Can anyone give me an extensive list on Satanic literature that's not fake dogma? Anything on our history and/or ways like the black book.

I was once a lost soul living in a reality of lies given to me by a false god and being fed blasphemy from my parents. I one day wondered why my Lord was so hated throughout multiple religions and casted away by the masses; I've thanked my curiosity ever since that day because this time it did...

I'm wondering where I could find more esoteric knowledge/techniques and other teachings related to Satanism. I'm also wondering how to go about meeting people that are Satanist to eventually establish a coven.