Really struggling with loneliness and isolation

[666fairy]

I took the time this year to really focus on power mediations, cleansing/repairing/building/programming my aura, chakra work, returning curses, and cord cutting.

The hard work paid off and i've seen areas of my life improve. Chakra work was very intense however as I was purging so much repressed emotions it felt like I wasn't going to make it.

I'm really happy I pushed and motivated myself, but in all honesty im still very depressed and struggling deeply. I had a very traumatic childhood where I got physically, emotionally, and psychologically abused by extremist Christian parents, and then went to school and was bullied, ostracized, and scapegoated by my peers.

The physcal abuse by my parents even went into adult hood. they beat me down physically and emotionally so many times, they made it so i was dependant on them but would gaslight me why I dont have my life together? Like you beat down my goals, ambitions, and dreams and literally beat me up and expect me to be a well functioning, grounded human being?

I had to become homeless to escape them, which was traumatic too. I've had a lot of traumatic stuff happen up to even this year, but I won't get into it because I know people here will just call me crazy.

I'm really struggling to find my place in this world. I dont know what its like to be loved, respected, or cared about. I dont fit in with my peers and because im this outcasted blacksheep thats very different from them, they bully me too. I dont force my opinions of the vaccine for example, but they keep making fun of me for choosing not to put it in my body even pretending they share the same beliefs and then getting it shortly after to mock me.

Becuase i dont want to drink, do drugs, go to nightclubs, and participae in this toxic culture im treated very poorly. People call me strange an unusual. When I was 20 while everyone else was partying I was studying spirituality, meditating, and learning how to heal myself.

I'm at the point where this deep level of ostracization from my peers, family, and society is really wearing me down. I'm fighting suicial thoughts again.I feel like i cant trust anyone, cause whenver i do they do very evil things to me, or take my kindness for weakness, or covertly bully me, or scapegoat me, or project , or make mean comments disguised as jokes. I'm kind to people if theyre kind to me. ppl that do like me always say how I make them feel understood, heard, and accepted.

I can't do this anymore. I even programmed my aura to repel narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths to weed out toxic people.

I've had visions of my past lives that got confirmed by outside sources, and in past lives i've had similar ostracization, like Being hunted for being a witch. This is history repeating itself all over again. To add on to this, people even sensed in this lifetime I was a witch before I even remembered/realized it. I had this christian guy say hes scared of me because im a witch, he even thought I was in the illuminati which I dont understand, calling me an illuminati witch and bullying me. An old roommate was scared of me and became catholic, and we got into a heated argument and the lights started flickering and she flpped out going "you see you see!!!" , since then when she saw me in public she hid behind her friend terrified of me despite me always showing her kindness. I saw a spiritual based healer recently and she too was scared of me, at the end of the session she said I was a witch in a past life. '

I know my heart, I know I don't deserve this. I just don't understand how im on this planet just to get abused, bullied, targeted, and ostracized. it feels like a nightmare. I've always just been very different from everyone and never belonged anywhere.

i'm sorry for complaining but idk what to do. im so hurt. I don't know how much more I can take of this. I live alone , and not because of vaccine passports im second class citizen. no family i can trust because they are evil and abusive.. no friends i can trust, or aren't fucked up on drugs and alcohol.

I'm really hurting.

 

[Aquarius]

You have us.
The truth is that Spiritual Satanism is a lonely path, but honestly you make it even more lonelier by telling people everything about yourself. These people wouldn't be scared if you didn't tell them about witchcraft, you need to stop speaking your mind to people and think before speaking, often it's much better to be quiet. You know you're in the right by not doing degenerate activities, why do you feel bad about what degenerates think of you? The sooner you stop caring about what others think of you the sooner you will feel muuuuch muuuch better.

 

[666fairy]

You have us.
The truth is that Spiritual Satanism is a lonely path, but honestly you make it even more lonelier by telling people everything about yourself. These people wouldn't be scared if you didn't tell them about witchcraft, you need to stop speaking your mind to people and think before speaking, often it's much better to be quiet. You know you're in the right by not doing degenerate activities, why do you feel bad about what degenerates think of you? The sooner you stop caring about what others think of you the sooner you will feel muuuuch muuuch better.

I dont care what people think about me, what I care about is I dont know whats its like to be loved of cared about. This is a human need that helps us be better functioning and grounded. This type of isolation, scapegoating, tribal shaming actually negatively affects the root chakra. Trauma and abuse and bullying, damage the root chakra. Also I am not super open about the witchcraft, I think you misunderstood. I said in my post that people knew I was. a witch before I remembered and started practicing.

