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Aquarius

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Meteor said:

Anyone who has karma pertaining to their emotions, leading to subsequent compensations, can relate. It is just that the compensations your karma makes you tend towards are so controversial, that you are catching hate for it.

But if you are turning inwards for your solution, I think you are on the right path, as this is where the solution has always lied. If I have a sore tooth, this may lead me to yell at someone, in an attempt to vent my pain, but this was never the solution to my problem.

What I described here, and what you describe for yourself, is why it is important that we support SS as they deal with their problems. This is also why the Gods can be so patient and loving because people need communal support through their trials.

It is not your fault that you had to gain such negative karma. For every lifetime that that karma repeated and strengthened, you never had the tools to deal with it. Things are different now, and now we have to deal with the problems our souls have accumulated.

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However, you are supported by the Gods, and supported by your fiance, who both love you now just as they will love you later. And in return, you can take the safety they provide as an opportunity to deal with such trauma, knowing that nothing truly bad will manifest, especially if proper precautions are taken (see my other reply).

Taking things 1 step at a time is how you can solve this without being overwhelmed. Furthermore, asking the Gods for guidance, and letting your fiance know what you want to accomplish and need help with, will ensure your success.

Your karma has forced onto you immense transformative power, but you have to be able to apply this correctly. If you do so, you will move past this, as well as any other obstacles you may face. I believe you are capable of doing so; it seemed like you needed time to really process the situation, but you are moving forward even now.
 
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.
 
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.
Well even Maxine said that Satanism attracts freaks.
 
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.

Because there is lots of people like this on New age forums, and then they are coming here thinking satanism is something similar. It's unavoidible on the internets, unfortunatly.
 
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.
Satanism is about freedom and being oneself, compared with practically everything else these days.
 
Jack said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.

It is part of all of the same curses and slander as the dumb horror movies, which they lie and try to associate it with Satanism.

All of the most negative and degenerate damaged people, it is common for them to try to associate with the horror movie fake Satanism, then they end up finding their way here. Drug addicts, self-mutilators, self-haters, schizophrenic and bipolar, and every level of qlippothic freak. Most of them do not stay here for long when they see that all of us do not fit their insanity. An extremely small number of them actually use our knowledge to improve themselves, improve their lives, and actually remove all of their problems and become good healthy people. And probably a medium number of them become the infiltrators and trolls, they stay here for a long time promoting their insanity and trying to force all kinds of innocent people into having the same kind of insane and damaged soul as themself. Promoting self-mutilation in every form, drug use, and all kinds of insanity, and the worst part is specifically trying to promote it to children. Making new accounts every time they get banned for being a rat, because they just can't go away. Whitecloud and Fanboy are perfect examples of this.


There is no limit to how highly a person can improve and advance themself. The amount of possible change is really infinite, and any problem in the world can be fixed if the person consistently works toward fixing it.

But it works in all kinds of directions, and there is also no limit to how deeply a person can destroy and ruin themself by negative mental habits. The most highly advanced people usually want to share this and help as many people as possible. And also the most deeply ruined and destroyed souls also usually want to share this and destroy as many other people as possible.

While they are destroying people, they often do not realize or do not care that this is what they are doing because of also having extreme narcissism. Because of the narcissism, trait of being a soul parasite, and loneliness, they ruin these other people to both steal and parasitize their soul energy, but also more importantly to have more people be as equally destroyed and ruined as themself so that they will not feel so isolated or alone. It would be the most loneliest feeling in the world if you are the only person who is so absolutely ruined while you see everybody else being perfectly happy and comfortable. But you are not alone if everybody is equally destroyed. Basically just the direct pattern of jewish mindset.

The only way to fix this kind of situation and prevent other people from being harmed is to have it so communication is only able to go in one direction. Allow the sick person to receive and take in as much help, education, instruction, and good advice as possible. With all of this, if the person actually has any intention of improving themself and removing their problems, they already have all required information to have full ability and full oportunity to heal themself and remove all problems. There should not be any helpful information that is withheld from anybody.

