First, stop beating yourself up. Read up at the JOS website, especially the meditation info. Have you done the Dedication Ritual? Being new is overwhelming, as there is tons of info to absorb, but take it a step at a time. I think most here consider themselves "Spiritual Satanists"..there are...

Well, of course the kikes and xtians think that, however, it's nothing compared to that lovely xtian militia now in the news...and they call Satanists crazy. No matter what, Satanists will never be seen in any type of postive aspect. The church had graffiti..pretty harmless compared to this...

Today, the News ran a story on a "hate crime" in Tarzana,CA, which is part of Los Angeles... Someone spray painted an inverted pentagram on a local church. There was also the phrase: "Slay the Nazarene". Police are now investigating the incident as a hate crime...lol..well, duh! Hatred for...

harm? scar? You don't need to make a huge slice in yourself. I simply used the corner tip of a new single-edged razor blade on the tip of my finger. The cut was very small. you could use a sterile needle and barely prick your finger. I certainly didn't have a scar nor did it harm me. I...

Well...what happens from that point is up to you...meditate, open your chakras, strengthen your aura...and read/study all of the info on the JOS website. You can educate and empower yourself, which is the way it should be. Satanism is about self-empowerment. Congratulations, and welcome...