 

[Wayofthegods]

I took the time this year to really focus on power mediations, cleansing/repairing/building/programming my aura, chakra work, returning curses, and cord cutting.

The hard work paid off and i've seen areas of my life improve. Chakra work was very intense however as I was purging so much repressed emotions it felt like I wasn't going to make it.

I'm really happy I pushed and motivated myself, but in all honesty im still very depressed and struggling deeply. I had a very traumatic childhood where I got physically, emotionally, and psychologically abused by extremist Christian parents, and then went to school and was bullied, ostracized, and scapegoated by my peers.

The physcal abuse by my parents even went into adult hood. they beat me down physically and emotionally so many times, they made it so i was dependant on them but would gaslight me why I dont have my life together? Like you beat down my goals, ambitions, and dreams and literally beat me up and expect me to be a well functioning, grounded human being?

I had to become homeless to escape them, which was traumatic too. I've had a lot of traumatic stuff happen up to even this year, but I won't get into it because I know people here will just call me crazy.

I'm really struggling to find my place in this world. I dont know what its like to be loved, respected, or cared about. I dont fit in with my peers and because im this outcasted blacksheep thats very different from them, they bully me too. I dont force my opinions of the vaccine for example, but they keep making fun of me for choosing not to put it in my body even pretending they share the same beliefs and then getting it shortly after to mock me.

Becuase i dont want to drink, do drugs, go to nightclubs, and participae in this toxic culture im treated very poorly. People call me strange an unusual. When I was 20 while everyone else was partying I was studying spirituality, meditating, and learning how to heal myself.

I'm at the point where this deep level of ostracization from my peers, family, and society is really wearing me down. I'm fighting suicial thoughts again.I feel like i cant trust anyone, cause whenver i do they do very evil things to me, or take my kindness for weakness, or covertly bully me, or scapegoat me, or project , or make mean comments disguised as jokes. I'm kind to people if theyre kind to me. ppl that do like me always say how I make them feel understood, heard, and accepted.

I can't do this anymore. I even programmed my aura to repel narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths to weed out toxic people.

I've had visions of my past lives that got confirmed by outside sources, and in past lives i've had similar ostracization, like Being hunted for being a witch. This is history repeating itself all over again. To add on to this, people even sensed in this lifetime I was a witch before I even remembered/realized it. I had this christian guy say hes scared of me because im a witch, he even thought I was in the illuminati which I dont understand, calling me an illuminati witch and bullying me. An old roommate was scared of me and became catholic, and we got into a heated argument and the lights started flickering and she flpped out going "you see you see!!!" , since then when she saw me in public she hid behind her friend terrified of me despite me always showing her kindness. I saw a spiritual based healer recently and she too was scared of me, at the end of the session she said I was a witch in a past life. '

I know my heart, I know I don't deserve this. I just don't understand how im on this planet just to get abused, bullied, targeted, and ostracized. it feels like a nightmare. I've always just been very different from everyone and never belonged anywhere.

i'm sorry for complaining but idk what to do. im so hurt. I don't know how much more I can take of this. I live alone , and not because of vaccine passports im second class citizen. no family i can trust because they are evil and abusive.. no friends i can trust, or aren't fucked up on drugs and alcohol.

I'm really hurting.

You may be going through a bad Saturn Transit. Look for anything in Aquarius in your chart. When Saturn transit conjunct Natal Moon, it would cause this. If this is the case it will end March 2023.

Try to work on the Triad of Empowerment, Void, Cleaning and Yoga.

Mauna in Sanskrit means silence, taciturnity, silence of the mind. Chanting this has been the most effective for me so far.

Be well.

 

[Way_Seeker666]

Don't tell people about being a Satanist, or about magick or anything of this path. This is not just about their opinion, it can be dangerous for you as some people can become malicious and violent towards us.
Try doing the "Healing Psychological Trauma" working by Lydia. Trauma really messes with the mind's functioning and ruins one's sense of self. It causes confusion amd disconnectedness and all sorts of nasty things. Healing yourself will do wonders.
After that if you are still struggling, there are options for having people or just someone in your life. You can find the right people, or partner, or have a relationship with a succbus or incubus.

