Know that I am not lost and am still trying even if this is now alone, wounded and left behind. But a child can walk only so far as their parent holds their hand in darkness. I will go as far as my now-starving soul will carry me. I made a special promise to never stop trying; I intend to keep that to my dying breath, to Hell, or nonexistence.

"But my own shall not die like the sons of Adam that are without" - Satan, The Al Jilwah.