But if the damaged and toxic soul only has the intention of spreading this and harming other people, there will be no communication in this direction and it will not be possible. I do not care what the intention is, whether the harming other people is purposeful or accidental. Either way, no other person should be exposed to such damaging influence. This is a place for nurturing and growing people to be strong and healthy, this place is absolutely not a garbage pit the way some people try to turn it into. And nobody's insanity and nobody's damaged soul should ever have any negative influence or harm against anybody else.
 
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.

I do. When I first dedicated i actually also exposed some nutty jews that thought they were animals in humans bodies AND transgender. These types of people often misinterpret the "freedom to be yourself" in satanism as "i can be whoever i feel or want to be because Satan will accept me no matter what because there is no sin satanism" This is the exact gross misinterpretation that attracts a lot of people who are mentally ill or even people who try to justify reverse xtian shit, or other very unsatanic things, when they dont actually understand that the "freedom to be yourself and follow your nature" means actually realizing and coming in touch with the natural aspects and functions of the human soul and how it was really meant to evolve, with the understanding that the body itself is always a consistent manifestation of the human soul.

They think " i was never accepted because of xnity...Satan will accept my feelings about myself!" When such disillusions are far from the truth.
 
FancyMancy said:
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.
Satanism is about freedom and being oneself, compared with practically everything else these days.
But being a tranny is the opposite of being oneself isn't it ?
 
Shadowcat said:
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.

I do. When I first dedicated i actually also exposed some nutty jews that thought they were animals in humans bodies AND transgender. These types of people often misinterpret the "freedom to be yourself" in satanism as "i can be whoever i feel or want to be because Satan will accept me no matter what because there is no sin satanism" This is the exact gross misinterpretation that attracts a lot of people who are mentally ill or even people who try to justify reverse xtian shit, or other very unsatanic things, when they dont actually understand that the "freedom to be yourself and follow your nature" means actually realizing and coming in touch with the natural aspects and functions of the human soul and how it was really meant to evolve, with the understanding that the body itself is always a consistent manifestation of the human soul.

They think " i was never accepted because of xnity...Satan will accept my feelings about myself!" When such disillusions are far from the truth.
Yeah ,it's been very weird. The way you know what is happening in society is by seeing who the Jews are supporting.

They always try to idolize the most destructive and deranged people but they'll never idolize a good person.

We have a lot of very intelligent, hardworking and apolitical Indians (mainly Brahmins) or Japanese living in the Western world who are working in important structural positions and do not racemix. They went there legally and proved to be the best. They won't even idolize that kind of an immigrant. But they'll idolize the Somalian or Moslem Immigrant who is low iq and doesn't have any skills and is there to destroy Western Civilization rather than contribute to something.

They won't idolize a woman who is competent and is high iq and achieved a top position using her mind and Grit. But they'll idolize a woman whose a dumb slut.

The worst deranged kind of idolization the jews have done so far is to idolize mentally ill people and claimed that they were women ,waging war against Humanity itself.

Women should not forgive and forget. Women should remember all these years they were lied to and then stabbed in the back. And the ones responsible for it.
 
Shadowcat said:
Jack said:
Aquarius said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.

I do. When I first dedicated i actually also exposed some nutty jews that thought they were animals in humans bodies AND transgender. These types of people often misinterpret the "freedom to be yourself" in satanism as "i can be whoever i feel or want to be because Satan will accept me no matter what because there is no sin satanism" This is the exact gross misinterpretation that attracts a lot of people who are mentally ill or even people who try to justify reverse xtian shit, or other very unsatanic things, when they dont actually understand that the "freedom to be yourself and follow your nature" means actually realizing and coming in touch with the natural aspects and functions of the human soul and how it was really meant to evolve, with the understanding that the body itself is always a consistent manifestation of the human soul.

They think " i was never accepted because of xnity...Satan will accept my feelings about myself!" When such disillusions are far from the truth.

