Understand, thank you. But I wonder Can I get special contact with you? Is this possible and how?

Hi hoodedcobra. I know you for a long time but this is my first meet. I hope I would not doing something wrong. I can't find another person for my question I am sorry. I am *** years old and from *** . I was initiated in August-September of 2016. Then finished 40 days of meditations and...