people disgust me...

[666darkness]

thinking back to when i was a child i always experienced how people tried to influence me. words can do so much when you're just an innocent child. born in a system, used and abused... i wasted so much time on nothing in the end. friends came and left and in the end i will remain alone and what will be left are broken memories and i have no choice but to carry on and say life goes on. 21 seems like the golden age for me, the year of enlightenment which is basically the roots of all pain. enlightenment is pain and from the ashes that are left i will be reborn but i will be a better version of myself...

it is still ironic though looking back at it all... i wanna save the world but at the same time i feel like i wanna just burn it down... who am i to care for the world and for humans when humans are the shadiest beings walking around on earth. why would anyone wanna save a bunch of people who only care for themselves and who use others to get stronger or drain their energy and attention just because they themselves are so miserable. ancient egypt...gone... the most beautiful thing ive ever read about and i wish i could experience it all but its gone. i didnt have the chance to experience it. those humans destroyed everything magical about this wonderful planet, they destroy day for day huge forests and cut them off just to make money. treat animals like trash and put them in zoo's so everybody can watch them... everybody cares for material things.. for money and attention that's all that matters to humans. i am so disgusted to be on this earth and it feels like im going against it all alone.

when i get lost in my anger... and just insult somebody i feel so bad about myself and it feels like i completely destroyed my karma... it feels like im gonna go to hell. but those humans that kill babies for evil rituals or kill thousands of animals, cut off millions of trees... they dont feel bad but they feel very good once they get tons of money... why is this life so absolutely disgusting??? i just dont understand it. it never changed. the good people suffer and the bad people feel pleasure. somehow i feel like im the only one that feels regret after they have done a bad thing - everybody else around me seems like they dont care at all. when i do something bad im gonna feel like trash for days... but others constantly can do something bad without feeling bad. it doesnt matter if they are so low that they dont even have those feelings that they are just empty...they can still do those things without inner regret...that is what makes me so angry. this life is so ironic and disgusting. not that i wanna do something bad but im not perfect... im not a robot... so yeah.

maybe... it is the evil work of whoever... government... jews... or maybe its all just a huge coincidence and humans got lost in greed, they are blinded by technology and seem to be empty beings controlled by their instincts and those instincts get attacked by technology. its obviously wise when you know your dose of everything and that you make sure you are the one who is truly controlling technology which means to be independent.

i dont even care who it is... i just dont wanna be in this world anymore... i am not gonna give this world any power over me anymore and im gonna look down at it from now. im gonna be careful with new people i meet and im gonna invest my time now more meaningful. i dont want anyone to drain my energy, my time and harm me. not the government news... no nothing. i dont care anymore. kill the world infront of my eyes and im only gonna care about myself because one human...it feels hard to believe one human can do something but i just dont wanna say that one human cant do something but i also dont wanna say that one human can do something...

i guess im gonna suffer more because i carry a lot of responsibility. i have to improve as a human and for my soul and the pain will always guide me... till the very end...

 

[FuckYu_666]

thinking back to when i was a child i always experienced how people tried to influence me. words can do so much when you're just an innocent child. born in a system, used and abused... i wasted so much time on nothing in the end. friends came and left and in the end i will remain alone and what will be left are broken memories and i have no choice but to carry on and say life goes on. 21 seems like the golden age for me, the year of enlightenment which is basically the roots of all pain. enlightenment is pain and from the ashes that are left i will be reborn but i will be a better version of myself...

it is still ironic though looking back at it all... i wanna save the world but at the same time i feel like i wanna just burn it down... who am i to care for the world and for humans when humans are the shadiest beings walking around on earth. why would anyone wanna save a bunch of people who only care for themselves and who use others to get stronger or drain their energy and attention just because they themselves are so miserable. ancient egypt...gone... the most beautiful thing ive ever read about and i wish i could experience it all but its gone. i didnt have the chance to experience it. those humans destroyed everything magical about this wonderful planet, they destroy day for day huge forests and cut them off just to make money. treat animals like trash and put them in zoo's so everybody can watch them... everybody cares for material things.. for money and attention that's all that matters to humans. i am so disgusted to be on this earth and it feels like im going against it all alone.

