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I grew up in a very Christian environment I had to go to church at least three times a week forced in to one activity after another I hated all of it but as a child i went along with it and used it as an opportunity to socialize and nothing else.as an adult I tried to go to church just speaking my mothers approval ( I rebelled a lot and did the opposite of anything she wanted) but I could never stick with it never getting anything out of it always had more questions than answers, feeling guilty for not wanting to let go of all the good things in life just to go to so called heaven it maddened me that I had to lose all that I was and give up any kind of possessions just so I could so called have more when I died. It never made much sense.
The end of 2016 into the beginning of 2017 somethings started occurring in my life that were very intense and not welcomed it got to the point I started thinking I was losing my mind so me and my husband went to my parents who btw a pastor's to help with this problem and knowing there beliefs i thought we had to give it a try. So when we talked to them all they had to ask was I on drugs or going through a mental break down I knew then nothing was going to come of it. So they did the pastor thing and prayed and all the vs that comes with it. Of course nothing came of it and life was becoming quite difficult so my husband and I stepped away from the fact ass religion and started to study anton Levay's satanic bible my husband was all for it but this still disnt seem right to me I read the whole book and felt nothing but disappointment so I went online and started my own research trying to find other kinds of satanism i found many but none ever hit the mark i continued to search and "stumbled" upon JOS and from the begging of me reading I felt awakened excited like I found my home. I read and read i read everyday for hours a day the excitement and home feeling only grew. It did not take me long to know this was it that this was home I dedicated september of 2017 and I am so glad that i did every day since then has been amazing yes i struggle from time to time but this is the best decision of my life I thank father Satan daily for opening my eyes. I will never go back the only option is forward.
Hail Father Satan
The end of 2016 into the beginning of 2017 somethings started occurring in my life that were very intense and not welcomed it got to the point I started thinking I was losing my mind so me and my husband went to my parents who btw a pastor's to help with this problem and knowing there beliefs i thought we had to give it a try. So when we talked to them all they had to ask was I on drugs or going through a mental break down I knew then nothing was going to come of it. So they did the pastor thing and prayed and all the vs that comes with it. Of course nothing came of it and life was becoming quite difficult so my husband and I stepped away from the fact ass religion and started to study anton Levay's satanic bible my husband was all for it but this still disnt seem right to me I read the whole book and felt nothing but disappointment so I went online and started my own research trying to find other kinds of satanism i found many but none ever hit the mark i continued to search and "stumbled" upon JOS and from the begging of me reading I felt awakened excited like I found my home. I read and read i read everyday for hours a day the excitement and home feeling only grew. It did not take me long to know this was it that this was home I dedicated september of 2017 and I am so glad that i did every day since then has been amazing yes i struggle from time to time but this is the best decision of my life I thank father Satan daily for opening my eyes. I will never go back the only option is forward.
Hail Father Satan