Question #4702: No Structure

[AskSatanOperator]

I'm currently in my 20's but have serious problems with actually establishing structure in my life. I'll do good for a bit with something and then completely fall off of the tracks. I'm well aware that this is my responsibility and whining about it isn't going to make things any better but I thought I'd ask to see if anyone has any advice. Its overwhelming at times. I didn't go to school growing up and was ""home schooled"" ( not actually taught anything, just sat around all day ). After awhile the police did end up getting involved and I went through some of highschool online. Managed to graduate but still haven't moved past the brain rot from watching youtube practically constantly between the ages of 6 - 19. Had issues for awhile regarding not actually being taught to take care of myself, lived in filth as a child. My parents were largely absent in my life despite living in the same home. Have largely solved the issues with cleanliness but still struggle with actually doing things consistently. Still have some trouble with excessive use of social media. Causing issues with my life between additional education, job advancement, meditation etc. Mostly consistent with meditations now but still have trouble from time to time. I'm working to deal with these issues but wanted to see if anyone here had any advice.

Thank you. Sorry for using the ask Satan service but I'm quite embarrassed.

 

[Amar.Utu.k]

Greetings.

Your condition is positive in the sense that you are growing on yourself, but because of attachment to an old self-image, you can't let go of it to face real life, in responsibility and power.

Start living in the present, in terms of who you are now, make each of your days fulfilling, study daily, meditate daily, train daily, benefit society daily in a way that is worthy of it and reach greater power and heights in social life.

Every such day will elevate your whole being, your mind will become grateful, you will overcome the hole of the past with such an effort.

Yes, it will be difficult for you to become someone powerful immediately, simply, define yourself as someone who intends to become powerful, the most powerful and strive daily for excellence.

As for the mind's attachment to rubbish, you should feed it with abundant thoughts coming from philosophy. You will notice how selective you become with information. From the simple stuff, look at: Marcus Auralius, Lucius Annaeus Seneca, Epicurus, Lao Tzu.

Read also the sermons of the honourable High Priest, you will have much clarity in your mind.

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[Amar.Utu.k]

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[Amar.Utu.k]

Regarding meditation. Take in the arsenal of runes, direct their power to clarify the mind and increase the life force, it will move you forward.

Your mind can be advanced through: Kenaz, Mannaz, Laguz, Dagaz, Ansuz.

Your life force: Fehu, Uruz, Thurs, Sowilo, Bjork, Wunjo, Raido.

In good, runes should be combined, practising with the entire runic alphabet, you will succeed in voblivnye formulations.
Learn to control your own aura, especially the one that relates to your body's astral double, it greatly affects well-being on a physical level, this is important as neurotransmitters influence many of your decisions. https://joyofsatan.org/Color_Meditation.html

 

[existentialcrisis]

I'm currently in my 20's but have serious problems with actually establishing structure in my life. I'll do good for a bit with something and then completely fall off of the tracks. I'm well aware that this is my responsibility and whining about it isn't going to make things any better but I thought I'd ask to see if anyone has any advice. Its overwhelming at times. I didn't go to school growing up and was ""home schooled"" ( not actually taught anything, just sat around all day ). After awhile the police did end up getting involved and I went through some of highschool online. Managed to graduate but still haven't moved past the brain rot from watching youtube practically constantly between the ages of 6 - 19. Had issues for awhile regarding not actually being taught to take care of myself, lived in filth as a child. My parents were largely absent in my life despite living in the same home. Have largely solved the issues with cleanliness but still struggle with actually doing things consistently. Still have some trouble with excessive use of social media. Causing issues with my life between additional education, job advancement, meditation etc. Mostly consistent with meditations now but still have trouble from time to time. I'm working to deal with these issues but wanted to see if anyone here had any advice.

Thank you. Sorry for using the ask Satan service but I'm quite embarrassed.

How is your saturn doing? Is it debilitated?
You might need to increase your saturnine energies in a positive way as it's saturn that lends structure, limitation and a sense of responsibility. Nauthiz would also be beneficial here.