I am pretty sure it is even on the JoS website itself, saying that this is not the place for people that believe they aee fairies or werewolves or whatever. When I first joined this was also repeated a couple of times by some members.
 
Lunar Dance 666 said:

I am pretty sure it is even on the JoS website itself, saying that this is not the place for people that believe they aee fairies or werewolves or whatever. When I first joined this was also repeated a couple of times by some members.

Some people are so ignorant and out of touch with reality, that they think this does not apply to them. Its a real shame, but what can you do...
 
Jack said:
FancyMancy said:
Jack said:
I don't know what it is but Satanism attracts a lot of Trannies for some reason. It's one of those things that happens but you don't know why.
Satanism is about freedom and being oneself, compared with practically everything else these days.
But being a tranny is the opposite of being oneself isn't it ?
I do agree with that, but they think it is themself. They may be in for a rude awakening, but if they truly - and I mean truly - do soul-searching, then they can find their actual true self. It may be a bitter pill to swallow when they realise things are against what they want and expect and hope and wish, but I strongly suspect many are trying to find validation through the filter of confirmation bias.

Confirmation bias is the tendency to search for, interpret, favour, and recall information in a way that confirms or supports one's prior beliefs or values. People display this bias when they select information that supports their views, ignoring contrary information, or when they interpret ambiguous evidence as supporting their existing attitudes.

I think that's why. Rhetorical question - how many stay; how many leave? If soul-searching, then they would stay and develop themselves and advance and improve for the better.
 
Aquarius said:

Your attitude expresses gross negligence and likely unfounded egotism. I'd welcome any delusional trans person over a dull entitled one such as yourself.

Gender and sex aren't the same thing, sex is biological and gender is social. Chromosomes determine your sex, social conditioning determine your social identity (gender). I actually find gender to be a completely redundant social construct and find it annoying when people think they can force me to perceive or interact with them in specific ways. Still, many people may be caught up with their identify and place in society, this is the intention of the enemy and many of their devices.
 
Meteor said:
FancyMancy said:
Jack said:
But being a tranny is the opposite of being oneself isn't it ?
I do agree with that, but they think it is themself. They may be in for a rude awakening, but if they truly - and I mean truly - do soul-searching, then they can find their actual true self. It may be a bitter pill to swallow when they realise things are against what they want and expect and hope and wish, but I strongly suspect many are trying to find validation through the filter of confirmation bias.

Confirmation bias is the tendency to search for, interpret, favour, and recall information in a way that confirms or supports one's prior beliefs or values. People display this bias when they select information that supports their views, ignoring contrary information, or when they interpret ambiguous evidence as supporting their existing attitudes.

I think that's why. Rhetorical question - how many stay; how many leave? If soul-searching, then they would stay and develop themselves and advance and improve for the better.
I don't think changing one's body really has anything to do with whether one is being onself. There's something a friend told me when I had an identity crisis of sorts: that no matter how deeply I change, even inside, I'll always still be me, no matter what. And I realised that he's right, that I'm still the same person I've always been, even after everything that happened. It was such a relief for me.

I think being myself should be more about trying to understand the person inside with an open mind, and rather than harshly rejecting all the parts I don't like, and shaming myself for everything I deem imperfect, I should treat that person - myself - with the same respect I would treat, for example, my fiancé.

Being impulsive is not the same as being true to oneself, nor is being cautious; in actuality, emotions and other issues have little to do with it. At least to me personally, the "self" seems to be something that lies much deeper, where things like gender or my body aren't really as relevant anymore. I did state before that I would most likely want to be male if I had been born female; that alone should be telling that being myself, or really being anything on a surface level, isn't what this is really about. Changing how I appear to myself and others only alleviates the symptoms somewhat, without actually solving the issue that caused them. It's about being at odds with other people's expectations of me, feeling like I can never be good enough, and internalising that rejection. I know I'm my own worst critic, though. That's why, if I really want to become able to be myself, then I have to let go... of the seemingly bottomless hatred that has been welling up inside of me for longer than I can remember. If I ever let that hatred out, I'll turn into a monster; but the result of having turned it inwards my whole life, is this...

