I did my dedication ritual a couple of days ago and I meditate almost everyday. I opened my chakra's but still I feel the same. I am still under alot of stress and problems. Tell me what to do.

I dedicated myself to Satan a couple of days ago. At first I was scared but I did it because I was tired of the world's constant demands and as a former religious guy, the praying thing turned out to be bull. I'm 23 years old and I have faced various depressions, embarrassments and troubles and...

If I don't have access to a parchment or some special ink like Dragonsblood...Can I still make the pact with a plain paper,blood and blue ink pen to write the agreement?