 

[Sunny]

Don't tell people about being a Satanist, or about magick or anything of this path. This is not just about their opinion, it can be dangerous for you as some people can become malicious and violent towards us.
Try doing the "Healing Psychological Trauma" working by Lydia. Trauma really messes with the mind's functioning and ruins one's sense of self. It causes confusion amd disconnectedness and all sorts of nasty things. Healing yourself will do wonders.
After that if you are still struggling, there are options for having people or just someone in your life. You can find the right people, or partner, or have a relationship with a succbus or incubus.

One cannot live without friends. And a partner only in spirit form cannot give you the support and pleasure you need physically.

 

[Sunny]

You have us.
The truth is that Spiritual Satanism is a lonely path, but honestly you make it even more lonelier by telling people everything about yourself. These people wouldn't be scared if you didn't tell them about witchcraft, you need to stop speaking your mind to people and think before speaking, often it's much better to be quiet. You know you're in the right by not doing degenerate activities, why do you feel bad about what degenerates think of you? The sooner you stop caring about what others think of you the sooner you will feel muuuuch muuuch better.

I dont care what people think about me, what I care about is I dont know whats its like to be loved of cared about. This is a human need that helps us be better functioning and grounded. This type of isolation, scapegoating, tribal shaming actually negatively affects the root chakra. Trauma and abuse and bullying, damage the root chakra. Also I am not super open about the witchcraft, I think you misunderstood. I said in my post that people knew I was. a witch before I remembered and started practicing.

Don't trust spiritualists other than JoS because they are just false and liars. At present in this world, apart from Jewish spirituality, for non-Jews there is almost nothing. Maybe the governments know something about it but real spiritualists are very rare nowadays. Don't trust anyone even in JoS but only advanced and capable people.

People didn't know you are a witch but it was you who exposed yourself so you suffered the consequences. It's not just about being kind but also about disguising yourself.

 

[Sunny]

You have us.
The truth is that Spiritual Satanism is a lonely path, but honestly you make it even more lonelier by telling people everything about yourself. These people wouldn't be scared if you didn't tell them about witchcraft, you need to stop speaking your mind to people and think before speaking, often it's much better to be quiet. You know you're in the right by not doing degenerate activities, why do you feel bad about what degenerates think of you? The sooner you stop caring about what others think of you the sooner you will feel muuuuch muuuch better.

Spiritual Satanism is not a solitary path in the sense of going into a mountain or a jungle and living like a wild animal. You cannot survive without the goods of civilisation such as technology, medicine, education, science, justice and so on.

If your friends in society don't want to advance spiritually, you can't do many things with them but they can't stop you from advancing spiritually in your home.

Things change with your partner. If our partners don't want to advance spiritually then they are free to dissolve and disappear in every sense, physically and spiritually but they don't have to drag us with them into nothingness.

 

[Pyralis]

Believe me, I can relate.

I can't speak to any of this on a spiritual level, as my own progress has been very slow-going, but one of the things that helped me the most was just getting the hell out. I decided one day that I'd gotten sick and tired of living in the same town, seeing the same people, going to the same places, and being reminded of every little misfortune or mistreatment I was subjected to however many years ago, so I made a plan to move away. Far away. And it was the best thing I ever did. Nobody here knows or cares anything about who I was or the things I did or has any preconceived notions about the kind of person I am, and I no longer have to worry about past experiences following me and dragging me down. It's such a breath of fresh air.

I understand that this may not be possible for everyone, but if you can manage, definitely consider it.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I've had visions of my past lives that got confirmed by outside sources, and in past lives i've had similar ostracization, like Being hunted for being a witch. This is history repeating itself all over again. To add on to this, people even sensed in this lifetime I was a witch before I even remembered/realized it. I had this christian guy say hes scared of me because im a witch, he even thought I was in the illuminati which I dont understand, calling me an illuminati witch and bullying me. An old roommate was scared of me and became catholic, and we got into a heated argument and the lights started flickering and she flpped out going "you see you see!!!" , since then when she saw me in public she hid behind her friend terrified of me despite me always showing her kindness. I saw a spiritual based healer recently and she too was scared of me, at the end of the session she said I was a witch in a past life. '

This is clear evidence that it is karmic and beyond the scope of you "just being weird". The fact that you are experiencing so much pain and adversity from this is due to the karmic amplification of the problem. This also reflects in your feelings on the matter as well, such as "I've always just been very different from everyone and never belonged anywhere".

The clear solution to this is to remove the negative karma associated with this problem. I would use Munka on the next waning moon time. If you look at the calendar, you can barely catch the waning moon in Scorpio in early November.

