Nah, I long lost hope even for a close friend, not even for a partner. Hoping is just make it hurt more. But still, in fact, it hurts

I dont enjoy the journey. I do it, because I must in order to achive my goals. Because I must advance. There is no joy in it, nor anything really, that I find joyous, except a very bad habit I try to get rid of. Noone enjoys climbing the mountian, or running a marathon, only the succes at the end.

To be honest, its been five years now since I try and fail to quit porn. And whenever, no matter how long I quit it, my life becomes significantly worse. It does not feel like quitting a bad habit, it feels like cutting out my lst source of joy from life, and torturing myself for nothing! And it...

Im more of an overachiaver. 10 Sannisvara, 10 Baumaya, 10 Surya... every day. Even this is very few compared what I could do a few years ago, when 108 repeat for each was just the first of my routine. And even into the accessory chakras. I could try the one chakra a day method, just hard to...

I just have in mind that I must hurry, and advance as fast as possible. Sure, Im in my 20s yet, and have around 50 more years, or 70 at best, but who knows if its enough time for me.

Quick note, after a month of grayness and a very depressive and gray month, I had my first big fallback. Yep, Im not proud of myself, but this is the first time for long when I finally feel relaxed and happy, and not constantly feeling that what I do is not enough. Damn. Guess its back to...

Apostoles from Berserk are the most disgusting creatures who sacrificed their loved ones to jewish 'angels' in exchange of a lovecraftian horror body🤦

And quick refreshing, they didnt choosed me to that shit. Which is good, since I would have decline it anyway, but now how the fuck will I earn money...

Greetings! So, I have one big part of my mentality, which was a great fuel in the past but slowly turned against me, and I just dont know how to change it anymore. I want to do everything. Endlessly evolve, endlessly train, every, single, fucking day. It was good way back to stick to routine...

Greetings! I bought this piece of wood a week ago to make pyrography into it, but Im stuck. I just cant figure out what would look the best into it. Tought makeing the weightening the hearth scene from papyrus of any, a scane from illiad, the portrait of Apollon and Astarte in the two sides...

INteresting, for some reason I was obsessed with tongue splitting in the past for some reason...

Exactly that😁 https://ancient-forums.com/threads/i-quitted-porn-and-life-feels-gray-now.303698/

Greetings! (Mostly best would be for myself to wait a few days to digest it a bit more, but you might know, Im really impatient). So, I spent a lot of time reflecting myself, questioning what part of me is really me and what is just something external factor, or just something I tell myself to...

I tried out five different kundalini yoga so far, and most of had very intense benfeits, just hard to choose wich one to stick for

So... I looked up the sympthoms, and I was overly skeptical, since I feel like it would just make every unique or great man just sick in some way or another, and now they arent geniuses just some sick weirdos. Well sadly some list are true for me, I learned to read on my on very early, had and...