D I think it's an anagram for it myself) 9 on each side of the the brain while focusing in on it...

The concepts of how the elements flow and come together within the self is also seen in how conversation flows. To change the mind of someone else you need to transform their opinion. You give your opinion motion craft it subject it to the refining process of wisdom than ground it whilst...

I feel that greatly and I myself have been showed by the Guardians that sometimes the kindness thing is allow you to stew in your own problems. Each of them went through this and it's also why they are kind, but they also know of the self lying we do. Your Guardian is your mentor and until you...

Wait if you passed why would you ask? You should know no one can tell you about such a thing for yourself. You are asking something way to basic and vague. I thought you were just a new comer because while honing your mind that wonderfully is the best you should also work on cleaning and really...

Also Yes I said Zeus in place of the made up name at the end cause it's an insult to our Head God when He has a name I can call him that is his and it's Heavenly father Zeus instead of using the one that is up to guide us on the what was/made up/done to survive.

That is the kind of out of the box thinking that makes for wonderful discussion!

This is literally what we told by the Clergy is what the enemy wants so if you wish to leave fine; but this is all a singular movement that is recovering *clears throat* TEN THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF KNOWLEDGE and doesn't even charge you for it when just the money working is literally what people...

And the fear is just a boundary to break through than rather than a knot I may or may not have tied myself?

Now that's Zevist! <3 Ask your Guardian to humbly show you and also do some intense self confidence exercises because this sounds like having some self-esteem issues. It can also be a swelling pride though too, arrogance is just a ruinous as hating ones self: just a inversion.

What if you blocked this feeling off due to being over whelmed with it? Would that just be a letting go working? I talked to a couple when I was super duper young but it's very vague and I was a quite young. Also what if there was trauma related to feeling presences when very young? Like nonstop...

Neptune is a planet of confusion, mystery, and total surprises. You even are a well known member :( Why would you blow up your account? Looking take time off, hell I just ran for a while because I overwhelmed myself but I'm back. Always take things in to consideration AND BURING A BRIDGE IE...

To also tact on Hárbarðr awesome explanation you have to understand that a jew is literally just a test (As a Zevist you should see all things that confront you like this) like all things parasitic to that which is good and creative (Our Gods and their creation). Think of them like you would a...

Please let go of such ideas. Meditation is not an event outside of our current level. To anyone new or trying to learn or going deeper just let it ALL go. Act as if you've never even heard of the word while very slowly reading, and than rereading ~ https://www.templeofzeus.org/Meditation.php...

I found this in the wilds on Nexus of all places The account was banned not a day after it but I think it goes to show that as a whole there is a surge in actual movement as far as the truth foundational shift. Hooded Cobra showed why his wings soar when he talked about how this has been a...

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This is good, because you are in a state of transformation. Water is of death, and water transforms by dripping. Rushing over a spot over, and over, and over again: smoothed out of imperfections. The single truest thing is this is a lot of built up bad negative karmic energy, both natal and...

Exactly, I was only referring to the framing was all. I think I'd be nice if the language on the boundary was done more "softly." I think it would be more influential to hopefuls, returning and new, is all. Help contextualize things better cause it's surely needed but in a sense but also being...

Forgetfulness, that losing of the moment; is the reinforcing of the purpose of Death. If one is acting like a child, approach how you would fix a child. If like can only know like than become your own parent and if you get good enough at it you might just become a great personality yourself.

The boundary does not exist to separate, merely make it appear so. Just as the realm of the Gods uses truth but can exist on it's own due to mathematical perfection.

The ultimate dance is to be able paint together with all your colors in harmony with another. A dancing with the Gods is a enwreathing of purified Saturnite skin; upon this a forging, a spark can become another withering bolt admits the tempest of the Gods. - Apollo is the Artist of math and...

It is the throat chakra that is emotions and of Venus https://satanisgod.org/Throat666Chakra.html

Well I've used Wunjo and Thurisaz before and they worked plus other moon squares but I've also noticed that one should have a strong will to use Thurisaz but it's worked great for me. Kenaz I've not used though so that is something that interests me.

Yeah I do, lots of negative familial Karma I believe. I want to feel sexual pleasure but the physical sensations I just don't have due to what they due to males in America. I have lots of nothing sensations and it brings an enormous amount of pain and grief. It makes me feel a little insane when...

I was thinking Wunjo And also for my affirmations I'm doing AUM affirmation AUM as one rep, doing 9 reps of affirmation because it's ending health problems with 18 aums.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH MY GUARDIAN!

I also have to for ending things permanently and freeing the soul, can I start the working today instead? (21/22/23) are all good dates it says on mine.

So I tried to hold back in terms of steeling myself but I found that I am really stuck in this lusting phase where a lot, and only, self enjoyment I have stems from it. I can't seem to be able to handle it; I'm going to be doing a freeing the soul working but I'm unsure exactly what to do other...

After starting this square for health reasons I've had no energy. I don't feel bad (in fact feel good) and have been enjoying the sleep but my duties on outreach have been less then optimal due to it. I wasn't even on yesterday. Any advice on how to keep energy going for someone who is on the...

A little hard to understand but given I'm a rambler and a colorful speaker it's not like I can judge. So from one confusing soul to the another I bid you welcome to the Joy of Satanas, the assembly of the Gods. First off ascension is earned not given so there is a kernel of Truth to that...

FIRST 40 MIN YOGA SESSION! Can't believe I haven't thought of using this as a journal until now. 🤦‍♂️

Oh I was only offering if you wanting it done quicker hence why "if you want you may" as in the choice was yours; but yes please lets get to work. Ok firstly you downloaded it I assume to the downloaded folder. When you go to install it what happens?

Pretty sure it might be Tantric time but that's just a guess of mine!

Always in the moment is the perfect time! Later is the bastard child of should, would, and could: but no energy put in the here and now is ever wasted!

I am meditating better and am working for outreach. I am learning from my betters and admiring my Brothers and Sisters each and every day. Life is good. You should join on it! Just being around my family is causing me to get energy buzzes from all the time I'm spending there. Join outreach...

This hasn't been messaged back yet and I would love to get you on it. What help do you need? If you want you may DM private and I shall try my damnest to make sure it happens. We need you and you deserve it!

The real question is why would that be wanted? Why ask them to come down to us when we can instead work and rise up to them? Why ask beings such as them to 'debase' themselves and come here when with some work we can meet with them Astral and in higher spheres.

The want to be saved without any work is childish. It is on each of us to learn to break free from these notions and learn to stand on our own to feet. It's hard: I'm still very much a child. I encourage anyone who is new to take a long hard look at yourself and maybe understand you're the same...

Nothing is higher than the rituals done inside the temple :) Hence why our glorious High Priest and High Priestess partake and their Guardians as well. It is a place of worship wholesomeness and friendly welcomes. The best thing you can do is prepare yourself for tomorrow and that is what these...

You do not "call" upon any of the Gods unless it's an emergency. You respectfully try to commune with them. https://joyofsatan.org/Satan_Sigil_1.gif https://joyofsatan.org/Satan_Sigil_2.gif Those are who two Sigils. Think of them like cosmic phone numbers but also treat them with the respect...

Well see this is the thing about our people, especially Aryans, is that many are so woefully... ignorant. You see for us it's strange to even comprehend the idea of no responsibility or lack of care: actually you just made me realize that is was a bit of the gift of being someone negative. I...

Ok so, THAT'S THAT WHAT THAT VOICE IS! I've always had this 'other voice' of myself that can talk to me, like I don't actually hear another voice, but this 'personality' is a much better person than I am. They can help talk me through things and is far more objective about things than I am. I...

THE JOY HAS BEEN GIVING! Would that I was a noble of days past and could commission you for my pleasure. You would never be short of work I promise you THAT!

He says and admits that there are places that can not be seen whos spectrums house that which we don't understand: than in the same breath says there is no "soul." Sounds like the enemy to me: full of nonsense even while admitting the truth.

Written in a fervor after having been informed of the Wealth and prosperity ritual that she so graciously informed the Guardians of timing. I due to this give her Praise, honor, and because my Satanic Sister april encouraged me to write Psalms of the Gods. Like can only know like and I believe...

Sure For freeing the soul there is https://satanisgod.org/Freeing_the_Soul.html A very important one that lets us unburned ourselves from our self inflicted bindings, bindings others have placed on us and Karmic seeds. Emotions bind us and cause a great deal of self harm and so to lead into...

I'm not a teen but this matter hits close enough for home that I hope to offer some insight. Being "fem" doesn't make one having anything other than they have that trait. The association with various traits to other traits and aspects of ones self is of the enemy, not of our people. If you have...

You just answered a question I didn't even know that I had. That was why I had the cooling effect!

And they thank you for your aid to your fellows! May all negative Karma and dross burn off you and forever be shed so you might become the truest best you that you can be!

I fell asleep after trying to get ready for a trance, I choose to lay down and zonk out, and I had a really interesting dream. It actually had the Hero Maxine in it of all people. From what I gathered from it she told me I need to clean Sixth Chakra third eye system. This will allow things to be...