 

[Henu the Great]

I'm currently in my 20's but have serious problems with actually establishing structure in my life. I'll do good for a bit with something and then completely fall off of the tracks. I'm well aware that this is my responsibility and whining about it isn't going to make things any better but I thought I'd ask to see if anyone has any advice. Its overwhelming at times. I didn't go to school growing up and was ""home schooled"" ( not actually taught anything, just sat around all day ). After awhile the police did end up getting involved and I went through some of highschool online. Managed to graduate but still haven't moved past the brain rot from watching youtube practically constantly between the ages of 6 - 19. Had issues for awhile regarding not actually being taught to take care of myself, lived in filth as a child. My parents were largely absent in my life despite living in the same home. Have largely solved the issues with cleanliness but still struggle with actually doing things consistently. Still have some trouble with excessive use of social media. Causing issues with my life between additional education, job advancement, meditation etc. Mostly consistent with meditations now but still have trouble from time to time. I'm working to deal with these issues but wanted to see if anyone here had any advice.

Thank you. Sorry for using the ask Satan service but I'm quite embarrassed.

In the Ancient Greeks there was a myth of the black and white horse. Respectively, these horses represent the logic and the emotions. These two forces are never at ease with one another. To illustrate an example:

You want to go to the gym. Part of you always doesn't want to go, it wants you to be lazy and to sit down. Then, if you satisfy the entropic end of the mind and sit your ass down, your logical mind starts to complain: "but if I sit down i'll lose my gym day and never have the body that I want!". Then, if you get up to go to the gym, the other part of the mind strikes again "maybe it's not that important to go anyway".

No matter what decision you make, one part of you will be disappointed. The part you want to always disappoint is this part of the soul that wants you to remain an eternal worthless slob.

After this part of the mind is tamed properly, then it will start giving you incentives to do the things that you want, not the other way around. But to bring this to that level, you need to whip it and bring it into place. In the myths, this is the taming of a very wild horse. It can only take you to places after you tame it. The more you deny taming it, the less places you will be able to go.

Those who ignore this battle get nowhere in existence, and the entropic and negative forces of nature overtake them, causing depression and all sorts of inner destruction.

Those who are true lovers of truth and power, will take this pain and complaints from the inferior part of the mind, and decide that this pain is more worthwhile than a lifetime of ignorance.

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An example that comes to mind here, is that the mind, in the beginning, if programmed against meditation [some people are programmed with an extreme fear to spirituality - watching thriller movies and what have you], can to some extent be closed to meditation, and can cause to someone symptoms like feeling sleepy, or literally batter someone with just about any other thought other than wanting to meditate.

This world of today is also rife with people who are extremely afraid of facing themselves in anyway. Even though material comfort is ever rising, people are not using this comfort that exists today to reach higher spiritually, and on the contrary, many are sinking into being an NPC that merely experiences stimuli without thinking.

In cases of worse programming against meditation or self improvement, such as self guilt, or feeling as if one is doing something very bad [or is doing "a sin" against "god" for looking inside themselves, WTF Christ-Insanity], the mind can go as far as to cause reactions to make someone stop meditating, thinking of meditation as a threat. A hypothetical event here would be, everytime one sits down to meditate, one gets extreme urges to go eat [even if they ate a moment ago] or do just about anything else, and do only just what will interrupt their meditation and make them lose their meditation.

Reprogramming the above can be helpful and accelerate people in meditation. One example here would be to remind to one's self: "I am positively accepting the new habit of meditation in my life, and I know it is positive for me". As this is repeated as a thought, the mind will also become more open in accepting meditation.

The untrained and lazy average mind, also hates to be confronted with thought or in some way elevated activity, and this is why many people keep watching passively things all day long such as brainwashing from their TV. It is no wonder most humans find recreational, things that do not at all stimulate the mind.

The more the mind is in lethargy, the more it adjusts and makes an environment which goes deeper and deeper into that state. The end result of this is the NPC manifested, humans that hardly use their mind at all. While this has a mental range, this also has a physical manifestation.

The mind is in this case is at a very inactive state, and it works passively. When this downwards movement is conquered and turned to the other side, the opposite happens. The mind will actually work to your benefit, and all these tendencies that were against your improvement, will start shaping to be in your benefit.

A manifestation here would be, instead of a feeling of not wanting to meditate, a strong willpower will arise from within you with the need to meditate, or a habituation where meditation becomes like second nature to you, and you no longer experience that many obstacles most of the time. Instead of feeling like it's the world's burden to do something good for yourself, you'll feel like doing something good is actually something you get motivated over.

