''Beelzebub'' is the name given by the Jew to Baalzevul/Zeus. I would not laugh at their names. I don't even know what is funny in it. I think you should try to meditate on that and search why is making you feel like that.
Some people will act ''bad'' without knowing it, there is no ethics in this world anymore. We are here to push those 36 ethics from the Gods. If you read them, you will see that there is an ethic name ''Destruction'' and another ''Love and Hate''. Destruction can be viewed as bad or ''evil''...
Celibate can also have sexual intercourse with a partner without being in love. It's better to have sex than becoming mentally and physically ill because you don't want a partner.
You can try this meditation by our High Priestess to develop the left hemisphere of your brain, you can also go outside and try to feel the wind on your face/skin, focus on how your hair on your arms moves, etc.
I may add for no.3 that if you know what the God/Godess rule, you can ask for help in that matter. Exemple: Amon Ra, you can ask if your partner suit you well.
The Gods are not the Christard God, they don't get angry for things like that. If you are new to this path, your astral senses may not be well developed, and it is normal not to sense any messages.
Quand tu dis ''j'incruste des sigils sur les murs'' tu pars dans des endroits publics? Si oui, fait attention de ne pas te faire prendre, on sait jamais qui est dans les parage.