As far as right now, use Waunjo on yourself to uplift your mood, like a bandaid solution. This problem is not permanent, so don't get too down.

Good luck. Hang in there.

 

[Aquarius]

You have us.
The truth is that Spiritual Satanism is a lonely path, but honestly you make it even more lonelier by telling people everything about yourself. These people wouldn't be scared if you didn't tell them about witchcraft, you need to stop speaking your mind to people and think before speaking, often it's much better to be quiet. You know you're in the right by not doing degenerate activities, why do you feel bad about what degenerates think of you? The sooner you stop caring about what others think of you the sooner you will feel muuuuch muuuch better.

Spiritual Satanism is not a solitary path in the sense of going into a mountain or a jungle and living like a wild animal. You cannot survive without the goods of civilisation such as technology, medicine, education, science, justice and so on.

If your friends in society don't want to advance spiritually, you can't do many things with them but they can't stop you from advancing spiritually in your home.

Things change with your partner. If our partners don't want to advance spiritually then they are free to dissolve and disappear in every sense, physically and spiritually but they don't have to drag us with them into nothingness.

Perhaps you misunderstood me, mercury retrograde can do that, I've never spoke about Spiritual Satanism being an ascetic thing, merely that when you keep advancing you will naturally want to cut ties with degenerates, I can't see how one SS would want a partner that is what you're describing, I'd rather be single for all my life than that.

 

[Sunny]

You have us.
The truth is that Spiritual Satanism is a lonely path, but honestly you make it even more lonelier by telling people everything about yourself. These people wouldn't be scared if you didn't tell them about witchcraft, you need to stop speaking your mind to people and think before speaking, often it's much better to be quiet. You know you're in the right by not doing degenerate activities, why do you feel bad about what degenerates think of you? The sooner you stop caring about what others think of you the sooner you will feel muuuuch muuuch better.

Spiritual Satanism is not a solitary path in the sense of going into a mountain or a jungle and living like a wild animal. You cannot survive without the goods of civilisation such as technology, medicine, education, science, justice and so on.

If your friends in society don't want to advance spiritually, you can't do many things with them but they can't stop you from advancing spiritually in your home.

Things change with your partner. If our partners don't want to advance spiritually then they are free to dissolve and disappear in every sense, physically and spiritually but they don't have to drag us with them into nothingness.

Perhaps you misunderstood me, mercury retrograde can do that, I've never spoke about Spiritual Satanism being an ascetic thing, merely that when you keep advancing you will naturally want to cut ties with degenerates, I can't see how one SS would want a partner that is what you're describing, I'd rather be single for all my life than that.

I have not misunderstood you, but loneliness because of ignorant and deceived people should not go as far as partnership because it leads exactly to total loneliness.

It is very likely to have such a partner because at present, 90% of humanity is unaware of spirituality and is also programmed to go against it.

We must at least show them the truth somehow and safely.

 

[Aquarius]

Spiritual Satanism is not a solitary path in the sense of going into a mountain or a jungle and living like a wild animal. You cannot survive without the goods of civilisation such as technology, medicine, education, science, justice and so on.

If your friends in society don't want to advance spiritually, you can't do many things with them but they can't stop you from advancing spiritually in your home.

Things change with your partner. If our partners don't want to advance spiritually then they are free to dissolve and disappear in every sense, physically and spiritually but they don't have to drag us with them into nothingness.

Perhaps you misunderstood me, mercury retrograde can do that, I've never spoke about Spiritual Satanism being an ascetic thing, merely that when you keep advancing you will naturally want to cut ties with degenerates, I can't see how one SS would want a partner that is what you're describing, I'd rather be single for all my life than that.

I have not misunderstood you, but loneliness because of ignorant and deceived people should not go as far as partnership because it leads exactly to total loneliness.

It is very likely to have such a partner because at present, 90% of humanity is unaware of spirituality and is also programmed to go against it.

We must at least show them the truth somehow and safely.

I don't care about npcs unless they look like they may change their mind, I certainly don't want an npc girlfriend. You do you.

 

[Sunny]

Perhaps you misunderstood me, mercury retrograde can do that, I've never spoke about Spiritual Satanism being an ascetic thing, merely that when you keep advancing you will naturally want to cut ties with degenerates, I can't see how one SS would want a partner that is what you're describing, I'd rather be single for all my life than that.

I have not misunderstood you, but loneliness because of ignorant and deceived people should not go as far as partnership because it leads exactly to total loneliness.

It is very likely to have such a partner because at present, 90% of humanity is unaware of spirituality and is also programmed to go against it.

