thanks for the advice, I'm trying to stick to my meditation and magical workings schedule

It's a good protective camp, but you have to work hard almost constantly, it's tiring for my human body, especially since the planets didn't align well when I was born. Enemies and enemies at every turn, both seen and unseen, I wish I had the strength to burn all enemies with absolute light.

I can't vibrate the runes to their full potential because I live with several people. I vibrate them in my mind and whisper them, so my magic is weak. I focus more on visualizing the energy or what I want. I have a lot to say and I don't know how I can work under these conditions.

The enemies do a good job of destroying me, but they can destroy me up to a certain point, and then the protection of the gods begins, (I noticed this through the dreams I have, dreams of people I know but their eyes are different sometimes blue or sometimes purple looking at me comforting me...

I need protection I was thinking about a demon sigil to carry with me everywhere. I have a lot of problems at the moment. I also started a series of ADP

And who curses me, brother, to do these things? Do you think I'm that important?

I've made too many sacrifices only to get nothing. Too much time wasted on this subject for nothing. It's like having a business that's not working and you decide to change it.

I try to work towards my goals, both material and spiritual, I make sacrifices, I meditate for a period of time that I cannot afford. However, nothing works for me. I keep falling, I do not move forward. I have put all my trust in the gods for so many years. I consume an immense amount of...