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The following quote is from another thread: https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=553#p3608
I resonate with this somewhat, because in the past I've failed to realize the balance between too much and too little. Burning yourself out is not something you want to go through, because it's very difficult to recover. In an organization like this, there are fanatics that take it to extremes, you want to attain godhood so badly or even simply raise your Kundalini, you'll do anything for it, or die trying...
The reason I'm writing a thread about this kind of subject is to forward something to the fanatics who currently overexert themselves, and I encourage SS who *have* overexerted themselves and recovered to share as well. I was one of those people who wanted to amass as much energy as possible, just to unleash it on our ultimate goal so we may be hailed as "heroes" somehow to the community and to the Gods, but this is not the case, it doesn't work like that.
If you went to a gym, you lift weights, you want to become a bodybuilder, you want to be huge like Hulk Hogan. So for hours a day, you religiously go to the gym and lift weights, despite your muscles aching and tearing so badly you learn to love the pain. It's a similar idea, but overexertion in a workout may result in a hospital trip. In a spiritual sense, it'll result in you burning out, and not having the energy to perform rituals or even meditate anymore in extreme cases because after you've exhausted all of your energy, you become a spiritual paraplegic. In other words, doing too much can result in doing little to nothing at all.
People like this who amass a ridiculous amount of energy within them tend to have a lot of ego as well, for a few reasons. One, they can't control all of that energy a lot of the time, and it just goes out wild and untamed. In my case, in the form of rage, hatred, defensiveness, but it can manifest in many other ways. This just leads to delusions of grandeur, or self-corruption of the knowledge that they've studied for months, perhaps years.
To succeed, there must be a balance between too little and too much. Only the individual will know for him/herself.
I invite other SS to discuss overexertion and if it's happened to them as well.
Lydia said:No, you can fry your nervous system and permanently damage yourself or become insane, and become useless. This has happened to other SS. Neither is better.HauptSturm said:Kieith666 Doing too much meditation and too many RTRs is better than doing no meditation and no RTRs.
@Kieith666: That is obviously not the Gods! That is the enemy. The Gods will never be angry at you like that. You need to keep telling yourself it's the enemy and ignore it, and you need to chill. If you don't, you will burn yourself out, and you will be miserable. Actually it sounds like you already are miserable. This is the JOY of Satan, don't make yourself miserable! Cut back on some stuff, and take time to just relax. This is imperative.
I resonate with this somewhat, because in the past I've failed to realize the balance between too much and too little. Burning yourself out is not something you want to go through, because it's very difficult to recover. In an organization like this, there are fanatics that take it to extremes, you want to attain godhood so badly or even simply raise your Kundalini, you'll do anything for it, or die trying...
The reason I'm writing a thread about this kind of subject is to forward something to the fanatics who currently overexert themselves, and I encourage SS who *have* overexerted themselves and recovered to share as well. I was one of those people who wanted to amass as much energy as possible, just to unleash it on our ultimate goal so we may be hailed as "heroes" somehow to the community and to the Gods, but this is not the case, it doesn't work like that.
If you went to a gym, you lift weights, you want to become a bodybuilder, you want to be huge like Hulk Hogan. So for hours a day, you religiously go to the gym and lift weights, despite your muscles aching and tearing so badly you learn to love the pain. It's a similar idea, but overexertion in a workout may result in a hospital trip. In a spiritual sense, it'll result in you burning out, and not having the energy to perform rituals or even meditate anymore in extreme cases because after you've exhausted all of your energy, you become a spiritual paraplegic. In other words, doing too much can result in doing little to nothing at all.
People like this who amass a ridiculous amount of energy within them tend to have a lot of ego as well, for a few reasons. One, they can't control all of that energy a lot of the time, and it just goes out wild and untamed. In my case, in the form of rage, hatred, defensiveness, but it can manifest in many other ways. This just leads to delusions of grandeur, or self-corruption of the knowledge that they've studied for months, perhaps years.
To succeed, there must be a balance between too little and too much. Only the individual will know for him/herself.
I invite other SS to discuss overexertion and if it's happened to them as well.