when i get lost in my anger... and just insult somebody i feel so bad about myself and it feels like i completely destroyed my karma... it feels like im gonna go to hell. but those humans that kill babies for evil rituals or kill thousands of animals, cut off millions of trees... they dont feel bad but they feel very good once they get tons of money... why is this life so absolutely disgusting??? i just dont understand it. it never changed. the good people suffer and the bad people feel pleasure. somehow i feel like im the only one that feels regret after they have done a bad thing - everybody else around me seems like they dont care at all. when i do something bad im gonna feel like trash for days... but others constantly can do something bad without feeling bad. it doesnt matter if they are so low that they dont even have those feelings that they are just empty...they can still do those things without inner regret...that is what makes me so angry. this life is so ironic and disgusting. not that i wanna do something bad but im not perfect... im not a robot... so yeah.

maybe... it is the evil work of whoever... government... jews... or maybe its all just a huge coincidence and humans got lost in greed, they are blinded by technology and seem to be empty beings controlled by their instincts and those instincts get attacked by technology. its obviously wise when you know your dose of everything and that you make sure you are the one who is truly controlling technology which means to be independent.

i dont even care who it is... i just dont wanna be in this world anymore... i am not gonna give this world any power over me anymore and im gonna look down at it from now. im gonna be careful with new people i meet and im gonna invest my time now more meaningful. i dont want anyone to drain my energy, my time and harm me. not the government news... no nothing. i dont care anymore. kill the world infront of my eyes and im only gonna care about myself because one human...it feels hard to believe one human can do something but i just dont wanna say that one human cant do something but i also dont wanna say that one human can do something...

i guess im gonna suffer more because i carry a lot of responsibility. i have to improve as a human and for my soul and the pain will always guide me... till the very end...

Remember whose fault it is, and remember that you are fighting for this world. If the gods had surrendered, we would all be borg or dead (non-existence) by now.
You must continue to fight until the world is free.

There's no reason to feel bad, if it makes you feel better it's only fair, some people really do deserve a big fuck off, but after that you have to think about something else and concentrate on more important things.

 

[Sunny]

Get help, discreetly tell us your problems and obstacles and we will try to help you. How is your life going?

 

[666darkness]

this year has been bad for me healthwise. first i got infected with the corona virus and after when i thought everything was okay and vaporized cannabis i just felt down whenever i consumed it and before the virus this never happened to me. like straight up down, breathing problems and more. i stopped now for 2 months and i feel better but this "down" i had from cannabis actually developed into something serious "permanent" where my blood pressure gets really up easily and i feel slightly dizzy and just bad. the doctor said it could be WPW syndrome or something similar to that but its not that serious. its not even clear if i truly have it. the cardiologist will tell me soon i guess im optimistic about this and i think im gonna fix this soon. its all mental really, when im calm it doesnt really bother me. this even teached me to be calm because its never good to be angry in the first place. the problem is i get angry really easily and disrespect is felt so fast and it really gets to me when i see disrespect happening to me. when i insult somebody i feel bad for the whole day or 2... so im kinda trying atm to not insult anyone and im on my way trying to find inner peace but its very hard for me because of the outside world.. the world makes it so hard for me but im trying my best. when im alone in the forest that is the best time for me to truly meditate. but back to the cannabis thing... i hope someday that i can do it again because i love the idea of vaporizing a plant it feels so shamanic and magical.

but for a while im not gonna consider it. the good thing is im not really dependent on the plant like i said i only consume it because its beautiful. but i got enough wisdom transfered to my brain anyway. so its kinda pointless consuming it. it just makes me down for some reason maybe it has nothing to do with the virus i had and the long term effect it might have on my heart. im not really sure.

i just hate my anger and myself sometimes... i took so many L´s in my lifetime and sometimes it feels like its never ending. i decided myself for the path of solitary which basically means to avoid humans and human influence or atleast bad human influence which is unfortunately common. i decided myself recently to communicate more with forest spirits, astral spirits in void meditation and so on. they love giving me wisdoms or maybe i just turn experience into wisdom really fast.

sometimes my days feel like they pass by so fast and some days feel so lifeless and empty. im trying to work on that to spend my time valuable. looking back at my past a huge part of it really makes me feel depressed. there is a lot of regret, things i could have done better, time i could have spent better... but i cant cry about it anymore and i have to carry on and be now my greatest version.

it feels like this poor world is dying though. the technology improves but the humans underdevelop. most humans live so lifeless and so normal and boring and typical... every day they spend on work, friends, sleeping... exactly the opposite of what they should do or atleast should consider doing or atleast sometimes. most people dont even know themselves quite well, why they are here, what they need to do... to break out of the human cycle which is made by the system to enslave them. this is known but the problem still exists and it still has not been solved yet.

im one human against the whole world and it feels painful being all this alone but then again buddhas words really motivated me in my weak times. he made me feel good about what i do and that im most of the time alone, he made me feel good about the fact i love going to the forest... when i look at other humans they just disgust me...