We must at least show them the truth somehow and safely.

I don't care about npcs unless they look like they may change their mind, I certainly don't want an npc girlfriend. You do you.

I am not saying that our target for partners should be NPCs but if this were the case for some reason, I thought how things would be and what should be done.

 

[V12-POWER]

Tell me about it mate, I need to rant a bit, I’ve had a good childhood, attention and love from my family, I’ve been loved by girls in the past but no matter what I do, this feeling of being something different to the 99% of the population always pops, very often I just can’t relate to people, most of the time I don’t want to go out to night clubs, parties, drug myself up or even have a drink.

I’m not lonely in the sense of having no social interactions, it’s actually quite the opposite. But in the end I always want to be distant from all that shitty culture that 99% of people around my age seem to have

The nightclub-party-drink-drug culture is like that toxic ex girlfriend you can’t seem to let go. You’re good without it, then when you’re at the highest point you go back to it, one time it’s fine the second time you start seeing why you left it in the first place, it drags you back, drains you and deep inside you already know the vicious cycle that is.

Shit, can’t deny that once in a while it’s fun to go if there’s literally nothing else to do, but my fondest and best moments where when I was away from that shit, when there where real priorities and objectives instead, like 2019, the year I dedicated. Or even the beginning of 2021, where I was so out of touch with shitty things, only surrounded by my family.

But for me the dissociation from society is a feeling I always have. Declining numerous invitations from friends is common, losing interest in partners because of their shitty low habits is a non ending cycle. Shit if someone comes to me with genuine intentions to learn and meditate I would be the best “teacher” (not that I can teach a lot, but would do my best)

The feeling of loneliness is personally okay with me, unless it’s the company of valuable people, I don’t want it.

Looking back the times I’ve felt at touch the most with myself, where those moments i only wanted to train hard, accomplish my goals and of course be an SS, at the same time those where my loneliest periods in my life, but this loneliness was a conscious decision

 

[HunterH666]

I took the time this year to really focus on power mediations, cleansing/repairing/building/programming my aura, chakra work, returning curses, and cord cutting.

The hard work paid off and i've seen areas of my life improve. Chakra work was very intense however as I was purging so much repressed emotions it felt like I wasn't going to make it.

I'm really happy I pushed and motivated myself, but in all honesty im still very depressed and struggling deeply. I had a very traumatic childhood where I got physically, emotionally, and psychologically abused by extremist Christian parents, and then went to school and was bullied, ostracized, and scapegoated by my peers.

The physcal abuse by my parents even went into adult hood. they beat me down physically and emotionally so many times, they made it so i was dependant on them but would gaslight me why I dont have my life together? Like you beat down my goals, ambitions, and dreams and literally beat me up and expect me to be a well functioning, grounded human being?

I had to become homeless to escape them, which was traumatic too. I've had a lot of traumatic stuff happen up to even this year, but I won't get into it because I know people here will just call me crazy.

I'm really struggling to find my place in this world. I dont know what its like to be loved, respected, or cared about. I dont fit in with my peers and because im this outcasted blacksheep thats very different from them, they bully me too. I dont force my opinions of the vaccine for example, but they keep making fun of me for choosing not to put it in my body even pretending they share the same beliefs and then getting it shortly after to mock me.

Becuase i dont want to drink, do drugs, go to nightclubs, and participae in this toxic culture im treated very poorly. People call me strange an unusual. When I was 20 while everyone else was partying I was studying spirituality, meditating, and learning how to heal myself.

I'm at the point where this deep level of ostracization from my peers, family, and society is really wearing me down. I'm fighting suicial thoughts again.I feel like i cant trust anyone, cause whenver i do they do very evil things to me, or take my kindness for weakness, or covertly bully me, or scapegoat me, or project , or make mean comments disguised as jokes. I'm kind to people if theyre kind to me. ppl that do like me always say how I make them feel understood, heard, and accepted.

I can't do this anymore. I even programmed my aura to repel narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths to weed out toxic people.

