I quit Porn

[Goldenwings]

This thread will serve too for you to know how a muslim lives

I watched porn since i was 11/12 years old, i had huge sexual urges since that age and also was programed that having a girlfriend is prohibited by islam, thus this energy went to porn, even if i was able to get a girlfriend easily ( i am not exagerating many girls asked me to be their boyfriend and i turned them down because "Allah" told me to) but it just was too much for me since i was afraid of hell in the afterlife. And at that time i was feeling immense guilt every single time i masturbate + the social pressure, people acted like no one masturbate so i felt im a bad guy

Lately i was considering stoping porn, i did quit with few relapses but one day i found a website thats just so good , since i developed a very refined taste in porn, to the point the videos that are trending or getting most likes dont excite me, the angles should be right, the models should meet certain standards, quality lighting etc , the website i found was having those kind of videos i like

So i became addicted again for long period of time, also i was visiting a website where i roleplayed with girls( i was visiting it since i was 15 years old which is crazy since i could easily get a gf but instead choose to rp online, because of islam)

Some weeks ago, i was eating then just out of curiosity or whatever i wanted to kind of pray to Satan even if i know it doesnt work like that , but i just wanted to do it, i said Satan can you please make my life better thank you. I felt a shiver.

The day after my favourite porn website was down and same thing for the roleplay website i always used , it felt bad actually lol since i knew there isnt a website as good as this one , i decided its time to quit all that, a day later i tried using another website i regreted it , it felt bad i just lost energy for nothing, then i completly lost interest in porn, and masturbation ( what i was addicted to is porn rather than masturbation so, they both went together)

Was it a coincidence or a real thing i dont know, i just wanted to share my experience, im literally no longer attracted to porn nor masturbation,it doesnt even cross my mind, i know emptiness calls something to fill it, i think i will just meet more girls without necessarly doing something everytime ( i dont wanna end up sex addict ), so that i dont go back to porn

 

[Henu the Great]

Was it a coincidence or a real thing i dont know, i just wanted to share my experience, im literally no longer attracted to porn nor masturbation,it doesnt even cross my mind, i know emptiness calls something to fill it, i think i will just meet more girls without necessarly doing something everytime ( i dont wanna end up sex addict ), so that i dont go back to porn

"Satan's power is supreme and felt by all!"

He has the "tendency" (really, much more than that) to bring out the best in us.

 

[Wisdom_Seeker]

That's great to hear.

I was addicted to pornography and was very liberal with the content featured in many of the videos, and I had an identity crisis as well, often imagining being someone else or some things that are very cucky. Ironically, my liberation from porn happened the same time I gave Christianity a boot. Ever since then, my life has been going in a much better direction, though some damage from the past remains, but it is not causing me to ever go back to past errors.

I do not know what it can be. Maybe, when you stop obsessing about sin and how worthless you are, your mind is not burdened by thoughts that drag you into the same trap, thinking that you can press the "forgiveness" button constantly.

 

[Pan_Shaman]

It will take you sometime to get back in track with all that energy you lost since it's accumulated but you'll get there surely. Remember, the Gods help he who helps himself

 

[Goldenwings]

"Satan's power is supreme and felt by all!"

He has the "tendency" (really, much more than that) to bring out the best in us.

It feels so good , especially coming from a muslim background where God never does something, there is a crazy thing some muslims did, i did that.m too. Sometimes you just get fed up to the point you insult Allah, and its very very rare and crazy for a muslim to do that

The funny thing is that everyone who did it , literally everyone i know who did that, his life got better, even me the moment i insulted Allah, life started getting better.

 

[Goldenwings]

That's great to hear.

I was addicted to pornography and was very liberal with the content featured in many of the videos, and I had an identity crisis as well, often imagining being someone else or some things that are very cucky. Ironically, my liberation from porn happened the same time I gave Christianity a boot. Ever since then, my life has been going in a much better direction, though some damage from the past remains, but it is not causing me to ever go back to past errors.

I do not know what it can be. Maybe, when you stop obsessing about sin and how worthless you are, your mind is not burdened by thoughts that drag you into the same trap, thinking that you can press the "forgiveness" button constantly.

Good point," the forgiveness button" you said is so accurate , i used to be stuck in that loop, doing a sin => feeling very guilty ( vibrating bad) => repenting => doing it again.

It just teaches one to be not responsable and it also program the mind to think in terms of is it a sin or not, instead of what are the consequences of this, and is it truly worth it and so on

 

[Goldenwings]

It will take you sometime to get back in track with all that energy you lost since it's accumulated but you'll get there surely. Remember, the Gods help he who helps himself

Thank you