a girl once said im weird when i asked if she wants to go to the forest together and look at the beautiful trees and plants and that wasnt just it... she made a joke saying if i wanna murder her there... and it was just a joke but i kinda felt a thought of seriousness there which really broke my heart back then... i experienced so much more but i dont wanna text about it.

i just prefer being alone on this world and it kinda feels like my life is forming me towards it so there is no possible way for me to dodge it anyway. it feels like spirits protect me and take away people from me or maybe its just all me but it feels like im being protected so i can form myself into the greatest version. it feels like this universe is forcefully forming me and the pain i have is my biggest friend which is guiding me through this life and is there when i feel bad.

i dont know where my life is leading me and im anonymous here as well which is the only reason i even type this, i wouldnt wanna show my face here or my identity. im working on getting more control on my thoughts in my brain and more power and motivation... that is what i really need at the moment. thanks for asking btw. take care

 

[Aquarius]

this year has been bad for me healthwise. first i got infected with the corona virus and after when i thought everything was okay and vaporized cannabis i just felt down whenever i consumed it and before the virus this never happened to me. like straight up down, breathing problems and more. i stopped now for 2 months and i feel better but this "down" i had from cannabis actually developed into something serious "permanent" where my blood pressure gets really up easily and i feel slightly dizzy and just bad. the doctor said it could be WPW syndrome or something similar to that but its not that serious. its not even clear if i truly have it. the cardiologist will tell me soon i guess im optimistic about this and i think im gonna fix this soon. its all mental really, when im calm it doesnt really bother me. this even teached me to be calm because its never good to be angry in the first place. the problem is i get angry really easily and disrespect is felt so fast and it really gets to me when i see disrespect happening to me. when i insult somebody i feel bad for the whole day or 2... so im kinda trying atm to not insult anyone and im on my way trying to find inner peace but its very hard for me because of the outside world.. the world makes it so hard for me but im trying my best. when im alone in the forest that is the best time for me to truly meditate. but back to the cannabis thing... i hope someday that i can do it again because i love the idea of vaporizing a plant it feels so shamanic and magical.

but for a while im not gonna consider it. the good thing is im not really dependent on the plant like i said i only consume it because its beautiful. but i got enough wisdom transfered to my brain anyway. so its kinda pointless consuming it. it just makes me down for some reason maybe it has nothing to do with the virus i had and the long term effect it might have on my heart. im not really sure.

i just hate my anger and myself sometimes... i took so many L´s in my lifetime and sometimes it feels like its never ending. i decided myself for the path of solitary which basically means to avoid humans and human influence or atleast bad human influence which is unfortunately common. i decided myself recently to communicate more with forest spirits, astral spirits in void meditation and so on. they love giving me wisdoms or maybe i just turn experience into wisdom really fast.

sometimes my days feel like they pass by so fast and some days feel so lifeless and empty. im trying to work on that to spend my time valuable. looking back at my past a huge part of it really makes me feel depressed. there is a lot of regret, things i could have done better, time i could have spent better... but i cant cry about it anymore and i have to carry on and be now my greatest version.

it feels like this poor world is dying though. the technology improves but the humans underdevelop. most humans live so lifeless and so normal and boring and typical... every day they spend on work, friends, sleeping... exactly the opposite of what they should do or atleast should consider doing or atleast sometimes. most people dont even know themselves quite well, why they are here, what they need to do... to break out of the human cycle which is made by the system to enslave them. this is known but the problem still exists and it still has not been solved yet.

im one human against the whole world and it feels painful being all this alone but then again buddhas words really motivated me in my weak times. he made me feel good about what i do and that im most of the time alone, he made me feel good about the fact i love going to the forest... when i look at other humans they just disgust me...

a girl once said im weird when i asked if she wants to go to the forest together and look at the beautiful trees and plants and that wasnt just it... she made a joke saying if i wanna murder her there... and it was just a joke but i kinda felt a thought of seriousness there which really broke my heart back then... i experienced so much more but i dont wanna text about it.

i just prefer being alone on this world and it kinda feels like my life is forming me towards it so there is no possible way for me to dodge it anyway. it feels like spirits protect me and take away people from me or maybe its just all me but it feels like im being protected so i can form myself into the greatest version. it feels like this universe is forcefully forming me and the pain i have is my biggest friend which is guiding me through this life and is there when i feel bad.

i dont know where my life is leading me and im anonymous here as well which is the only reason i even type this, i wouldnt wanna show my face here or my identity. im working on getting more control on my thoughts in my brain and more power and motivation... that is what i really need at the moment. thanks for asking btw. take care

Marijuana is a disgusting drug that fucks with your head. The fact that it now makes you feel bad is a blessing. Don't use that shit again, it fucks your head.

