Hey there.SerLorars13 said:
Routines are individual, but I do think what you are doing here isn't very healthy or effective. How come all those Squares end conveniently on the 30th? Or do you mean you plan on cancelling them then?SerLorars13 said:It's not the first time when I do a high amount of RTR's a day, tho last time I did 8 RTRs and I only could do them just for a few days and after that I didn't had the motivation to do them anymore. Now if I look at what I do now, if I look at those high amounts of reps it's clearly why I feel less motivation, or this is what I just think, it takes too much energy. But at the same time In my head I think I have sufficient energy. My schedule is this and it escalated quickly cause 3 weeks ago was very small compared to this:
- Aura cleaning before and after the schedule
-Munka working (9x each main chakra and 9x affirmation and I intend to do it until 14 nov [90 days])
- Obliterate Saturn (Sol 111x and 9x affirmation and I intend to do it until 14 nov [90 days])
- SURYAYE for AoP (216x and 9x affirmation and I intend to do it until 2 nov [90 days])
- 2 RTRs
- Sun Spiritual Square ( I end it on 30th)
- 2 RTRs
- Sun Material Square ( I ent it on 30th)
- 2 RTRs
- Mars Material Square ( I end it on the 30th)
- 2 RTRs
- Jupiter Material Square ( I end it on the 30th)
- 2 RTRs
- Jupiter Spiritual Square ( I end it on the 30)
- Removing Curses Part II
I think I am doing many mistakes here and I'm pushing myself too much. I think it is best to end those squares and after that I will just start the 6 month training program which I tried to do, but I never really made it far more than the 2nd month.
In my head if I'm doing so many workings I should be able to have enough energy to do the RTR's too. I am overwhelmed after I do just one working that's why I do right after 2 RTR's to drain the energy that's too much to bear. I'm starting to think that's not ok. Should I keep the RTR's like this until I end the Squares or should I stop doing the squares and make no more than 4 RTR's a day? (I also try to do 10 RTR's a day because of the times we are in right now [That holiday that jews have, ah yes, AV if I recall it corectly])
I will do Wunjo with 36 reps, but I'm not sure what affirmation to create, to use. And if it's not overwhelming when I do the work I will try to stay focused on my goal. It's hard to stay focused when I do a work with high reps or many in a row.
Thank you for your advice! <3
If possible, add on the Returning Curses I and II atleast once a day. It's an important part in keeping yourself clean and protected. Just make sure the moon isn't void when you do it for the first time.SerLorars13 said:Thank you Aquarius and Shael, I really didn't knew I was doing everything wrong, well almost.
I didn't knew you need to let energies "settle" about 45 minutes or more. I will stop those squares imediately.
From now I keep just:
- Obliterate Saturn
- Munka
- AoP SURYAE
-2 RTRs
- on 30th I will add Wunjo working too
These are just workings, and that's it, no more workings untill i don't finish them.
And Aquarius I'm gonna use that sample of routine as a base if it's ok. And maybe add some yoga, but sometime later.
I will keep it simple.
I don't know what it made me ask for guidance, but I'm glad I asked. Thank you
If possible, add on the Returning Curses I and II atleast once a day. It's an important part in keeping yourself clean and protected. Just make sure the moon isn't void when you do it for the first time.SerLorars13 said:Thank you Aquarius and Shael, I really didn't knew I was doing everything wrong, well almost.
I didn't knew you need to let energies "settle" about 45 minutes or more. I will stop those squares imediately.
From now I keep just:
- Obliterate Saturn
- Munka
- AoP SURYAE
-2 RTRs
- on 30th I will add Wunjo working too
These are just workings, and that's it, no more workings untill i don't finish them.
And Aquarius I'm gonna use that sample of routine as a base if it's ok. And maybe add some yoga, but sometime later.
I will keep it simple.
I don't know what it made me ask for guidance, but I'm glad I asked. Thank you
I'm glad it's working well for you. The reason I recommend to do the vibrations like this is because for easily the first 2 years into being an SS I always rushed every vibration, and didn't focus properly. I only got lackluster results because of this and it improved drastically once I switched to this drawn-out method with full focus instead.SerLorars13 said:Now I do 216x SURYAE in the drawn-out manner and it's taking me approximately 1 hour. And now it's even more powerful, I can feel it. I was rushing the vibrations in every working, but now I take it more slowly. This is amazing!
