Whenever I start to want something really bad I feel the entire universe starts working against me from trying to get it... However if I lose interest on that thing,,,I tend to be successful... I have tested this over and over... Like the universe is playing a joke on me...! I get the feeling...

Thank you everyone... I am taking your advice and letting it out... Feels good...

So recently I have progressed quite a bit in meditation for the first time... I can feel a electric sensation on my spine sometimes...And for the first time I have started to feel energy...However,,,when i am all alone in my home...I sometimes have these "RUSH" of negative feelings (They are...