But if I really want to be myself, then I most likely have to come to understand that hatred too. If I try to simply reject it, as I always have, I'll never be able to let go; everything would just repeat.

You need to speak with a professional, it couldn't be more clear that this forum is not a place for mental support. I can relate with this to some degree, feeling as if I've had to hide who I am for so long and losing my ability to express who I am in an honest way. I know that's not exactly what your facing, but it's similar enough that perhaps my solution can give some insight. Stop thinking, just function. Be the person you want to be and do what you want to do, no holds barred. Do not allow the opinions of others (general society, people here including the degenerates, or even myself) to influence you if it goes against your own intentions. Do things unapologetically, and if people demand apology tell them to fuck themselves. The frustration you hold back can be used as a source of power that can liberate you from your own mind. Allow yourself to break free from your own restrictions, yes they are enemy caused, but they are self enforced.

AVE.
 
RED DAWN said:
Aquarius said:

Your attitude expresses gross negligence and likely unfounded egotism. I'd welcome any delusional trans person over a dull entitled one such as yourself.

Gender and sex aren't the same thing, sex is biological and gender is social. Chromosomes determine your sex, social conditioning determine your social identity (gender). I actually find gender to be a completely redundant social construct and find it annoying when people think they can force me to perceive or interact with them in specific ways. Still, many people may be caught up with their identify and place in society, this is the intention of the enemy and many of their devices.
Your opinion is redundant and based on your feelings. Gender and sex are the same thing, and if you're a manly girl it doesn't mean that you need to act girly or whatever for society, that feeling of having to conform is all in your head.
 
Aquarius said:
RED DAWN said:
Aquarius said:

Your attitude expresses gross negligence and likely unfounded egotism. I'd welcome any delusional trans person over a dull entitled one such as yourself.

Gender and sex aren't the same thing, sex is biological and gender is social. Chromosomes determine your sex, social conditioning determine your social identity (gender). I actually find gender to be a completely redundant social construct and find it annoying when people think they can force me to perceive or interact with them in specific ways. Still, many people may be caught up with their identify and place in society, this is the intention of the enemy and many of their devices.
Your opinion is redundant and based on your feelings. Gender and sex are the same thing, and if you're a manly girl it doesn't mean that you need to act girly or whatever for society, that feeling of having to conform is all in your head.

I told you my feelings, which are clearly in contrast of how gender is typically used. If it was up to me, gender wouldn't exist. I'm telling you it does, and I defined the difference. It has nothing to do with my feelings. The feeling of having to conform is often enforced by society, especially where women and lgbt are still discriminated against. You think people living in Syria don't have to conform to society's standards as a queer? You have no idea what you're talking about, or have the intelligence to understand something you don't experience in your own life.
 
Meteor said:
RED DAWN said:
Meteor said:
I don't think changing one's body really has anything to do with whether one is being onself. There's something a friend told me when I had an identity crisis of sorts: that no matter how deeply I change, even inside, I'll always still be me, no matter what. And I realised that he's right, that I'm still the same person I've always been, even after everything that happened. It was such a relief for me.

I think being myself should be more about trying to understand the person inside with an open mind, and rather than harshly rejecting all the parts I don't like, and shaming myself for everything I deem imperfect, I should treat that person - myself - with the same respect I would treat, for example, my fiancé.

Being impulsive is not the same as being true to oneself, nor is being cautious; in actuality, emotions and other issues have little to do with it. At least to me personally, the "self" seems to be something that lies much deeper, where things like gender or my body aren't really as relevant anymore. I did state before that I would most likely want to be male if I had been born female; that alone should be telling that being myself, or really being anything on a surface level, isn't what this is really about. Changing how I appear to myself and others only alleviates the symptoms somewhat, without actually solving the issue that caused them. It's about being at odds with other people's expectations of me, feeling like I can never be good enough, and internalising that rejection. I know I'm my own worst critic, though. That's why, if I really want to become able to be myself, then I have to let go... of the seemingly bottomless hatred that has been welling up inside of me for longer than I can remember. If I ever let that hatred out, I'll turn into a monster; but the result of having turned it inwards my whole life, is this...

