Kavya Shukra
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Not too recently, I went to visit some of my childhood homes and school, and the environment drastically changed over the course of the years. I went on a nostalgic trip, and travelled to the parks and places I used to go that I used to love as a kid, only to feel extremely depressed because a lot of the people I used to meet are gone, and don't know if I'll ever see them again. It made me feel kinda old and view relationships to value them for however long they may be, brief or lifetime. I'm 25 years old, but I feel very very old, and life in a way can be very dark and traumatizing, and show you how quickly life changes before your eyes. I grew up wanting to be a math or reading teacher, get my own house by my age and have a kid or two, but now life is extremely different and the environment is different, and a lot of it has been circumstantial. I look at some of my photos of myself as a little kid and the very few pictures I have of my dad and brothers in Mexico, and the environment over there, and it does feel extremely lonely and depressing just how much time flies and how not having a father around can affect you for the rest of your life.
It feels weird how as new generations come, older generations leave, and a lot of memories fade to the sands of time and become antiques in ones mind. I remember being very optimistic about the future, now, I still do, but after learning just how much life was changed from my past life till now, Earth changed dramatically. I know things are going to get better, and it's a matter of action, but, it feels kinda weird thinking to yourself, who even remembers or recognizes you anymore? Life happens so fast one sometimes forgets to enjoy things while one can. And now as a Satanist, I sometimes ask myself, how is life going to be 10 years from now, 20? How much have I grown since then from now?
It feels weird how as new generations come, older generations leave, and a lot of memories fade to the sands of time and become antiques in ones mind. I remember being very optimistic about the future, now, I still do, but after learning just how much life was changed from my past life till now, Earth changed dramatically. I know things are going to get better, and it's a matter of action, but, it feels kinda weird thinking to yourself, who even remembers or recognizes you anymore? Life happens so fast one sometimes forgets to enjoy things while one can. And now as a Satanist, I sometimes ask myself, how is life going to be 10 years from now, 20? How much have I grown since then from now?