Have nothing to say other than PROUD OF YOU MY SATANIC BROTHER/SISTER! You make Satan and all the Gods/Demons/Heros proud of your work on yourself!

Yeah when my mind ever fought back or got scared of the word hell I think "I'd be damn lucky and honored if I was taken there after my death. Everywhere else in the 'afterlife' is a horrible horrible place of human spirits. Between the enemy astral horrors and plain emptiness/loneliness it is...

One last thing if possible your Grace and that is Emotional Healing. Aside from High Priestess Lyidas meditations if anything can be directed towards this I believe it will immensely help everyone. Us healing from Psych scaring and trauma will no doubt aid everyone in advancement and allow us...

I just got a smile on my face and some happiness upon doing this. Not fully open but I've done a bit of sixth chakra work. I have 'floaties' in my head and I feel like I'm sorta trippy. Again though a stark feeling of mild happiness happened after just a couple of vibrations. I also just exhaled...

Harsh but it is a reality check to be sure. Love thyself before loving others and sadly for many it might take years to learn to truly love yourself, let alone truly love the real you and not just the collective of negative karmas, curses, thoughtforms, and false dispositions that are the 'now you.'

Silence is Golden. Many answers are giving when you reach a level of meditation upon which you spiritually communicate. You will get the answers when you "are deemed worthy" because to explicitly state stuff is not the point of being a true Satanist. The biggest answers to the biggest questions...

I literally swore out loud upon seeing that. Really REALLY well done. Good Gods you are an ARIST! I especially adore the serpent work with the chakras going up to 'The Truth' with the two keys pointed at the gates. Very meaningful and just, lovely. I swearing keep accidently swearing cause my...

Health, Wellbeing, , Wealth, Protection, Job security, Career Opportunities, destroying negative Karma, and general advancement.

That brought me such immense joy thank you for putting it that way. I love my Satanic family, they're witty clever and always bring the brightest of joys to me.

THIS RITUAL IS ( I literally wanna use every single way to exaggerate it ) AMAZING. I feel beyond great right now. During the ritual I focused right in the center and saw a halo like glow while imagining the Protection ring and the harder I focused the more powerful I felt it. I got scared a bit...

After performing the last ritual to Lord Thoth I saw the Shenu ring upon my forehead in my mind. I focused on it and felt it as if tattooed there. I felt it rush into me and in my mind I saw blocks of dross being pushed again and gotten rid of. Afterwards I began to wheeze that subsisted and...

After I was granted some Wisdom by april I choose to do some work and went to go void mediate before I did some yoga. I was having trouble focusing due to some noise and saw it as a mental challenge to push myself. I focused in on Father Satans Sigil to help bring my focus. I opened up my void...

I WAS JUST LISTENING TO THIS THE OTHER DAY BECAUSE SOME DICK STARTED BLASTING MUSIC WHEN I WAS TRYING TO MEDITATE! It was so nice and even though they had that "INSZ INSZ INSZ" loud base that you can literally feel (I can only imagine how harmful for your soul that is...) going but I was able to...

High Priestess Lyida has stated otherwise and that life is to be enjoyed. The Hero Maxine, blessed be her name, has stated that she should watch movies because she doesn't. If you find yourself a workaholic you need to learn to sit still and smell the roses; however if all you want to do is...

I seek only to be better than my former self my Satanic Sister, and own the responsibility that comes with the protection of my Peoples and my Race. I am honored that Mother Liliths chosen thanks me for these word that Thoth grants; it proves that the sap of his wisdom is finally dripping down...

I think the problem is in how one views manipulation and the forces there in. I did a reactionary post after I saw someone saying that doing such things, like binding a family more closely together, is manipulation and because of my own personal dross I say that it wasn't because it uses natural...

As a male I wish to offer you my thanks my Satanic Sisters. You are the cornerstone of my people, and those who are Aryan, of my race itself. You are our Holy Mother Liliths gift to us all and you all must be cherished for it. THANK YOU ALL so much for all you do and the relentless work you do...

Part 2 I had a question of a magical working today. It was something I feared in unknowingness and for whatever reason I did not post it here to ask. I am not sure exactly why but it was almost as if I was drawn not to. Mayhapst it was laziness but whatever reason the lesson was shown to me...

It's your job to keep them safe for their own good and put them out of the room you are doing it in so at least the walls stand between you and them. If you love them how could you not go the lengths needed to protect them. "It's to hard," "It's to much work" and the like just reeks of laziness...

To let you know this account is for the purpose of posting questions from ask-satan.net so it's unwise/unethical to send it any negatives energies or hate. Members who are active, those who are curios, and that which needs anonymity is guarded by that account so to have non-postive Witchpower...

