Degonki
Member
Greetings everyone, I decided to create this topic to discuss an issue that I've been thinking about these last few days. I'm going to tell you a bit about my experience as well, and I'd like to read what you think about it.
That spiritual warfare is important and is a priority, that is not news to anyone here, and I firmly believe that too. But to what extent can we "sacrifice" ourselves for it? So that you can better understand, I will share my experience and my opinion about this.
From the first day I got to know RTRs, some time after my dedication, I wanted to participate. On my first attempt, I tried to go with the 9 reps of the RTR-f and almost passed out from exhaustion. I was frustrated, and decided to try again once I finished the 40 days of power. But before that I received advice that I could try again with only 3 reps, so I decided to try again. This time I managed to go all the way, and was ecstatic, for this successful attempt.
With time, I gradually increased the repetitions and today I can easily do 9 repetitions. But my main difficulty was that I was kind of forced to start my meditations late at night, due to the fact that I do not live alone for financial reasons and my family members who live with me are Xians. At first this was not a problem, but now, due to the long time I need to meditate, it is leading to exhaustion due to lack of adequate sleep.
To cite an example, this past September, I didn't just go to my limit, I literally exceeded them, there were nights when I slept less than 3 hours just to complete all the rituals on the schedule. And I did it. Despite the difficulties and having to deal with sleep deprivation, I completed the spiritual warfare agenda for the last month without missing a single ritual.
These last few days, believing that reducing my meditations to get more sleep would be better, I tried that and it didn't work. The truth, in my experience, is that if I have to choose between meditation and sleep, meditation is always better. 6 hours of sleep without kundalini yoga, for example, will never be better, than 1 hour of kundalini yoga + 5 hours of sleep, this I can speak from experience.
The truth is that apparently I have no choice. I cannot sacrifice my study, because I will need the knowledge acquired from it, besides that with this knowledge I can get a better job, and to sacrifice my work, no way, for now, I still need it. The only choice left is sleep, then. In these last few days, I confess that I have thought about pausing the RTRs and just doing kundalini yoga, to regain my strength, but this thought always comes to mind: "If I stop now with the spiritual warfare to 'rest', in the future, I won't even have a place to rest anymore, because my home will be completely taken over by the enemy." If it weren't for the fact that spiritual warfare is coming to a head and times are tough, I would take some time to rest, but I feel that it is not the time anymore. There is no more time for that.
The truth is that I feel exhausted, in a way. I can't even do the void meditation properly anymore, since every time I try to quiet my mind and slow down the flow of thoughts, my brain just shuts down and I nod off. I'm cheating on the void meditation, in a way, lol. But I believe I no longer have time to rest. I know that alone I don't make much difference in spiritual warfare, but if many SS adopt this "stop to rest" thinking, especially in these times, what will happen? I believe the outcome would not be very pleasant. So that's why I try to ignore the exhaustion and keep fighting, despite the fatigue.
If times were different, I would take a break. But I believe that the consequences of simply ignoring the spiritual warfare right now, at this most crucial time for it, because of fatigue, would be worse than the negative consequences of sleep deprivation on my body. But I decided to share this with you, whom I consider as my spiritual family, because I want to make sure that I made the right decision. So I ask you to share your thoughts on this subject.
Maybe some of you advise a work, well, in November, there is a specific date that I intend to start a work on finances and career. Even in the runic meditation I do every day, I am using the rune GEBO and WUNJO, with the following statement: "I sacrifice my sleep and whatever is necessary to evolve spiritually and give my best in this spiritual war for this world. This self-sacrifice gives me the power and strength necessary to evolve spiritually and destroy Satan's enemies, completely and permanently, while remaining strong and healthy, in a way that is completely safe and healthy for me." That was the temporary solution I thought of to keep me fighting, at least until this work took effect and I got more time to meditate.
That spiritual warfare is important and is a priority, that is not news to anyone here, and I firmly believe that too. But to what extent can we "sacrifice" ourselves for it? So that you can better understand, I will share my experience and my opinion about this.
From the first day I got to know RTRs, some time after my dedication, I wanted to participate. On my first attempt, I tried to go with the 9 reps of the RTR-f and almost passed out from exhaustion. I was frustrated, and decided to try again once I finished the 40 days of power. But before that I received advice that I could try again with only 3 reps, so I decided to try again. This time I managed to go all the way, and was ecstatic, for this successful attempt.
With time, I gradually increased the repetitions and today I can easily do 9 repetitions. But my main difficulty was that I was kind of forced to start my meditations late at night, due to the fact that I do not live alone for financial reasons and my family members who live with me are Xians. At first this was not a problem, but now, due to the long time I need to meditate, it is leading to exhaustion due to lack of adequate sleep.
To cite an example, this past September, I didn't just go to my limit, I literally exceeded them, there were nights when I slept less than 3 hours just to complete all the rituals on the schedule. And I did it. Despite the difficulties and having to deal with sleep deprivation, I completed the spiritual warfare agenda for the last month without missing a single ritual.
These last few days, believing that reducing my meditations to get more sleep would be better, I tried that and it didn't work. The truth, in my experience, is that if I have to choose between meditation and sleep, meditation is always better. 6 hours of sleep without kundalini yoga, for example, will never be better, than 1 hour of kundalini yoga + 5 hours of sleep, this I can speak from experience.
The truth is that apparently I have no choice. I cannot sacrifice my study, because I will need the knowledge acquired from it, besides that with this knowledge I can get a better job, and to sacrifice my work, no way, for now, I still need it. The only choice left is sleep, then. In these last few days, I confess that I have thought about pausing the RTRs and just doing kundalini yoga, to regain my strength, but this thought always comes to mind: "If I stop now with the spiritual warfare to 'rest', in the future, I won't even have a place to rest anymore, because my home will be completely taken over by the enemy." If it weren't for the fact that spiritual warfare is coming to a head and times are tough, I would take some time to rest, but I feel that it is not the time anymore. There is no more time for that.
The truth is that I feel exhausted, in a way. I can't even do the void meditation properly anymore, since every time I try to quiet my mind and slow down the flow of thoughts, my brain just shuts down and I nod off. I'm cheating on the void meditation, in a way, lol. But I believe I no longer have time to rest. I know that alone I don't make much difference in spiritual warfare, but if many SS adopt this "stop to rest" thinking, especially in these times, what will happen? I believe the outcome would not be very pleasant. So that's why I try to ignore the exhaustion and keep fighting, despite the fatigue.
If times were different, I would take a break. But I believe that the consequences of simply ignoring the spiritual warfare right now, at this most crucial time for it, because of fatigue, would be worse than the negative consequences of sleep deprivation on my body. But I decided to share this with you, whom I consider as my spiritual family, because I want to make sure that I made the right decision. So I ask you to share your thoughts on this subject.
Maybe some of you advise a work, well, in November, there is a specific date that I intend to start a work on finances and career. Even in the runic meditation I do every day, I am using the rune GEBO and WUNJO, with the following statement: "I sacrifice my sleep and whatever is necessary to evolve spiritually and give my best in this spiritual war for this world. This self-sacrifice gives me the power and strength necessary to evolve spiritually and destroy Satan's enemies, completely and permanently, while remaining strong and healthy, in a way that is completely safe and healthy for me." That was the temporary solution I thought of to keep me fighting, at least until this work took effect and I got more time to meditate.