i think i want to dedicate , is there any more that i should do when dedicating my self? or All i should do is what writen in dedication page? and.. When i dedicate is there any clue that satan recieve me or not? if i cant meditate rightly what should i do? just keep going? because i think...

Should I do the "dedication" first before start meditation and anything? is it very important?

Hello , i'm new here and about satanism , sorry for my bad english , im from asia. i'm reading in website that satanism is "one way , no turning back" , what was that means? i mean ,  i can just get out from the thing and not doing satanism again , can i? and , i think i need some guidance how...