Axaru said:
Hi
My name is Adam and I was a member of the jos for almost 3 years back in the days. I did the 72 name RTR everyday for months in a row and everything went fine. But then I fell for a jewish trap. It is called “anticosmic satanism 218 / TOTBL “. This left me vulnerable to the enemy and made me end up with spiritual emptiness and apathy. My soul has been much damaged during the time that I left. I have now decided to rejoin the joy of Satan and I have asked father Enki to forgive me and to take me back. I started my first Final Rtr rituals last week in the hope of mending my soul from the enemy attacks. Now, I have a question about the final Rtr. I feel like I properly protected myself but still I felt no significant benefits from the final RTR. Rather I felt real bad psychic attacks that made my stomach turn around. I also felt slowed down. Does this mean that Enki is no longer protecting me? Has he forgiven me? And is he still with me ? Or does it mean that I was too lazy with auric protection? As I understand it, once a psychic attack gets through, no amount of aftercleansing can remove its effect? Thank you.
Gotta start from square one again. This means fighting the same challenges you had to when you initially started out the first time in order to strengthen your soul again. Anti-Cosmic Satanism is a trap much like the Illuminati was and you can blatantly see in their works jewish symbols and mentions of leviathan (the jewish soul) and all their other related filth.
Satan is not, nor will he ever be, some 'awl fergiving jewsus'. If you made a mistake in your path then you damn well better correct it and make it right, because saying you're sorry and doing nothing more will get you no where.
The sickness you feel when doing the RTR is likely not a psychic attack but instead the amount of filth you've allowed in your soul from the enemy being cleaned out. When we purify our souls of filth and negativity within, as it is leaving us it manifests in a variety of ways depending on how deep-seated the garbage is. These manifestations include but are not limited to: doubt, fear, sudden depression, dread, sickness, the feeling of something 'wrong', etc.
This is a good sign in that the RTR is working to free you. Some members that have allowed enemy filth to affect them too much will find that whenever they are doing RTRs or a working that attacks the enemy, they feel like they are being attacked themselves. This is because the enemy energy they have allowed into themselves is being destroyed by the workings, because the workings destroy the enemy and such energy is
of the enemy thus it is affected and you feel it.
I encourage you to continue doing the RTRs regardless of how it makes you feel, and know that any negativity that occurs while doing it is just the working cleaning the filth out of you. Don't try to get rid of everything in one day by doing like 30 RTRs as this could result in a violent reaction. Just do 1 or 2 daily for now and keep going. In addition you are in no state to be half-assing your protection and aura cleaning since you are likely much worse off now than you were before you first started out. It's not impossible to get back up on your feet and we've had members recover completely from far worse, but this requires you to make a consistent effort.
As for your relationship with Satan, I suggest you begin mending it as soon as possible while you continue to pick yourself back up. Dedicate a number of workings on yourself for a day to him to show that you are still going to fight for your personal growth to finish his work. Create or send him gifts, poems, art, crafts, something that is genuine and sincere from your love and affection. Do not expect any forgiveness as this must be earned. Satan does not want to hear you apologizing and pleading for forgiveness like mindless xtians do for their false jewish 'savior'. I don't know the story of your situation but if you have made a genuine mistake and understand that it was a mistake, then Satan will understand as well, but
you must make amends.
Also as a side note, do not share any personal information about yourself whatsoever such as your name, actual location, etc. It's for your safety.
