You, in basic terms, need to be able to separate the truth from xian bullshit. They do a lot that you don't even really notice, such as subliminal messaging in just everyday things such as music, television, movies especially, to even something as simple as self help book or what have you.  You...

could be enemy Greys, I got attacked a couple times after doing the ritual, you can tell it really pissed them off. But.. I mean a butterfly? It's possible you saw a butterfly spirit, I guess. If you can't tell, I'm not entirely sure haha but if you're really, really confused I would recommend...