I take the time to rest for 45 min or more between each woking, I'm not so overwhelmed anymore, but the energies are still powerful enough and sometimes i can't concentrate i even daydream lol. This only means that I must do void meditation multiple times a day not just twice plus something to increase my capacity for handling energy, if I'm right.
Thank you again!
I actually linked the wrong sermon by accident. Whoops. This is the one I actually meant:Shael said:...SerLorars13 said:
Check this sermon from HP. Hoodedcobra666 on overloading, too. I think it's very insightful.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=20246&p=86514
Well you can curse him is you have a good reason for it.SerLorars13 said:I want to make my ex suffer, suffer as I suffer. But I don't know if that's ok.
So this is how I feel now, what can I do to solve these problems?
Everything done willingly against you is enough for you to take revenge on him. The problem here is that it takes a lot of time and energy for it.SerLorars13 said:I don't know if being lied and played is a good reason to curse. But those ties must be cut off anyway.
Thanks, I will try to get a new boyfriend, and try not to get obsessed about him (Mars and Pluto are in my 5th house so I think I can get obsessed).
Hail Satan!
I think if someone intentionally hurts you and causes you grief, you have every right to curse them in return. Perhaps a deathspell would be going a bit overboard, but you could maybe use the Tyr rune to bring about justice and fair punishment. It's number 17 in the runic kabalah.SerLorars13 said:I don't know if being lied and played is a good reason to curse. But those ties must be cut off anyway.
If you are unsure about your own planetary aspects and natal chart in general, I'd recommend you to order a reading from one of our astrologers. It's very inexpesively priced considering how valuable the knowledge is that you gain through it. HP Hoodedcobra666 is currently still busy completing previous orders from what I know, so I'd recommend checking out Lydia's services over at http://lydiasastrology.com/.SerLorars13 said:Thanks, I will try to get a new boyfriend, and try not to get obsessed about him (Mars and Pluto are in my 5th house so I think I can get obsessed).
Hail Satan!
Please don't listen to non-ss, they are severely deluded regarding energy and most times speak about stuff that they don't even understand, most times they are just people who want to show off talking about energy eccSerLorars13 said:Lydia said:Quite often, when doing freeing the soul workings, the problem appears to get worse. This is because the problem is rising to the surface to be removed, stick with it and it will be completely removed. I've done more freeing soul workings than I can remember over the years, and they often feel worse for a few weeks and then they get better
Almost every problem got worse.
Freeing the chakras from Negative Karma using Munka really made me vulnerable. I even got scared just by looking at some random photo with a woman smiling lol.
I've done a research concerning my natal chart and I've found some general problems, I'm not an adept tho, it took me alot even just to find simple things. But many problems seem to match what I've found in my natal chart.
I do Obliterate Saturn to get rid of my anxiety, some emotional traumas and my problems regarding speaking and general comunication and flow of energy I think.
I have some kind of friend (not SS) that she says she can feel energy (she might me capable, but I'm not sure about it) and she said that my energy is repressed. Well I'm not surprised, even my blood flow doesn't seem good (most of the time my feet and arms are cold), and I never tested my lungs to check if they have a problem. But I feel pain daily regarding my heart, and I think It's tied somehow with Anxiety.
The problems seem to get worse, but I'm happy, this means my working... works )))
I stick with it as best as I can, thank you for advice!
Glad to hear some that your repressed emotions are starting to come out. Keep it upSerLorars13 said:I start to feel a desire to punch, squeeze, beat something until I get tired or bored. I wonder why.
And yesterday after I started doing hatha yoga my sexual energies got stronger and after I finished the yoga session I masturbated and I directed the energy to my (potential) GD.
It felt so good, better than other days. I'm masturbating frequently, but yesterday I felt much more pleasure and the sexual energy was a lot more stronger and intense.
Not to mention that my hatred for jews and christards got stronger too along with anger.
I just wanted to say this.
Hail Satan!
"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan