AskSatanOperator
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I started from the first days of July, and until the first of September, these two months were of intense meditations; I meditated a lot every single day.
From September 1st I stopped meditating, due to the fact that I had started working, and due to a health problem in my legs I was no longer able to practice yoga.
Mine was a very intense commitment, with very intense goals and perpetual mental programming; since that first of July I have changed a lot, partially also in the physiognomy of my face.
Since I stopped meditating it's as if I've fallen into a deep sleep, even though a lot has changed drastically, in a positive way, in my identity.
I stopped working for about ten days, and it's as if I'm slowly waking up from my sleep, but I can't meditate in any way
The other day I was desperate, totally desperate, and crying I called Satan, who answered me, inducing my protection meditation, and I managed to visualize the light.
Since then my mental peace has ended, from the next day I started to have a series of disturbing thoughts, justifying the Jews, and I tried to meditate, barely succeeding, with enormous difficulty.
Today since the morning I have been trying to meditate, getting desperate, struggling desperately in my attempts; I try to call Satan, crying in desperation, but he doesn't answer me in any way, he doesn't help me in any way.
This afternoon, out of desperation, I cried and had a terrible reaction, not being able to breathe out of desperation, having to scream to get air into my lungs, it was a moment of absolute desperation.
How can I start meditating again? I don't know what's happening to me.
I feel like I'm writhing naked, in front of an armed army, this was the feeling I had today in my desperation.
I don't know how to get my life back, I don't know why Satan doesn't answer me, I don't know what to do, I don't know what's happening.
I just want to be helped.
From September 1st I stopped meditating, due to the fact that I had started working, and due to a health problem in my legs I was no longer able to practice yoga.
Mine was a very intense commitment, with very intense goals and perpetual mental programming; since that first of July I have changed a lot, partially also in the physiognomy of my face.
Since I stopped meditating it's as if I've fallen into a deep sleep, even though a lot has changed drastically, in a positive way, in my identity.
I stopped working for about ten days, and it's as if I'm slowly waking up from my sleep, but I can't meditate in any way
The other day I was desperate, totally desperate, and crying I called Satan, who answered me, inducing my protection meditation, and I managed to visualize the light.
Since then my mental peace has ended, from the next day I started to have a series of disturbing thoughts, justifying the Jews, and I tried to meditate, barely succeeding, with enormous difficulty.
Today since the morning I have been trying to meditate, getting desperate, struggling desperately in my attempts; I try to call Satan, crying in desperation, but he doesn't answer me in any way, he doesn't help me in any way.
This afternoon, out of desperation, I cried and had a terrible reaction, not being able to breathe out of desperation, having to scream to get air into my lungs, it was a moment of absolute desperation.
How can I start meditating again? I don't know what's happening to me.
I feel like I'm writhing naked, in front of an armed army, this was the feeling I had today in my desperation.
I don't know how to get my life back, I don't know why Satan doesn't answer me, I don't know what to do, I don't know what's happening.
I just want to be helped.