I was going to a penticostal church from the age of 7-18. I saw some crazy $h** that terrified me as a child. When I turned 18 I could finally quit going, I felt horrible inside from going and still thoughts linger. Ugh : / well enough talk of that I want to know if it was a complete waste of my...

He is the same way as me. The difference, he claimed to have done the merkaba for a month straight... More then 4 years ago. Does it not fade if left to waste away?

I dedicated my soul to Satan almost 5 years ago I have never been abel to keep a steady meditation schedule I get so damn lazy cuz of work and stuff. I seem to do it in burst, usually the merkaba. Every once in a while my husband will meditate and when I sence his energy I'll tell him. He...