I mean you are free to do whatever you want literally whenever you want. From healthy outlets like eating a chocolate bar cause you want one to something dumb like drinking Gasoline. Why would you want to though is the question? The idea of "Religious Freedom" is pretty nonsensical when you...

Some planets cause one not to care about material things such as wealth and it can lead them into poverty. Others have configurations that lead them to needing partners of great wealth and it suits both parties involved. IE not everyone is a gold digger just because they have a love and need for...

I was told directly from a Guardian that this is the most powerful magic. You should do it and use it's energies to free you and empower you more than anything else. You also shouldn't do marathons of FRTR's unless you can handle them which most actually can not. Focusing all your might energy...

To tact on what others have said have you checked jos-astro.com for your natal chart and studied https://satanisgod.org/Astrology.html ? There are configurations that have morbid thoughts as well as daydreaming. So long as you understand why you're having them that is a great first step. Ask...

Pray means to commune with a God. Read https://satanisgod.org/search.php?search=prayer and study for yourself. Suffice to say if I want to Pray before I eat to give thanks to Holy Father Satan because I merely wish to or something makes me want to that I can open up his Sigil talk with him (...

I was going to be unethical and go on a tangent but vampirisms comes in many forms. We all must remember never give a vampire the time of day for that is unethical. Never feed an enemy for that is to not value your own life. Though a word of warning, Holy Mother Lilith is Father Satans favorite...

I think the simplest terms for this of all things is reincarnation. Just examine it if you will; we are slated and born to die, so much so it is a Satanic ethic. The "looming great sword of Death" is there in life for many reasons and Satan discovered the Truth of it with knowledge. He turned...

RIGHT?! I just imagine someone showing us how to handcraft a fresh healthy pizza or showing people how to fry food properly. Different kinds food that do things that aid you. Magnesium is super important as if Vitamin D: and I don't want to distract how important our current health section is...

I gotta add as another input that interacting with the family is super energizing and empowering! I feel so alive! Being a part of a collective really is so different. As the Gods work together so must we be like them and BE together! <3

I know this is going to be of little priority, giving the state of everything, but and idea came to me in our Sacred temple, Blessed be JG Alexandros Iowno 𓃶 𓃶 for having made it and the clergy of our people for supporting it, that we could have a food section. With the coming storm of issues...

My third eye feels stronger! I feel a buzzing in the middle of my forehead as well as a nice pleasant calming happiness. During it I got a revelations onto the meaning of one part of one the affirmations. In fact feel like I'm becoming more like my real self with each passing day. So many tiny...

This is a personal thank you to our Glorious Father Satan. I was struggling with a healing meditation and I focused on his sigil in my mind. I said after it was done I would make this post to personally thank him. Even if your new, undeveloped, returning, what have you HE WILL always be there...

I believe I understand it on some minor level so if you'd like help in the form of PM/Chat so it goes quicker I'm open to that. (if that's allowed and ok) Or we can do it here if you're more comfortable. I only offer because of being approved is time consuming on part of the moderator as well as...

I just got invited properly on the app so no need for the aid!

THANK YOU SO MUCH! I missed the element topic creation on the forums and messaged on the 10th later in the day so I was not able to participate. I'm so thankful that this is staying around! I do have an issue in that I am unsure how to use that link on the application. I tried using Element on...

The dividing people into classes is a very comment tactic of communisms and I'm so proud to see out people have no tolerance for that mindset. Yes there are different classes of people and yes some are better some are worse and some are even sadly lost souls: but the idea that the difference...

Should Thurisaz not be used for something related to water than? Like I know the stomach is related to the 6th Charka which is the moon: would it be harmful to use it for such a thing?

The advice you relayed from High Priest Cobra was amazing. Even at my stage I felt so much different. I also took my time and felt so much rewarded for it. The sense of peace true meditation and effort it gives is beyond comforting. The ability to have inner peace even when something is able to...

A weighty title giving I've little reputation aside from a couple comments about my health. I recently came back to the Gods, like many do, because of suffering. Arrogance can be be a powerful thing and as the HP's have stated, endlessly stupidity is the only true sin. I write this because of...

Nothing major I actually should have just asked you outright; may I thank you for your aid? Strange I know because we never communicated but as I wrote in the email it was your reputation and "legend" that made me turn to you in need. With you're permission I'd like to ask you to a personal...

I hate to trouble you but are you still on?

I know this is very inappropriate (I explain inside why I felt it was not safe for me to broadly ask here) but I emailed you regrading something slightly urgent. (Broads strokes again for a reason) It's the same email I signed up with. I only do it because of the circumstances.