Hello Joy of satan everyone
I've been an inner problem for 6months (Christian programmes, obsessive compulsive disorder, panic disorder (my guess. I've never been diagnosed in a psychiatric hospital, but after taking benzodiazepines-based medicine, the symptoms improved.)).
It led to an obsessive-compulsive accident, which had terrible consequences in my life. I had to waste six months.
In the meantime, my life has been terrible, severely restricted me, and made only terrible memories.
I believed in Christianity three years ago, six months ago. on the day I believed in Christianity, someone in my class fainted with an epileptic seizure
His eyes were turned upside down, and his breathing was snoring.
of all occasion, he had the same surname as me and at that time, I was so traumatized.
six months ago, before I believed in Christianity, I had symptoms that I thought were panic disorder, and the reason I believed in Christianity was to treat these symptoms of panic disorder symptoms.
I don't know why I didn't get psychotherapy at this time. I wrote a lot about obsessive compulsive thinking on the joy of satan forum, which was based on my trauma. Christianity left me with such a big trauma.
And I've been doing the dedication ritual for about three months, During the dedication ritual, while reading the prayer, a cat and a dog around my home cried and barked. Does this mean that the dedication ritual went well? Anyway, I was really terrible. So I'm going to do power meditation to end this terrible negative cycle. But there's something that bothers me. I cursed Satan at home three years ago. I was looking at his picture at home and cursed at him, saying, "This bastard lucifer?" After that, I felt afraid.
I even drew Azazel's sigil, and soon thought it was useless, so I crumpled it up and threw it away. Will they understand these actions? I'm leaving joy of satan if these actions can't be understood.
What do you think?
I can be understand?
I've been an inner problem for 6months (Christian programmes, obsessive compulsive disorder, panic disorder (my guess. I've never been diagnosed in a psychiatric hospital, but after taking benzodiazepines-based medicine, the symptoms improved.)).
It led to an obsessive-compulsive accident, which had terrible consequences in my life. I had to waste six months.
In the meantime, my life has been terrible, severely restricted me, and made only terrible memories.
I believed in Christianity three years ago, six months ago. on the day I believed in Christianity, someone in my class fainted with an epileptic seizure
His eyes were turned upside down, and his breathing was snoring.
of all occasion, he had the same surname as me and at that time, I was so traumatized.
six months ago, before I believed in Christianity, I had symptoms that I thought were panic disorder, and the reason I believed in Christianity was to treat these symptoms of panic disorder symptoms.
I don't know why I didn't get psychotherapy at this time. I wrote a lot about obsessive compulsive thinking on the joy of satan forum, which was based on my trauma. Christianity left me with such a big trauma.
And I've been doing the dedication ritual for about three months, During the dedication ritual, while reading the prayer, a cat and a dog around my home cried and barked. Does this mean that the dedication ritual went well? Anyway, I was really terrible. So I'm going to do power meditation to end this terrible negative cycle. But there's something that bothers me. I cursed Satan at home three years ago. I was looking at his picture at home and cursed at him, saying, "This bastard lucifer?" After that, I felt afraid.
I even drew Azazel's sigil, and soon thought it was useless, so I crumpled it up and threw it away. Will they understand these actions? I'm leaving joy of satan if these actions can't be understood.
What do you think?
I can be understand?
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