i just wanted to talk about this, maybe i can lower my grief. i know alot here are motivated but some like me struggle.
As a spiritual satanist we are supposed to literally perfect ourselves. we have been given a golden opportunity. an opportunity that billions of people do not have. the pressure to make the absolute most of this causes me grief when i think about it because i waste many days. sure, i do warfare everyday, but is that what im going to be rememberd for? for doing the bare minimum? my birth chart is absolutely riddled with leadership. specifically spiritual leadership. its a soul mission and ive known this for a long time. i feel like the gods see a tiny single grain of potential in you and expect you to lead enitre nations like george washington or something. i get it, thats how winners are, the gods are literal strength and personal powerhouse pioneers. so they expect the absolute best out of you. i will admit im on the weaker side because ive never done anytihng difficult really. always been lazy and to know that i could potentially waste a golden opportunity is depressing and humiliating.
the thing is advancing is HARD ass work. for decades to get anywhere really. and time is of the essence which puts even more stress. its just so hard to get moving. but i guess that's just the way it is. there's no way around pain in this universe. if you want to survive its constant struggle, probably for eternity because even Satan still works to advance more. also in my most recent past life, which i know alot about. i was lke the polar opposite from how i am now, i guess its all astrology influence, it has to be because i was a model human being. now i barley have a decent attention span. whats up with that?
anyways i don't really have a question or much of a point. just talking because you all are the only people who could possibly relate. especially the one who are like me who have been around for a little while and havent made the most of it.
As a spiritual satanist we are supposed to literally perfect ourselves. we have been given a golden opportunity. an opportunity that billions of people do not have. the pressure to make the absolute most of this causes me grief when i think about it because i waste many days. sure, i do warfare everyday, but is that what im going to be rememberd for? for doing the bare minimum? my birth chart is absolutely riddled with leadership. specifically spiritual leadership. its a soul mission and ive known this for a long time. i feel like the gods see a tiny single grain of potential in you and expect you to lead enitre nations like george washington or something. i get it, thats how winners are, the gods are literal strength and personal powerhouse pioneers. so they expect the absolute best out of you. i will admit im on the weaker side because ive never done anytihng difficult really. always been lazy and to know that i could potentially waste a golden opportunity is depressing and humiliating.
the thing is advancing is HARD ass work. for decades to get anywhere really. and time is of the essence which puts even more stress. its just so hard to get moving. but i guess that's just the way it is. there's no way around pain in this universe. if you want to survive its constant struggle, probably for eternity because even Satan still works to advance more. also in my most recent past life, which i know alot about. i was lke the polar opposite from how i am now, i guess its all astrology influence, it has to be because i was a model human being. now i barley have a decent attention span. whats up with that?
anyways i don't really have a question or much of a point. just talking because you all are the only people who could possibly relate. especially the one who are like me who have been around for a little while and havent made the most of it.