I keep trying to work with Gods but fail??

[Nyan]

Every time I try telepathically communicate with a God I get an answer back but it's like the opposite of what I want to hear or need in my life, don't get me wrong I do respect every God for what good they have done, I'm just saying it seems like the Gods don't "favour" me at all. I'm picking up the hint that they'd just prefer I do the basic Reverse Torah Rituals and then do magic on my own. They don't seem to want to establish a relationship with me in any way, not a friendly relationship, an allied relationship or anything else. I've tried to work with the Gods and I've failed. It's probably my fault they haven't worked with me, so should I just continue my Reverse Torah Rituals and Power Meditations and Witchcraft etc. So I'd basically do everything a Satanist does besides be a friend of the Gods, I'm pretty sure Satanism is built on having a good relationship with Satan but you know. I know how self-pitying I sound but this has been on my chest a while.

Also I'm going to write on how I might have messed up my chances with having a relationship with Satan and the other Gods.

• I haven't performed a dedication ritual, I don't feel like the gods want me to.

• I haven't been fully cleaning my energies in a while.

• I mostly tried to work with just four or something gods.

• I lack a lot of Satanic qualities, and just decent qualities in general, for the last while I've been addicted to gaming, and just other types of lazy activity, I have a low sense of confidence at times and sometimes I feel like crap.

• Sometimes I've felt angry with the Gods, like I was blaming them for my problems.

Just as a disclaimer I am aware of astral deception and the Greys etc. But it's not like I still haven't heard the gods after all this time. I really doubt that. So anyways thanks in advance for the tips and guidance.
Hail Satan!

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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Hail Satan!

This is entirely self-inflicted and likely amplified by the enemy. Doing RTR's without the ritual, and without cleaning (and I assume little protection as well), is a great way to open yourself for enemy attack or other negative influence. That is why you "feel" this way.

All SS have problems when they first come to Satan. The majority of the world is addicted to digital activities. This can all be taken care of in time, but you first have to set yourself on this path. As it currently stands, you are on a crossroads of either detaching from the Gods, not cleaning, and getting worse, or you can do the ritual and slowly build yourself up through positive actions.

You said you already try to advance and do spiritual warfare, so how could the Gods dislike you? You are already trying to uphold your end of the bargain, which is the basis for the dedication ritual. As for a video game addiction, you have to realize that these games are literal crack which are easy to binge. You have to use software blockers and detox from them, otherwise they abuse your brain as designed. That does not mean you can never play, but it should be very regulated.

As for what you can do right now: Clean yourself well, then do the dedication ritual, as this is only the start of a relationship. It does not mean you are given luxuries for doing nothing, or whatever imbalanced thing you are envisioning.

Also understand that our path involves patience and consistent effort. Hanging yourself due to otherwise minor problems is self-destructive and unrealistic. This is especially true when you already have potential in regards to wanting to advance and do work for the Gods.

Instead of trusting your astral communication here, it is better if you meditate on the sigil of the Gods. Draw energy from the sigil into your heart chakra and this will make you feel much better about them. It should go without saying to not do this to any sigil or entity which is not Satanic.

 

[Henu the Great]

You shouldn't even be doing spiritual warfare before the dedication ritual, at least not in any lengthy time period anyway. Not to mention doing it without taking care of basics such as cleaning and protection meditations. That is the complete opposite of the correct and safe way of advancing on this path.

Beginners should take care of a stable routine that includes cleaning, protection, void meditation (mind-control learning of any sort), yoga, breathing exercises, and basic meditation practices such as visualization and chakra meditation. Once you have set your foot permanently on this path it makes sense to 'upgrade' your status to that of a spiritual warrior. All of this is a logical conclusion after the dedication ritual because it is a formal ritual of 'signing yourself up' for a lifelong spiritual commitment to which you get a definitive answer back as being taken seriously. If you can not perform the dedication ritual even in an astral temple, why would you be taken seriously? It is obvious that you are not either serious enough, you are not ready yet, or just plain confused and lacking in knowledge. All of these can change, by the way.

You mentioned feeling like crap and lacking in confidence. This can be taken care of with cleaning meditation and empowering attributes you are lacking, not with spiritual warfare rituals without other necessary auxiliary activities. And also by taking care that what you eat is what you need instead of what you want and regularly exercising.