Question #662: Mismatch and failed feminity in physical appearance

[AskSatanOperator]

However it may sound this is very important to me because my love life and self esteem struggle with it, and it's fundamental for women, especially SS, which strive for success in everything.

I am a girl but I don't look like a regular female. Something makes me look masculine and I can't identify it since traits I have separately considered are present in other girls too. And even if they don't look perfect, you would know they're female at a glance. But you couldn't say that about me without thinking twice, and it bothers me, especially because I don't know why. It made other people notice, and objectively so, to the point I have even got mistaken for a male several times and heard unpleasant comments from other girls.
My physical traits like eyelashes and hair colour aren't ugly. Even more beautiful than others'. Yet I seem something in between, not like a girl, but distinct from a boy, which is a great source of ugliness.

Inside, I am very feminine and it pains me not to reflect on the first thing that others notice about me, meaning my body. Everything I say, show or do gets another reaction and nuance due to seeming masculine. It is assumed I am masculine, but it's wrong.

I have analized my physical features many times and can't find what makes for this appearance. I've tried make up, wearing more feminine clothes and jewelry, but neither looks good on me, and it doesn't fit me, and this led me to think that not the lack of these causes this masculinity but my face.
My body is standard to fit looking, no broad shoulders or sharp jawline which would be a reason for this.
Yet I find myself looking masculine, and often, the ugliest person in the room. I don't know where this is coming from since when I was a child and early teen I was very attractive (for that age)

Since there's no way of answering what makes me ugly without seeing me, I'm asking you what makes a female's face beautiful, what makes a person pass as female if you can only see their face.

Because of this I've also been acting more masculine because acting feminine would not match my appearance and would look odd, and I feel I don't deserve to be attractive which I know is wrong. Ugliness has understandably shakened my courage and self esteem, which hampered my social life. I've been more subservient to other people and played the caring role for them or did their dirty jobs in order to make myself liked (because otherwise I cannot be, due to lacking social skills which is due to this shame of being like this) My personality also doesn't help me get loved as I mostly am afraid to express it (due to my looks and low confidence and how some otherwise acceptable traits would look on the physical me)

Do you think a Venus working would help to feminize my face, or become aware of what makes me feminine?

Has any of you gone through this? As no one around me struggles with this (most females I see everyday are either moderately beautiful or take care of themselves in a way that flatters them indeed) and I'm apparently in an ugly duckling phase, I sort of got to think something was inherently wrong with me from the beginning, inevitably causing me to be like this, without solution. Especially since no one I've ever known went through this (visibly)

 

[Sokar]

I know what's your problem. It's not what you think it is. It's not your looks, your appearance or whatever.

The real problem is that you care what others think about you. Worse, it's that you assume things that possibly might not be true based on others' reactions to you.

You said that you feel feminine, so if you feel feminine and you are ok with that, then what others think about you shouldn't be a problem. If you want to do a working, I'd recommend that you should do a working to make you more confident and be yourself. If other girls mistake you for a man, just laugh and dismiss it. It's their problem, not yours.

I know this his hard for you now, but if you change the way you think and keep on accepting yourself as you are, you will not only feel better but more attractive too. A self-conscious person who thinks she must change to please others isn't attractive, it's worse for men but it's bad for women too.

Stop worrying about how others might see you, and focus on what feels good to you. That's how you become more feminine too.

As about your love life, I can tell you there are people who are attracted to anything. There shouldn't be a problem to find someone who is attracted to your type, no matter how you look or how others see you, even if you appear masculine. There are plenty of men who are attracted to masculine or even dominant women.

 

[Gaiseric]

I encourage you to study your natal chart, as studying this may reveal to you the problems that are causing this, and the answers you are looking for.
https://www.jos-astro.com/

A Venus working would definitely help with your attractiveness, so it is a good idea to begin one once Venus is in the correct signs. Satanic hypnosis and programming your aura can make you very attractive as well, because your aura plays a massive part in the way people perceive you. I suspect the way you feel about yourself is reflected in your aura currently, and has caused people to see you as "lesser". You are not lesser. You are a Satanist, and you can overcome this.

https://satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Satanic_Hypnosis.html

As you said, I can't tell you what makes your face look masculine without seeing your face. It might be embarrassing, but I think you should ask family or close friends you can trust to tell you what they find masculine about your face.

Do not lose hope, and remember that every struggle in your life is a chance for you to get stronger. I am a man, but I understand your struggle and what you feel. A few years ago, I remember my own girlfriend said my facial attractiveness was a 4/10, and I broke down several times over my "ugliness". I understand how soul crushing it can be. Fortunately, my face is much more attractive now, around a 7 or 8/10, so there will be a way for you to become more attractive as well.

Every time you see a mirror, look into it, study your face, and be absolutely adamant about the fact that you look beautifully feminine. No matter how much you feel this is a lie, you must feel with conviction that you are attractive and be absolutely stubborn about this. It would be good to get family or friends to help you with this.

Morphogenic fields and subliminals are also useful in fixing facial attractiveness. I recommend you look at Sapien Medicine on youtube, and look into vibrations and how they can influence you.

Do not become too obsessed with your looks, because this can be counter intuitive and hinder your progress rather than help it. Once you reach a satisfactory level of attractiveness, it is extremely important to be happy and content with yourself and the way you look. Otherwise, you can spiral down into wanting to constantly be more and more attractive. This is even more worse than struggling being unattractive, because you will never be satisfied no matter what you have.

I hope this has helped, my sister. Stay strong!

 

[HPS Lydia]

Brooke Shields looks like a man yet she became a super model.

To look more feminine, make sure your hair looks nice. Take good care of it, have feminine hairstyles.

Don't change how you act to suit your looks. Just be yourself. A Venus square can help, or just programming your aura with Green energy and affirm that you always appear feminine to others.

You can also visit a stylist, a professional who will give you tips on the most flattering colors and types of clothes for you individually. If you don't have much money, online there are affordable options, but you will have to send pictures of yourself in natural lighting with no makeup on.

If you can get your hands on some pink moonstone, it helps bring out feminine energy. You can try meditating with it