I've had visions of my past lives that got confirmed by outside sources, and in past lives i've had similar ostracization, like Being hunted for being a witch. This is history repeating itself all over again. To add on to this, people even sensed in this lifetime I was a witch before I even remembered/realized it. I had this christian guy say hes scared of me because im a witch, he even thought I was in the illuminati which I dont understand, calling me an illuminati witch and bullying me. An old roommate was scared of me and became catholic, and we got into a heated argument and the lights started flickering and she flpped out going "you see you see!!!" , since then when she saw me in public she hid behind her friend terrified of me despite me always showing her kindness. I saw a spiritual based healer recently and she too was scared of me, at the end of the session she said I was a witch in a past life. '

I know my heart, I know I don't deserve this. I just don't understand how im on this planet just to get abused, bullied, targeted, and ostracized. it feels like a nightmare. I've always just been very different from everyone and never belonged anywhere.

i'm sorry for complaining but idk what to do. im so hurt. I don't know how much more I can take of this. I live alone , and not because of vaccine passports im second class citizen. no family i can trust because they are evil and abusive.. no friends i can trust, or aren't fucked up on drugs and alcohol.

I'm really hurting.

I went trought something similar. In my childhood I usually got bullied by people for no reason at all. I didn't like to swear or be an asshole so maybe they didn't apreciate that at the time. Hell my classmates bully me for no reason even now in highschool althought it is not as bad as it was. I tried letting myself believe I am the problem and because of this I went trough the most unpleasant period of my life. Total depression cuz I felt worthless and 0 motivation. Now I managed to love myself more but I can't really understand the pleasure of hurting others. Guess some people really don't deserve to be in this world. My advice will be ignoring those bastards cuz u mentioned quite a lot of people do this kind of things to you. Break contact if possible cuz if they bully you they are not your friends . Thats my view tho feel free to disagree

 

[Henu the Great]

I went trought something similar. In my childhood I usually got bullied by people for no reason at all. I didn't like to swear or be an asshole so maybe they didn't apreciate that at the time. Hell my classmates bully me for no reason even now in highschool althought it is not as bad as it was. I tried letting myself believe I am the problem and because of this I went trough the most unpleasant period of my life. Total depression cuz I felt worthless and 0 motivation. Now I managed to love myself more but I can't really understand the pleasure of hurting others. Guess some people really don't deserve to be in this world. My advice will be ignoring those bastards cuz u mentioned quite a lot of people do this kind of things to you. Break contact if possible cuz if they bully you they are not your friends . Thats my view tho feel free to disagree

I encourage you to strengthen your aura by daily 8 fold activities and to program your aura of protection daily with affirmations that you are protected from all harm.

The effect might not start immediately, but given enough time and effort you should overcome your issues no problem. This requires dilligent practice however.

 

[HunterH666]

I went trought something similar. In my childhood I usually got bullied by people for no reason at all. I didn't like to swear or be an asshole so maybe they didn't apreciate that at the time. Hell my classmates bully me for no reason even now in highschool althought it is not as bad as it was. I tried letting myself believe I am the problem and because of this I went trough the most unpleasant period of my life. Total depression cuz I felt worthless and 0 motivation. Now I managed to love myself more but I can't really understand the pleasure of hurting others. Guess some people really don't deserve to be in this world. My advice will be ignoring those bastards cuz u mentioned quite a lot of people do this kind of things to you. Break contact if possible cuz if they bully you they are not your friends . Thats my view tho feel free to disagree

I encourage you to strengthen your aura by daily 8 fold activities and to program your aura of protection daily with affirmations that you are protected from all harm.

The effect might not start immediately, but given enough time and effort you should overcome your issues no problem. This requires dilligent practice however.

Will do! Thank you.

 

[Soul Wings]

A lot of what you wrote really resonated with me. Please know you are not alone and many people are suffering the same.
I have found it hard to make friends as well.
The loneliness and depression I could write a whole book about, if I had the time... I have faith we can overcome it... slowly... bit by bit.... Please stay strong. We will come out of the other side.
Have you considered maybe adopting a pet, if you can afford it? This really helped me with my loneliness.
This pandemic is a huge reason why people feel this way as well. Maybe consider online socialisation as a possibility? Discord, social media, things like that.
Maybe consider picking up a new hobby you've never done before? At the very least, you can prove to yourself you can do it!
I know it might be TMI but getting myself a high quality discreet "toy" helped with throat/sacral chakra/ego issues and helps a little. (I need this for my current life situation.)
Ignore these daft people calling you a witch, they have no idea what they are doing or saying. Most People = shit. Most people, Anything slightly spiritually abnormal, they shit themselves. If you want people to be open minded, set that intention for yourself, maybe try meeting some Athiests, Pagans, etc. And don't trust these quack "psychics" that take all your money and grovel to "angels" for help. Perhaps you could look into new means of divination for yourself as well?
Well I hope I helped a little bit. Please, take care of yourself