Thank you. I do believe I have the strength to overcome this. It’s just not easy for me.

The replies HAVE been helping. I get that I complain too much, I can’t say I didn’t see this coming. I’ve been meditating again, I don’t know what I’ll do next time it hits. Maybe I’ll just re-read the replies to help me instead of ranting again. Really, i DO appreciate the help. I just...

I’m not comparable with other people. Emotionally it just wouldn’t work. It’s just one of those things you KNOW. I can’t really describe it in words, so I don’t expect anyone to believe me. I’m too worthless to be with an incubus too. So I have no choice but to stay alone. And since that’s...

It was kind of you to reply. But yes, it’s too late for me. I am beyond saving at this point. I’m 100% convinced Satan should just let me die. It doesn’t matter if I meditate or do warfare. I’ll always be alone. And for that I’ve developed a deep hatred for him. I am too weak to be here anymore.

You’re not wrong. But it’s not that I would be 100% dependent on them or anything. I want to make this clear: IF I was with an incubus, I would NOT be a dependent baby around him. I would NOT be sad if I didn’t hear from him for 2 hours/days whateve. I fully understand they have things to do...

Just FYI I’m advanced enough to hear them. I’ve been meditating for a very long while. ..years ago I would of looked down on this mentality I’ve been displaying here too. It’s just gotten to be too much to handle. It’s admittedly embarrassing to see how far I’ve fallen because of loneliness.

Update: I’ve been told I’ll never be with an incubus and that it’s a “good thing”... so maybe I should give up after all. No matter how much I work on myself, I’ll ever be good enough. Goodbye everyone

I guess you’re right.. it’s just extremely difficult to cope

I highly doubt thats the case. Then wouldn’t I be notified of such? I would think he would just tell me to be patient, rather than I’ll never be with one. (Edit: I just heard him say “never” so I guess there’s my answer)

I appreciate your response HP. But I have been trying for years to improve. I just fail to see the point anymore. I’m at my end already.. I legitimately don’t know what to do. I’ve corrected my behavior before, I’ve tried to be my best before, and still nothing. I’m open spiritually...

Also, I have been asking. Rather respectfully for years and I still never was accepted. I’m just at my breaking point right now. I will literally die from this, and seems Satan just doesn’t care. The deep despair I’ve been feeling is just unbearable. I could clean my aura and try to do...

Just a rant, I’m relapsing from my last problem. I’m sick of trying for nothing. I’m done... and Satan does not care. I’ve been asking for an incubus for years now... after everything I’ve done for him.. I get nothing! I know that sounds selfish, but I have never asked Satan for anything...

It’s kind of you to check up on me, thank you! I’m ok. No need to worry. I’m still not with an incubus or anything. Still struggling with the thought I’ll be alone forever. Otherwise, I’m doing ok. Thank you so much, and to everybody here!

??? Why does it take you so long to do one? The final RTR right? Really it just takes me about 20minutes per session. Either way, it’s neat that you put in so much energy/effort for just one. Must be really powerful

My GD(I think) at the time. I was still in the process of opening my clairaudience points then, so I can’t say 100% sure who it was. But nightly I would hear things like “how dare you” and this one time “who would want YOU??”. During the day, when I wasn’t doing anything or just thinking to...

Aop twice a day 216 vibrations, 1 hour of yoga daily, 40 vibrations on my chakras daily, yes, a whole lot of rtrs (I note how many I do in a journal), and a side working or two for personal things. I felt great spiritually and physically. But I was always told to try harder and do more. And...

I HAVE worked on myself. Over and over again. The thing is it was never enough, I was never good enough despite working hard everyday. I eventually stopped trying. Not the brightest thing to do, I know.

Just want to thank everyone. I’ll reconsider these lousy self-destructive actions. It’s just gonna be excruciatingly painful to keep living. I’m told I’ll never be with an incubus anyway... so I’m gonna have to keep living alone I guess. Its possible to literally die of loneliness (it really is)...

Thank you HP. It’s not that I WANT to die per se, but if dying and having my soul dissipate with no chance of reincarnation stops me from being lonely idk what else to do. I can’t do anything about feeling this way.like using WUNO only numbs the pain, it doesn’t fix the problem. I know the...

I’ve aready decided what to do. I’ll do copious amounts of warfare to the point the enemy attacked me as badly as last year. The I’ll let them kill me this time. No aura of protections, nothing. Ill go out worthless and unwanted. Thanks for this great community, it was great to be here when...

Mods probably won’t approve this message... I’m prepared and more than deserving of rude comments. I’m worthless. I’ve asked Satan for an incubus for the last time today. My astral senses are open enough, I go to the gym 5-6 days a week, I’m not a newbie, I’m just worthless down to the...

You all have been so kind in your replies, so thank you all so much.But I have so much proof that it IS our gods saying and doing these things to me. But I’m sure you’re tired of hearing it. All the proof and instances I’ve had would be too much to type anyway. I know to control my emotions...

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I AM reading the replies.. I knew nobody would understand. Look... we ended it a year ago in June or July. I know for a fact he does NOT love me anymore. I’m 100% sure he’s with someone else. I don’t know how to stress it to you guys enough... It’s really ended. it’s not the enemy! I swear...

With the incubus situation, I’ve grown bitter, sad and angry that he didn’t stick with me through the roughest times. I was at my worst...I had never, in all my years of being dedicated been attacked so badly. I mean it was every night, no sleep, wake up do a heck load of rtrs in the middle of...

I’ve also experienced this. One night they tried to pick me up by my leg. Didn’t really notice until I felt it slam back down. The bed didn’t move either

Thanks magus! It’s really great your GD has been so supportive. None of the interactions with the gods that I have were positive. They’ve just been cruel. Granted i deserve it... it goes like this ...etc Even when I y’all to them about it I hear “I don’t care” IT WASNT ALWAYS LIKE THIS. A year...

I feel like I don’t want to live anymore. I work on myself physically and spiritually, contribute to the community, do warfare everyday but it’s never enough. Satan just doesn’t care. First of all, I’m 100% sure I’m not a Jew. If I die, and decide to stay on the astral and have my soul...