Rebellious Mercury
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Am from the eastern part of Africa, After finishing my junior high my dad forced me to continue with science subjects at senior level (Physics Chemistry Biology and Mathematics) which I really wasn't good at, infact I was below average but because I was still young by then only 16 I accepted just to impress him and also try to prove my masculinity
I struggled alot and passed just by chance but I failed math and Physics but then regardless I got admitted into University for Medical lab and technology, tried my level best but things just weren't working out for me and as result of depression I began drinking and smoking weed to ease the anxiety but I failed, I also had a failed romance with a certain girl I loved so much but she didn't want me which made my depression even deeper so I decided to quit but my my parents didn't take it well especially my Father, in that very year 2016 was when I also came across the JOS, I read everything in it and it really opened my eyes infact after that I managed to forgive my self and my father too because I learnt that whatever he did he did it because he was unconscious and he is still unconscious up to now
After sometime I decided to take up an Arts Course In a different University to study Tourism and Hotel Management but on reaching there I met disaster, I met people who were telling me that they knew me and yet I didn't know them, I was really confused I just couldn't figure out how these people found out that I had dedicated my life to Satan, due to insecurity and paranoia I continued to drink and smoke to ease the anxiety, I was later on reported to heads of Campus and I was taken to a psychiatric hospital, on reaching there I was injected with drugs and woke up late in the night in a room with the worst patients (the dead ones), it was very terrifying, it was done on purpose to humiliate and Ashame me because there were so many guys especially boys who were going out to drink and smoke but I was the only one taken to the psychiatric hospital
After three days I managed to escape and I went to the village to my grandparents who were also not pleased to see me, after sometime my grandfather reported me to the police station and I was arrested and later on convicted for possession of marijuana, I served eight months and I was later on released but had nowhere to go and I was homeless for almost a year
After sometime my father decided to take me in but our relationship isn't that well, what hurts me the most is that he has never accepted that he was also partly to blame for my indulgence in drugs and alcohol which I got into with the aim of trying to ease my depression but failed, any one who took up science subjects at senior level and was average knows what someone who was below average like me must have really gone through psychologically(Total loss of power) he still thinks that if I hadn't gotten into drugs and alcohol I would have completed my course. I've always wanted to help people but I will have to do it in a different way, fields like psychiatry and Neuroscience suit me very well compared to Medicine and Surgery which my father has always wanted me to take up, I find them to be too mechanical and am not a mechanical person by nature, infact I don't remember in my life to have ever repaired anything of any sort
I struggled alot and passed just by chance but I failed math and Physics but then regardless I got admitted into University for Medical lab and technology, tried my level best but things just weren't working out for me and as result of depression I began drinking and smoking weed to ease the anxiety but I failed, I also had a failed romance with a certain girl I loved so much but she didn't want me which made my depression even deeper so I decided to quit but my my parents didn't take it well especially my Father, in that very year 2016 was when I also came across the JOS, I read everything in it and it really opened my eyes infact after that I managed to forgive my self and my father too because I learnt that whatever he did he did it because he was unconscious and he is still unconscious up to now
After sometime I decided to take up an Arts Course In a different University to study Tourism and Hotel Management but on reaching there I met disaster, I met people who were telling me that they knew me and yet I didn't know them, I was really confused I just couldn't figure out how these people found out that I had dedicated my life to Satan, due to insecurity and paranoia I continued to drink and smoke to ease the anxiety, I was later on reported to heads of Campus and I was taken to a psychiatric hospital, on reaching there I was injected with drugs and woke up late in the night in a room with the worst patients (the dead ones), it was very terrifying, it was done on purpose to humiliate and Ashame me because there were so many guys especially boys who were going out to drink and smoke but I was the only one taken to the psychiatric hospital
After three days I managed to escape and I went to the village to my grandparents who were also not pleased to see me, after sometime my grandfather reported me to the police station and I was arrested and later on convicted for possession of marijuana, I served eight months and I was later on released but had nowhere to go and I was homeless for almost a year
After sometime my father decided to take me in but our relationship isn't that well, what hurts me the most is that he has never accepted that he was also partly to blame for my indulgence in drugs and alcohol which I got into with the aim of trying to ease my depression but failed, any one who took up science subjects at senior level and was average knows what someone who was below average like me must have really gone through psychologically(Total loss of power) he still thinks that if I hadn't gotten into drugs and alcohol I would have completed my course. I've always wanted to help people but I will have to do it in a different way, fields like psychiatry and Neuroscience suit me very well compared to Medicine and Surgery which my father has always wanted me to take up, I find them to be too mechanical and am not a mechanical person by nature, infact I don't remember in my life to have ever repaired anything of any sort
