I was wrong many times. Help.

[AokiJ]

I've been "being" a Satanist for about 3 years, and in all that time, I had a lot of mental breakdown, I honestly believe that my private life was also to blame, since I have been in recent years everything has been a disaster.

I was wrong many times, I did many things wrong, I walked away from satanism and the gods several times, I abandoned my beliefs several times, but I always end up coming back, and when I go back, I feel so bad, and ashamed in the eyes of the gods and Satan, what can I do to be forgiven?
Why after so many lows I keep coming back?
How do I know if they are angry?

Please help me.

Thanks..

 

[Shael]

I've been "being" a Satanist for about 3 years, and in all that time, I had a lot of mental breakdown, I honestly believe that my private life was also to blame, since I have been in recent years everything has been a disaster.

I was wrong many times, I did many things wrong, I walked away from satanism and the gods several times, I abandoned my beliefs several times, but I always end up coming back, and when I go back, I feel so bad, and ashamed in the eyes of the gods and Satan, what can I do to be forgiven?
Why after so many lows I keep coming back?
How do I know if they are angry?

Please help me.

Thanks..

The general rule is that the Gods can already tell way in advance who is likely to have issues and problems and in what ways these will manifest. Basically, beings as advanced as the Gods arent gonna get angry at you for some random failures and for making mistakes, and there is no need to be "forgiven" for anything in the first place. Just try to be disciplined with yourself and advance, that's it.

If you keep failing then this is likely because you're trying to do way too much all at once, and burning yourself out. Start slow with a schedule you can do comfortably in terms of time and effort, and increase things slowly from there.

 

[NicciLove]

Hi, i use to and recently struggled with these issues too. I kept being a fool and a cycle of me losing myself in satanism for over 5 years. You are the only one who can forgive yourself, make the punishment as limited as you wish. I believe you kept coming back is the same reason as me, we have a strength on the inside that is just enough to cling on to the littlest bit of hope and drag us along until we can finaly find more balance. I know my way of thinking will not help everyone but i really hope you can find a sense of pride, responsability, and find some great freinds who can help you out with any mental problems you have. Take control of your life and push on like you would never believe you could. Love you freind, and good luck.