 

[666darkness]

you are right. right now is the best time to be independent which means also to let go weed. i stopped anyway since 2-3 months and its probably gonna stay like that, its better that way. im just really interested in plants... maybe i can find an alternative. when i go to the forest and smell tree sap it makes me feel really good. fresh tree sap is really great.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

thinking back to when i was a child i always experienced how people tried to influence me. words can do so much when you're just an innocent child. born in a system, used and abused... i wasted so much time on nothing in the end. friends came and left and in the end i will remain alone and what will be left are broken memories and i have no choice but to carry on and say life goes on. 21 seems like the golden age for me, the year of enlightenment which is basically the roots of all pain. enlightenment is pain and from the ashes that are left i will be reborn but i will be a better version of myself...

it is still ironic though looking back at it all... i wanna save the world but at the same time i feel like i wanna just burn it down... who am i to care for the world and for humans when humans are the shadiest beings walking around on earth. why would anyone wanna save a bunch of people who only care for themselves and who use others to get stronger or drain their energy and attention just because they themselves are so miserable. ancient egypt...gone... the most beautiful thing ive ever read about and i wish i could experience it all but its gone. i didnt have the chance to experience it. those humans destroyed everything magical about this wonderful planet, they destroy day for day huge forests and cut them off just to make money. treat animals like trash and put them in zoo's so everybody can watch them... everybody cares for material things.. for money and attention that's all that matters to humans. i am so disgusted to be on this earth and it feels like im going against it all alone.

when i get lost in my anger... and just insult somebody i feel so bad about myself and it feels like i completely destroyed my karma... it feels like im gonna go to hell. but those humans that kill babies for evil rituals or kill thousands of animals, cut off millions of trees... they dont feel bad but they feel very good once they get tons of money... why is this life so absolutely disgusting??? i just dont understand it. it never changed. the good people suffer and the bad people feel pleasure. somehow i feel like im the only one that feels regret after they have done a bad thing - everybody else around me seems like they dont care at all. when i do something bad im gonna feel like trash for days... but others constantly can do something bad without feeling bad. it doesnt matter if they are so low that they dont even have those feelings that they are just empty...they can still do those things without inner regret...that is what makes me so angry. this life is so ironic and disgusting. not that i wanna do something bad but im not perfect... im not a robot... so yeah.

maybe... it is the evil work of whoever... government... jews... or maybe its all just a huge coincidence and humans got lost in greed, they are blinded by technology and seem to be empty beings controlled by their instincts and those instincts get attacked by technology. its obviously wise when you know your dose of everything and that you make sure you are the one who is truly controlling technology which means to be independent.

i dont even care who it is... i just dont wanna be in this world anymore... i am not gonna give this world any power over me anymore and im gonna look down at it from now. im gonna be careful with new people i meet and im gonna invest my time now more meaningful. i dont want anyone to drain my energy, my time and harm me. not the government news... no nothing. i dont care anymore. kill the world infront of my eyes and im only gonna care about myself because one human...it feels hard to believe one human can do something but i just dont wanna say that one human cant do something but i also dont wanna say that one human can do something...

i guess im gonna suffer more because i carry a lot of responsibility. i have to improve as a human and for my soul and the pain will always guide me... till the very end...

i feel you this planet is very corrupted and most humans fucking suck and shouldn't call themselves human but SUBHUMAN or goyim and that includes the rat species that started this the jews who stole the name from the yews as i read in another thread oh well . well the best we can do is the RTRs and self-improve but i personally don't know if i'll be able to have a career or a job come soon cause i live in the united states and the vaccine mandates are coming soon and my mom tryed to persuade me today to take it if i want my job and to travel and all cause my dad took it cause his company forced him to or else he would be fired but i'm going to try and delay this as much as possible my mom said she would take it soon cause travel reasons and all my family doesn't really see the world changes happening and tell me oh this has been happening for decades it the excuse and the friend i hung out with today also said he already took the vaccine so i'm worried something horrible will happen to them in the future.

my life is already bad enough with all the problems i explained but how am i supposed to be independent and get a career or joe "child molesting" bidumb is gonna make it worse should i just try to learn visualization as much as possible instead of visualizing for what seems to be a few seconds and just offically become a Spiritual Satanist especially cause my astrology chart says i'm gifted in witchcraft cause i see no other way out if i'm to be alive by 2024/2025 to see all hell break loose.