But if I really want to be myself, then I most likely have to come to understand that hatred too. If I try to simply reject it, as I always have, I'll never be able to let go; everything would just repeat.

You need to speak with a professional, it couldn't be more clear that this forum is not a place for mental support. I can relate with this to some degree, feeling as if I've had to hide who I am for so long and losing my ability to express who I am in an honest way. I know that's not exactly what your facing, but it's similar enough that perhaps my solution can give some insight. Stop thinking, just function. Be the person you want to be and do what you want to do, no holds barred. Do not allow the opinions of others (general society, people here including the degenerates, or even myself) to influence you if it goes against your own intentions. Do things unapologetically, and if people demand apology tell them to fuck themselves. The frustration you hold back can be used as a source of power that can liberate you from your own mind. Allow yourself to break free from your own restrictions, yes they are enemy caused, but they are self enforced.

AVE.
I was only talking about it online because professionals don't understand all the deeper things. Research about the effectiveness of different approaches in improving well-being lets them suggest things that will improve well-being in one way or another, usually. But I've always been very curious, and wanted to understand everything, even things that are redundant or "simply are the way they are". Professionals can't give me the answers to questions like that, nor can I, no matter how I may try; nor can people on the internet either. What turned out to be far more helpful lately is to ask less questions, to let go of my scrutiny, and just do things. Things that I had tried to convince myself were wrong, for some reason... perhaps pressure from others? It doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter.

I was holding back so much, for what? There are so many precious things in this world. There was nothing inherently wrong with me or the world; I was just focussing on all the wrong things to make it seem that way. But that just ruins everything for no reason. No more.

Stop thinking, just function.
You're on point. I've been thinking for years now: "I should think less." But I never quite understood how to put that into action, because the smallest issues could set me of a path of endless overthinking again. I finally feel ready for it now. It's like something heavy was burdening me to be overly inquisitive about everything; and without that, I feel such a relief. It's incredible.

All the potential worlds in my mind suddenly don't seem so important anymore, if I can just explore the real world. I feel alive.

I'm glad to hear that. Keep that energy.
 
RED DAWN said:
Aquarius said:
RED DAWN said:
Your attitude expresses gross negligence and likely unfounded egotism. I'd welcome any delusional trans person over a dull entitled one such as yourself.

Gender and sex aren't the same thing, sex is biological and gender is social. Chromosomes determine your sex, social conditioning determine your social identity (gender). I actually find gender to be a completely redundant social construct and find it annoying when people think they can force me to perceive or interact with them in specific ways. Still, many people may be caught up with their identify and place in society, this is the intention of the enemy and many of their devices.
Your opinion is redundant and based on your feelings. Gender and sex are the same thing, and if you're a manly girl it doesn't mean that you need to act girly or whatever for society, that feeling of having to conform is all in your head.

I told you my feelings, which are clearly in contrast of how gender is typically used. If it was up to me, gender wouldn't exist. I'm telling you it does, and I defined the difference. It has nothing to do with my feelings. The feeling of having to conform is often enforced by society, especially where women and lgbt are still discriminated against. You think people living in Syria don't have to conform to society's standards as a queer? You have no idea what you're talking about, or have the intelligence to understand something you don't experience in your own life.
And are you in Syria or any muslim country?
Because everywhere I look in the West I see that lgbt is accepted basically anywhere, pride flags down windows and these lgbt having degenerate parades with kids doing sexualized dances.
Lgbt is a jewish organization, I'll tell you the hard feeling shattering truth, there are only gay, bisexual and heterosexual people. Transgender people are mentally ill people and all those who associate with that degenerate lgbt organization are degenerates themselves.

And queer is just a strange identity people like associating with, not a gender. Gender and sex are the same. Perhaps you'd also like to discuss the new 100 genders that have been invented in the last 5 years?
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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