I'm new and I want to summon the demon abraxas how would I show that I'm serious and I'm going to use a pengelum (I can't spell) to contact him because I woke up with alot of scratches on my back a on my stomach too and my bed keeps moving at night I don't know if I have showed disrespect to...

I have a problem my girlfriend is Christian and I don't want to tell her that I'm satinist but I'm in love with her and we are engaged and I mighnt perform the commitment ritual tonight what do I do? Keep it a secret