existentialcrisis
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Hey, all.
I'm frustrated with the problems and blockages I face in life and I feel stuck. I'm still very novice spiritually, just trying to be consistent with the basics, plus the RTR. (another frustration is my slow development, but maybe it is myself holding me back...?)
So, with the knowledge from astrology, I'm hoping to do Lydia's obliterating your saturn and finally be free from my bindings and move on.
But here is the catch. Saturn is my chart ruler, and severely debilitated. It does for sure cause difficulties as it strongly afflicts very important placements for me, but at the same time I feel it is too weak. I have a weak sense of self, poor self expression & esteem, discipline issues, etc. Plus my sun is intercepted. I lack fire.
Should I obliterate my saturn anyway? Should I empower it or the other planets instead? Or just work with fire?
Should I just forget about it all until I become an intermediate meditator? Can I stop overthinking it?
I see many issues reflected on my chart and it is confusing trying to figure out where to start, or where it is best to focus, and how to tackle it. It's hard to work on my spiritual life when the material life and inner life is out of order as well. I have so much work to do. How do you decide where to start?
Hope I'm making sense and not oversharing but I find it overwhelming and confusing. I don't like to ask for help but I appreciate any insights. And sorry if this is too basic or foolish of a question.
I'm frustrated with the problems and blockages I face in life and I feel stuck. I'm still very novice spiritually, just trying to be consistent with the basics, plus the RTR. (another frustration is my slow development, but maybe it is myself holding me back...?)
So, with the knowledge from astrology, I'm hoping to do Lydia's obliterating your saturn and finally be free from my bindings and move on.
But here is the catch. Saturn is my chart ruler, and severely debilitated. It does for sure cause difficulties as it strongly afflicts very important placements for me, but at the same time I feel it is too weak. I have a weak sense of self, poor self expression & esteem, discipline issues, etc. Plus my sun is intercepted. I lack fire.
Should I obliterate my saturn anyway? Should I empower it or the other planets instead? Or just work with fire?
Should I just forget about it all until I become an intermediate meditator? Can I stop overthinking it?
I see many issues reflected on my chart and it is confusing trying to figure out where to start, or where it is best to focus, and how to tackle it. It's hard to work on my spiritual life when the material life and inner life is out of order as well. I have so much work to do. How do you decide where to start?
Hope I'm making sense and not oversharing but I find it overwhelming and confusing. I don't like to ask for help but I appreciate any insights. And sorry if this is too basic or foolish of a question.