Eventually the above gives in and one starts experiencing clarity, better thought, more energy, and starts to experience direct reaping of the benefits of meditation. As with anything else, one has to make this a habit, and to kick out the habit of not being meditative in one's life, one has to do this step by step and with patience.

Habits, or repetitive actions, do cross over from the logical and conscious level to the mind, registering little by little to the subconscious mind. This is how meditation becomes normal to the mind over mind, and progressively it becomes normal to it. This is also how certain hangups get into the mind, by repetition: someone called a failure again and again.

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The natural tendency of all human beings, among others, is to run away when one hears the sounds of battle in anyway, shape or form. If you hear a sudden sound, the first reaction is to run away. If something comes to change you, the first reaction is to disapprove it. Most people are victims of this massively.

You will want to move away from battles on the basic natural state, in which, cowardice reigns.

Meditation, inner work, undigging pains, cleaning your soul, empowering yourself, all of this resembles war. You will start on a state of war. Discontent, fear, opposition, hate, all of these are going to be at your doorstep when you start this journey.

Heraclitus, an Ancient Greek master philosopher said succinctly: "War is the father of all things". We are in a state of war in this dimension.

The body will react, the mind will react, only the soul will agree with your decisions to begin with. To begin with, it won't be easy to listen to that, and everything else will start popping up to deter you from advancement.

Like a loud sound of a sudden event, you will want to run.

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[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I'm currently in my 20's but have serious problems with actually establishing structure in my life. I'll do good for a bit with something and then completely fall off of the tracks. I'm well aware that this is my responsibility and whining about it isn't going to make things any better but I thought I'd ask to see if anyone has any advice. Its overwhelming at times. I didn't go to school growing up and was ""home schooled"" ( not actually taught anything, just sat around all day ). After awhile the police did end up getting involved and I went through some of highschool online. Managed to graduate but still haven't moved past the brain rot from watching youtube practically constantly between the ages of 6 - 19. Had issues for awhile regarding not actually being taught to take care of myself, lived in filth as a child. My parents were largely absent in my life despite living in the same home. Have largely solved the issues with cleanliness but still struggle with actually doing things consistently. Still have some trouble with excessive use of social media. Causing issues with my life between additional education, job advancement, meditation etc. Mostly consistent with meditations now but still have trouble from time to time. I'm working to deal with these issues but wanted to see if anyone here had any advice.

Thank you. Sorry for using the ask Satan service but I'm quite embarrassed.

Nauthiz is the rune most directly connected to work and discipline, like applying your energies towards what needs to be done. This can be used on an immediate basis, but also as part of a long-term working, such as started on this upcoming Virgo or next month's Capricorn Esbat moon.

Further, Raido and Sowilo can be used to create ambition and motivation beyond what youtube may provide. In these cases, usually these activities are fulfilling a need that you can "mature" past. For example, if you use social media to talk to people, maybe these energies stimulate you to do more than just talk on social media, so you pursue a communications job, or something of that nature.

We use entertainment because it is gratifying to us, but we use it excessively when we may fear or wish to avoid the lack of instant gratification. Just remember that your brain adapts to less gratification. Just ask yourself for 30 minutes of work without social media, then you can build this up to going 4 hours without it, and so on. Your brain's desire to use it will calm down as it is less overly stimulated, then you can use it on actual break periods.

Try to think about why you "fall off the tracks". Is this due to a lack of interest in your other work? Are you subconsciously giving too much "credit" to social media as valuable to you? Sometimes we can redefine our responsibilities and reframe them in ways which are beneficial to us, as like in the previous example where your desire to watch a specific type of content may mature into working in that field, as both are gratification resulting from that type of content, if that makes sense.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Hello

No need to apologize, it is good that you are trying to improve yourself.

In addition to the other advice given, try breathing in Brown energy (a nice rich brown, not bland brown) and affirm that you are gaining structure and grounding in your life. You can combine this with JG Blitzkreig's advice for Nauthiz rune. I've had life-changing success with color energy and affirmations, so I highly recommend it.

You mentioned you have a job, you can try talking to your employer or coworkers about your struggle with maintaining structure and perhaps ask them for tips, like how they manage to keep up with work. Only if you think they will beneficially help you, don't bother asking them if you think they will use it against you.

Good luck