Whenever I try and use a pendulum to find my guardian demon, I have to opposing forces trying to contradict each other. I keep getting this pulling sensation all throughout my body and the two are fighting to make contact with me, one does not one the other to get through, I am fairly...

During a meditation, I was in a trance and trying to contact my guardian demon, I don't know who he/she is and I wish to establish a connection with them, and I tried making contact with him/her using a pendulum and I'm feeling two very opposing opposite forces contradicting eachother...