I have cried during & after ritual this night. I understand I shouldn't feel sorrowful, my tears are a mixture of immense gratitude & slight sorrow.

I understand if anything I should be strong emotionally, because that's what Maxine would want for us, to be strong in ourselves, The Gods & Father.

I have learned so much through the information she has shared, she helped me understand about the Gods, Father; how to properly vibrate Runes, as well as through her audio sermons. So much knowledge has flowed to us through her & from her.

I never met her but she made such a positive impact in my life.

This night I burn a black pillar candle for her, with intention of remembrance & reverence. Long, like her life & effort she put into enlightening us all.

I suppose the sorrow stems from lacking self discipline & human emotion of beginning mourning perhaps? But what should I mourn? I remind myself this is nothing to be sad about, I should feel joyful, for our beloved & noble Priestess is home with Father where she rightfully belongs, free from the ailments & toxicity of this mortal realm.

Maxine, my respect for you is eternal, wholeheartedly & sincerely. Thank you for your prominent role in helping me to shape myself into a knowledgeable creature.

I am confident you are well taken care of. Thank you for all of your work, wonderful woman.

I dislike my Catholic neighbors. To the Christian hell with them. To Satan's hell with me.

I am a joyful creature.